Cream Gravy?
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I get minor THC WD, my guess because of my fast metabolism and low BMI I have very little stores of THC in my fat. Essentially I get poor sleep for a week and feel irritable/bored. Not too worried about that (the boredom kills me sometimes though). I've been taking O-DSMT and I expect to be clear within a week because my doses are finally near threshold for me. I got sick during Christmas and on my peak day of illness took a hydro or two, and boom, my fever was reduced (probably from the APAP) and I was almost instantly able to enjoy my vacation a bit more. When I returned I continued with the O-DT under the guise of doing it till my illness was over, but it lead to the whole month being daily use, to the point where I would feel queasy and have other bad symptoms till I took my dose each morning. As I've tapered the past week the WDs have been significantly reduced and I should be able to get out of this hole by Wednesday. This morning I didn't have to take any O-DT just to get out of bed and will probably just take a threshold dose before bed to get some sleep.
And I know Xork, lots of people can do things they enjoy for work and still have fun. I was being over-dramatic; however, the past two years have taught me one thing - no one will ever, ever, pay me a livable wage to do anything I enjoy. The fact of the matter is all the things I enjoy do not translate to working. I'm a huge Star Trek nerd and play STO daily, but there's literally no way I can turn that into a way to make money. I'm big into drugs, but I'm not qualified to work in pharmaceuticals and certainly know nothing of chemistry. I really like sports vehicles but wouldn't know the first thing about being a mechanic. I really like pussy but I doubt my gf would approve of me becoming a gigolo. I'm really outdoorsy and would love to be a park ranger but even before the Trump administration, National Parks were having severe budget cuts. A lot of the places I wanted to go hiking at in Arkansas when I lived there were closed due to inability to fund staff and maintenance fees; now Trump is president? Say goodbye National Parks Administration... I really like animals, have always had cool pets but am unwilling to become a breeder because of the emotional turmoil of selling off the creatures you help to nurture and grow. I really like gardening but don't see much opportunity there unless I somehow own my own landscaping company, not to mention I've already had skin cancer scares so I really shouldn't work in labor. I like computers but can't really go past following youtube vids when it comes to working on them. I love to collect vinyls but I'm the odd man out in that, every vinyl shop I know of goes under, gets bought up by someone else, goes under again, gets bought up... you get the picture.
Essentially I cannot find anything I enjoy that pays much of anything, and as such, I'm realizing that whatever I do end up doing will indeed cause a certain sadness within me. It will be a struggle back and forth my whole life; living expenses or fun? Being able to leave this god forsaken town will be a step in the right direction I feel though, so living expenses>fun for now...
And I know Xork, lots of people can do things they enjoy for work and still have fun. I was being over-dramatic; however, the past two years have taught me one thing - no one will ever, ever, pay me a livable wage to do anything I enjoy. The fact of the matter is all the things I enjoy do not translate to working. I'm a huge Star Trek nerd and play STO daily, but there's literally no way I can turn that into a way to make money. I'm big into drugs, but I'm not qualified to work in pharmaceuticals and certainly know nothing of chemistry. I really like sports vehicles but wouldn't know the first thing about being a mechanic. I really like pussy but I doubt my gf would approve of me becoming a gigolo. I'm really outdoorsy and would love to be a park ranger but even before the Trump administration, National Parks were having severe budget cuts. A lot of the places I wanted to go hiking at in Arkansas when I lived there were closed due to inability to fund staff and maintenance fees; now Trump is president? Say goodbye National Parks Administration... I really like animals, have always had cool pets but am unwilling to become a breeder because of the emotional turmoil of selling off the creatures you help to nurture and grow. I really like gardening but don't see much opportunity there unless I somehow own my own landscaping company, not to mention I've already had skin cancer scares so I really shouldn't work in labor. I like computers but can't really go past following youtube vids when it comes to working on them. I love to collect vinyls but I'm the odd man out in that, every vinyl shop I know of goes under, gets bought up by someone else, goes under again, gets bought up... you get the picture.
Essentially I cannot find anything I enjoy that pays much of anything, and as such, I'm realizing that whatever I do end up doing will indeed cause a certain sadness within me. It will be a struggle back and forth my whole life; living expenses or fun? Being able to leave this god forsaken town will be a step in the right direction I feel though, so living expenses>fun for now...