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LOL its just Pabst though, so nothin' special

First time in a long while to drink any alcohol, actually. I feel genuinely idiotic as compared with my usual self :D
 
hipster beer maan
but if i iz ever in texas, you gotta be cool enough to buy for me/drink with me diggity dawg
 
LSDMDMA&9550866 said:
hipster beer maan
but if i iz ever in texas, you gotta be cool enough to buy for me/drink with me diggity dawg
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Diggity dawg you best believe it. I'd take ya out to the bar and tell the bartender you're my little bro or something, so you could order watevs. =D

LOL, definitely not hipster beer though-- more like poor ass that needs an $11 twelve-pack beer :D
 
you could always just get a colt 45 or somethin if you wanna be drunk cheap lawl
forfuckinsho diggity dawg
if i was kickin it wif you, id have mountains of dexedrine crushed down to snort and be sippin on good beer yo]
 
LOL have you ever drank a colt 45 man?

That stuff isn't even like... edible... LOL.

Take my word for it, Pabst is the cheapest stuff you would ever want to actually ingest. Whenever I'm drinking with anyone worth a damn I always buy good beer anyways, I'd prolly treat us to some Magic Hat or Sierra Nevada. :)
 
LOL well take my word for it, those colt 45s are pretty nappy. I much rather be sober than ingest that stuff. Not enjoyable in general, just really cheap and not fun.

Anyways, how's it goin' man? What you be up to lately?
 
willow11 said:
I'm in a similar boat, sexual abuse when I was young, catatonia between the age of 7-10 as well as random blackouts and dissociative phenomena, I was diagnosed with epilepsy and PTSD. All of this mellowed out until about 2 yrs ago when I began blacking out and having abscence seizures again....I actually got diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (better known as multiple personality disorder), but after a whopping grand mal seizure and subsequent MRI, that diagnosis was quashed and it was determined that all these odd neurological events were based on epilepsy and related syndromes. The epilepsy reared its head again due to benzo tapering... It was odd how much the doctors I had been seeing wanted me to have DID and overlooked obvious seizure activity and my past history. Fucking quacks...:|

I swear, I've just got a weird brain, I sleep walk, dream lucidly and for most of the night, expericene crazy hynogogic hallucinations, get needlesly panicked and paranoid...I feel sorry for my now ex-Miss Willow, I'm not a big guy but she had it hard trying to get me to stay in bed, and when I did stay in bed, it was hard for her to avoid me punching her...:\

Anyhow, i believe I will abstain from all drugs for a long long time....
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Wow that's an incredible and tragic story. I can't believe you were actually diagnosed with DID, although what polydrug use + epilepsy could do could seem like it to the VERY untrained eye. I feel so lucky that for all the times I self-diagnosed with shit like aspergers, shizotypal disorder & other personality disorders and DID, I had a good therapist who was able to operate around those assumptions. I was always told to focus on my feelings and to work on what I might feel as predispositions towards insanity or whatever you want to call it. Recently I changed my mind about all those categories I used to peg myself as, and I feel much more free in comparison as to how I used to think. The personality disorder & pharmaceutical racket is truly one of the worst parts of how medicine is practiced these days.

I eventually figured out that if I were to fit into any of those categories, it would be bi-polar type II with melancholic features. I used to feel like the childhood dissociation, emotional flatness, and social problems were features of aspergers, now I can recognize them as aspects of PTSD or anhedonia. The odd bouts of mania I'd suffer made me feel like I was schizo, but after meeting people with much greater degrees of schizotypality and mania than me... I feel lucky to get away with what I feel is essentially all the good qualities of the "mentally ill" with next to none of the negatives-aside from stubborn depression and the occasionally period of well controlled hypomania. Even all the psychiatric terms I used in this paragraph I only use for brevity's sake, I wouldn't even necessarily consider myself bi-polar or social-phobic-which are the only categories I've been "officially" diagnosed as.

