Yo, if you kind people could send me some good vibes Im goin through it right now. Mostly its what you would expect happen to a person who lives under draconian laws that seeks expand.to expand their conciousness.
This first thing is not directly related to the 2nd like you might think...
Some other shit tho. Think what happens to live stream gamers on Twitch etc. Leave it that If you don't know look it up or PM me. I have my reasons. I probably shouldn't even post this ( on advice) but fuck it I need some support.
Got a man so broken he goin straight to the counselor. So shook I feel like I am on meth when I am completely sober.Thank goodness for.the kind people who run.the
http://oppc.mentalhealthexcellence.org/
$50 initial lifetime membership. Then $30-50 sessions depending. My city at least had a myriad of professionals dealing with all sorts of issues. Great asset. At least for.this country. Anyone with decent state mandated healthcare (not USA) might scoff, but this is some really helpful shit.
Once again, would appreciate good vibes. Thanks

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Like I can count on 5 fingers the fucked up things (I got myself into so no pity) in motion. Now I can also couny on five fingers, beautiful people doing beautiful things to help me. Most not even asked for, tried to deny help. They say thats why you are gettin it, we love you, your heart is good, you deserve a good simple life, let us help. One person told me today as a child I helped.her (an adult) more than I will ever be able to understand. I have your address, I am sending you cash, you cant stop me.
Someone asked me to say one good.thing about today, I said I didnt cop a suicide kit and made an appointment with a PTSD counselor
I think Ice Cube said it best, today was a good day.
Leave this last bit here. 21 year old song by a vegan straightedge (i think) hardcore band named The Pathof Resistance. Songs called Counter.
I have been blastin this song 16 years prolly. The lyrics are kinda repetative, but, even of you dont lole heavy music, you might be supirsed and inspired. I just scream this at the walls. Letting the bastards know I won't give up you cant take my life from me with your laws. A mushroom trip at 19 told me that. Civil Disobedeience or Death (which i fear no where near as much after un brain washing myself from 16 years of indoctrination.
"From day one Schools, peers, media
Push us in certain ways
Intimidated, shamed, pressured Into an untrue identity
The bastard mob whose aim it is
To keep me in check
Can't hold me down, with their mockeries
Or put that noose around my neck
Those brainless clones repulse me
So I'll walk alone
And all I need is one friend called truth
And my heart is its home
This world won't defeat me
This world won't defeat me
This world won't defeat me
I won't be a victim
To the venomous ways around me
This hellish environment is not my master
Day upon day I've listened to your threats
Year upon year I've watched you deteriorate
I have my own mind
Now I make my own choices
And am my own lord in these days
From now on
This world won't defeat me
I have my own mind
Now I make my own choices
And am my own lord in these days
From now on
This world won't defeat me
Those brainless clones repulse me
So I'll walk alone
And all I need is one friend called truth
And my heart is its home
This world won't defeat me
This world won't defeat me
This world won't defeat me"