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Ugh... I'm sick of cryptocurrency man. Had my hopes up on this coin that shot up suddenly... there is a community based around it that is trying to undermine the "whales" who manipulate prices by pumping them up then selling it all off, by buying and holding on. But the people behind the coin are making these claims that can't be substantiated (for example that it's going to be added to one of the main exchanges "next week", while that exchange has no announcement of the sort), and some people I talked to who are really experienced with this stuff said it's almost for sure a "pump and dump" scheme. I bought in for about $1000 at about $4 each coin, last night I could have sold for around $7 per but I was like, no, it'll probably spike again, could have come out at about $1750. I started looking into it more and more today, as the price has slowly fallen. It hit the point that I bought it in at, and I was like, fuck it, I'm recouping so I don't lose anything. But I got a work call that lasted about 3 minutes as I was about to press sell. When I looked again, it had fallen to below $3 per coin, so I sold as fast as I could, figuring it was tanking. Then 3 minutes later it was back up to $5 and it's growing again. :X So instead of funding myself with free lysergamides with the profits like I strongly considered last night, instead I lost about $300 and if I just hadn't been watching it so obsessively I probably wouldn't have lost anything or even gained a bit. Basically I fell for it, that's how it works with these altcoins, big buyers sell rapidly which drops the price very, very quickly, then they buy them again when they're low, which raises the price. I got nervous because while $1000 isn't gonna break the bank, I would also really not want to lose it. And I didn't but I did lose a good chunk of it.

This shit is so unstable. Lesson learned I guess, it's hard not to feel really pissed off right now though. My friend invested $2,000 in ethereum (which is the #2 coin next to bitcoin so generally more stable) and he makes several trades a day as he watches the peaks and valleys, in about a month he's almost doubled his investment. If he keeps doing it, he could double it again. But he says it's really taxing and stressful sometimes. I was hoping I could utilize this new technology that's basically like the wild west right now to build my savings pretty quickly and if I got good at it, to help my girl make some extra income with her savings. But so far I haven't been very good at it. :\
 
LSDMDMA&14087121 said:
im telling you ask sf for my government and run my name tomorrow. ask her which county i live in and either run my name via checking the docket or the county jail roster.
find the docket amd see i was arrested.
I knew i was right
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Xorkoth said:
I still call paranoia. Let us know if you're okay when you chill out lama.
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First line there was saying to ask xstayfadedx, another Bluelighter and his ex girlfriend, to run his name tomorrow. If we don't hear from him I'll ask her to look into it.
 
Damn @Xorkoth, always blows to lose some money. I am not diligent enough to try to profit from coin trading.
 
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But so far I haven't been very good at it. :\
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Start reading basics on the stock market and exchange trading my man. I almost got into XRP a few weeks back, decided against, and am glad I did. I don't have the time nor energy to be playing that game right now. Playing crytocurrencies is just as serious and as much an investment as stocks so if you're really gonna do anything with it besides buy super low and just hold, hold, hold, then you need to read, read, read.
 
I should stop reading the news, it just makes me feel angry. Everybody is getting their panties in a bunch over the G20 riots ("It was like war zone!!1111!" Dude, there are actual wars going on and the people behind it were invited to our city to rub shoulders with each other.) and how many cops were injured. They have been blasting it all week that almost 500 cops were injured and that it's time to finally get tough on leftwing radicals again. (The fact that we hesitantly started to adress the issue of our interiour intelligence service protecting right wing terrorists on a decade long murder spree, while the police were mostly just harrassing the families of the immigrant victims, apparently was just too much for some people.) I can already smell the undignified law and order election campaigns this summer...