But yeah, definitely take as long of a time off drugs as you need to. We can keep the BL fire going without you, I find it definitely triggers me at some points. Especially reading some of the combinations some people on here try... They can really make you want to play a game of RC-roulette. Sometimes reading the Dark Side is a good sobering reminder of what drukqs can do. Take care man. PeaCe and lucK! ;)
 
Roger&Me said:
LOL well take my word for it, those colt 45s are pretty nappy. I much rather be sober than ingest that stuff. Not enjoyable in general, just really cheap and not fun.

Anyways, how's it goin' man? What you be up to lately?
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been relatively amphet free
and pretty much DROOG FREE (yeah, thats a dirty word innit?)
and i am liek 8)
my amphet tolerance is still thar, cause 100 of adderall has me bein liek...ehh...i'm high but not real crazy proper high...
waitin
gotta get that money for dat crystal yo
been caring about paintball again which is nice
 
LSDMDMA&9550910 said:
been relatively amphet free
and pretty much DROOG FREE (yeah, thats a dirty word innit?)
and i am liek 8)
my amphet tolerance is still thar, cause 100 of adderall has me bein liek...ehh...i'm high but not real crazy proper high...
waitin
gotta get that money for dat crystal yo
been caring about paintball again which is nice
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Yeah mang, no reason to be worryin' about that crystal. That stuff is pretty weird and not a lot of fun, I remember seeing demons and shit on the walls when I first did that stuff. Its just powerful like that, and can be pretty scary; its not a regular stimulant.
 
i wanna try smoking it and thats it
i probably wont even be able to find it anyway, its just the only droog i actually want to buy ATM.
ive still got a fat dose of the finest in euro molly stashed
when you first did it?
how much experience with methamphetamine does you have?
 
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just got back from dinner where i had some brews, might go out to a techno show tonight and hang out (not gonna take e or other drugs because I am still on antibiotics, the two beers was bad enough)
 
LSDMDMA&9550929 said:
i wanna try smoking it and thats it
i probably wont even be able to find it anyway, its just the only droog i actually want to buy ATM.
ive still got a fat dose of the finest in euro molly stashed
when you first did it?
how much experience with methamphetamine does you have?
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LOL dats wat I'm saying man...

FUCKING crystal meth (!!)

Expect to do some crazy/dangerous/borderline life-ruining shit when you get high on that stuff.

The last time I did meth, man,,, fuck...

I met these kids at a bar by my parents house like over 5 years ago when I was 18 and had a fake ID...... ANYWAYS, I ended up going back to their place and smoking a bunch of crystal meth with them...

Fucking crazy night man, we smoked puddle after puddle and I was about to join the marines at the time (I was fucking stupid! I actually joined those fuckers but was entry-level separated for some bullshit medical problem that I haven had since I was 4 years old, but that's another story) and these dudes all, by chance, had just finished serving in the marines and so we had some sort of weird warrior kinship.

We started headbutting and punching each other and they punched me because I was just starting down the lonely and horrid road that they had hated so much, and I punched them because they had already survived what I feared I could not. When we had punched each other and wrestled and howled at the moon for a long while, we eventually lost interest in our fighting.

I went back to the bar with a bloodied, smiley face and consumed nearly $250 worth of alcohol and cigarettes before last call, and then I ended up rolling around smoking blunts for about 2 hours in one of the most heavily patrolled areas of my city with no fear getting caught. :D

I ended up back at my dorm at like 6 in the morning and sitting in the crapper trying to take a shit (:D) while motherfucking demons were forming and disspiating all over the stall door.... laughing at me... aaaahhhhh!!!!!

Not a fun time, man... perhaps that experience is why I have such a bias against meth. Maybe i would try it again, but I can assure you I'm in no rush! 8( Its really not very fun.

I literally went insane for a night because of that shit, and I still have scars and shit because of that! I really don't recommend getting involved with that stuff.
 
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