Oh yeah, it actually came out yesterday that the almost 500 cops that were injured, weren't actually all injured during the riots but this number came from adding all the injured cops over the 2 weeks prior to the summit. And apparently "injured" actually inlcudes all cops that had some medical issues like dehydration and exaustion from standing in the sun for too long. This is about half of the almost 500 "injured" cops. And of those left, apparently 130 were victims of their own pepperspray. So that leaves us with about a hundred instead of almost 500. I don't think anybody asked them how many of the injured cops showed the typical fractures of the fingerbones that you get from hitting people... :\

Oh and for the claim that there was a planned ambush where people horded molotov cocktails and concrete slabs to throw at police from rooftops, there doesn't seem to be any evidence either. The people that were arrested on the rooftop and the scaffolding of the house in question were released in the following 24 hours because apparently police weren't able to back up their claims with evidence. But hey, at least this way they got to show off their shiny new assault rifles they were just equipped with. (Which were given to them only after countless promises that they would only come out in a massive terror attack.)

I cannot eat as much as I want to puke. :|
 
sorry i dropped off the radar! i am having DNS problems, really curious... :( maybe nobody noticed
anyway, it's not because of vacation yet

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yea was working on cartoons this week :) they are in dutch though

was considering making a Trump cartoon with 'ich bin ein hamburger' but it's already too late for current affairs :P oh shit he apparently actually said that already :\ lol

no idea what's up with the DNS! But for the better part of this past week I just couldn't use http protocol / browsing etc due to DNS connection problem. However my phone did not have any such problem via the same wifi... Tried restarting everything countless times, tried using google's DNS server, i've had this problem before... was almost about to install everything again which is a shitty job cause i have a lot of software....

been demotivated / frustrated just from having bad luck, so i played a lot of Skyrim. But changing that, yesterday i did some serious mycology work and tomorrow gardening (my dad wants to make a mini moat in his back garden, lol)...

hopefully i can turn all this around, first though getting my molars pulled already have kratom on hand... i'd like to trip again and will go to france soon hopefully..

what's up with you? :)

/ you guys
 
I think I have to be done with that shit because I think I totally fucking lose it even if I'm not dehydrated and sleep deprived.
I really am not sure what has happened and what didn't happen the last few days and I wasn't even getting real fucked up (for real...I only banged up twice and neither was quite what I wanted rush wise although the one lasted super super super long even for iv standards)
I don't know, it could just be the particular dudes shit but yeah. Basically most of the people who actually look at my Facebook were like dude he's tweaking
The thing is I started noticing strange things when I started looking into and arranging grabbing the shit and I've seen suspicious shit while dead ass sober.
I don't know. I just wish I could feel good about myself without it because I never do otherwise.
I never fucked with it super often but obviously I have been doing it since around my birthday because that's the worst day of the year for me every year.
Honestly if I wasn't so sad I wouldn't be drawn towards it. I just want to feel something other than sadness and if the only way to do it is tweak then it's hard not to.
I just wish things didnt have to be like this. That's why I can never make it more than 8 or 9 months off of the 2 hard ones because I feel even worse once I've been off a while and life still isn't close to worth living.
 
don't google surrealist porn

google surrealist porn

@ lama: i hear ya man, it's pretty awkward to come off drugs and see how you get your kicks out of other things in life.. give meaning etc, especially with limited options. on the other hand though, being on drugs in many ways just makes things even harder than they need to be. and of course the brain aspect adds to a lot of compulsion.

being on pregabalin helps smoothen the worst of the grit that grinds my gears but I will be tapering that over the course of 9 months or so (!)... i don't like what it does to my cognition and i can't stay on it forever... so yeah, apart from the dex i will be left with nothing so during those months i will have to sort myself out once again, awkwardly ^

[I'd say it is the best candidate for a treatment for autism that i know of, considering how pregabalin / gabapentinoids seem to act particularly as anxiolytics.]

also, I could not hang with people who do the drugs that seduce me most (well i'll ignore drinking and smoking weed obv)... that would be a ridiculous challenge nobody should put themselves through.. Not saying it is an easy choice to make to ditch (best) friends, just saying if you don't make that choice it really weakens any plan or choice to get sober and stay it.

P.S. i don't think ethereum is wise but okay (from what little i read on it)
 
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You'll kick that shit man.

Ask for help bro. Nothing wrong with that. We are social creatures whether we want to admit it or not.
 
Yes thanks multiple times, registered, renewed, the whole shebang.. restarting router restarting PC, changing DNS to google's, then back again to 'automatic'... eventually a reboot apparently did do the trick but it's incredible that it took so many after days of frustration. So just like last time (happened once before) I don't know what fixed it. I might do way more reboots etc consecutively next time... might be part of some update of either window's or my internet security software.. i suspected the latter because it might act as a middle man for website spoof protection functionality etc? IIRC my biggest suspicion last time was that the internet security is fucking up with properly updating itself and only succeeds after x number of tries... might also interfere with windows being able to shutdown and restart properly which also was being goofy... :(

I should really set up my system back-ups properly again!! Although I am not sure I trust the stability of my system again, but that often does happen with illegal software (though i do try to get the verified ones).

anyway boring...
i'm off to the hospital to get those wisdom teeth pulled.. i really hope it's not a euphemism for a lobotomy
 
Llama, sorry you feel that way man. :( I'd suggest you start doing stuff that you really are interested in. Get out of the house and get involved in something and meet people. It'll help a lot. So will working out because you'll start to feel strong and confident. It really makes a huge difference.

Well guys, it's the 8th day since I last took phenibut. :) I'm proud of myself for finally jumping off because I've been tapering for a long time now and I kept meaning to jump off but would come up with reasons not to. I just find it unacceptable to be addicted to anything, I've been through opiates, and then ibogaine, and I learned a lot from that, but it's time to grab a little more control again... I had an observer moment over myself and realized my oversight of myself has been slowly slipping and I need to get it back. Fortunately, the withdrawal is really light, the effect I mostly notice is that I feel emotionally fragile, and more easily irritated by a good bit. Stress is harder to handle. Yesterday I went skinny dipping in a high mountain river with my girlfriend, actually we just did naked rock hopping with some really brief dips (that water is COLD) and just had the greatest time, not a care in the world, and then we ended up spending the rest of the day until late running errands... she was being super indecisive at REI (she is the most indecisive shopper ever), and hanging around stores for a long time with indecisive people who want to try every single floor model 2 or 3 times is a thing that has always made me feel irritated and slightly anxious. The manager kept coming up to us and we were in kind of a fancy shopping area in our swimsuits and all gritty from the river and I just felt like he wanted us to leave. Anyway I had a really hard time keeping it together, and got kind of agitated about the whole situation. Normally I would have just felt annoyed but kept my composure. Afterwards I apologized to her and explained to her that I had jumped off phenibut and was experiencing some withdrawals. She knew I took it but she doesn't try to follow my drug-taking patterns closely or anything so she wasn't aware I was experiencing that, and she was really sweet about it.

Anyway that's just an example of how it is... I experience random bouts of annoyance or anxiety, and things that make me feel overwhelmed make me feel more overwhelmed. But it's slowly getting better. I also am having a hard time sleeping. I've taken a little etizolam twice during this period because I was still awake after hours of trying to sleep, but I'm definitely not going to make any sort of habit of that. Anyway I'm pretty pleased by how easy it is compared to what I feared. If opiate withdrawal is a 10, then this is a 0.5. I have had no compulsion to take more at all, I'd like to because I like how it feels but I want more to be out of the cycle of needing to take it. Feels like I'm 70% of the way there. I even left my tub of phenibut sitting on my work desk until this morning when I noticed it.

I'm also starting to reduce the amount of alcohol I drink in a sitting. Gonna stop smoking cigarettes too but I'm waiting until I feel normal first. Fortunately I have no physical dependence on those things, but alcohol in particular I really like. I don't want to stop drinking, but I want to not drink every time I hang out with people or have band nights, and when I drink, I want it to be half as much as I do now. I dunno, maybe I'll get to where I just want to stop drinking, but I do definitely need to do it less.

To help facilitate these changes, I have started exercising again. :) For the moment I'm doing some stuff at home like push-ups to get a baseline level of strength back... plus work is pretty busy and generally I go to the gym and take a long lunch, but that's not really ideal right now. Still, I've been struggling to find the motivation to get back on the path of fitness, but now that I've taken a step, it feels a lot easier. :)
 
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