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[Ben So Furry]

^ Sir you are a gifted poet, I love reading your words however dark they can seem at times. Great tune btw thank you

 

[phenethylo J]

Dosed 1mg of 25i nasally an hour ago over the coarse of 15 mins and I'm still barely feeling anything. I did it once before; I had dosed 1mg over the coarse of several hours and still felt it way better than I do now. The low dose of dmt I did yesterday has something to do with it most likely. Still going to wait a bit longer before I dose anymore just to be safe.

 

[tehspamninja]

Doubt the DMT has anything to do with it, phenethylo J. Different batch, perhaps?
I just did a lot of MXE myself.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Dosed 1mg of 25i nasally an hour ago over the coarse of 15 mins and I'm still barely feeling anything. I did it once before; I had dosed 1mg over the coarse of several hours and still felt it way better than I do now. The low dose of dmt I did yesterday has something to do with it most likely. Still going to wait a bit longer before I dose anymore just to be safe.

Those bomamines sound so capricious in regards to dosing.

however dark they can seem at times

I'm not sure whether dissociatives themselves make me make me like that, or they bring out something I've gotten good at repressing while sober.

 

[thedeadlywar]

http://www.opsharecraft.com/

 

[2002Tii]

All under heaven see beauty as beauty
only because they also see ugliness.
All announce that good is good
only because they also denounce what is bad.

Therefore, something and nothing give birth to one another.
Difficult and easy complete one another.
Long and short fashion one another.
High and low arise from one another.
Notes and tones harmonise with one another.
Front and back follow one another.

Thus, the True Person acts without striving
and teaches without words.

-Part of Verse 2 of the Tao Te Ching

 

[TheAppleCore]

^ Nice to see someone quoting the Tao Te Ching! Taoism is something that everyone should take the time to become familiar with. IMO, the emphasis on yin-yang duality in Taoism comes from the necessity to see good and bad as related, so that bad can be accepted, not rejected and fought, thus wu-wei.

I'm currently reading a book on Zen, which seems like essentially the maturation of Taoism, taking inspiration here and there from Buddhism. I can't wait to learn more about it. This is really important stuff, I feel.


So happy... Finally, I get some time to trip on LSD. Day after day, something or other kept getting between Lucy and I, but I just put a couple tabs under the tongue, and I'm just about to make some green tea, which I'm looking forward to enjoying while tripping for the first time.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

^So you're staying up all night? I'm already up later than I normally would be, had some DXM polistirex earlier (the stuff tastes like ambrosia compared to tussin, but is too damned expensive. I'm not even high...). Don't think I could pull an all nighter these days.

Also my room has like no insulation and it's damned cold in here. I can see my breath, and my thermal longunderpants and wool coat aren't quite satisfactory.

Think I'll call it a night...it just hit me like a train why I feel the need to do use dissociatives and drink a bunch these past couple days. My Christmas money is mostly earmarked for late fees to the DMV, and after that the rest is mine...but I'm on my own for food these days and I don't want to think about solving the problems that arise from that. And about solving my problems in general, which I am slowly building up disgust/motivation enough to give another round of trying to deal with'em.

Until then, I think there will be a couple more pleasantly dissociative evenings, some booze, and a social occasion, potentially the last for a long while with my now bachelors of whatever degree friends from the old days of mandatory schooling.


TAC, here is your tripping homework. The goal of the excercise is to enjoy and vibe with some great music :

 

[TheAppleCore]

^So you're staying up all night? I'm already up later than I normally would be, had some DXM polistirex earlier (the stuff tastes like ambrosia compared to tussin, but is too damned expensive. I'm not even high...). Don't think I could pull an all nighter these days.

This ain't no spur-of-the-moment all-nighter. :D I had to work for this one. I methodically nocturnalized myself, for the purpose of tripping ballz on LSD, at home, sans interaction with parents.

it just hit me like a train why I feel the need to do use dissociatives and drink a bunch these past couple days

One of the things I thought about during this past trip was recreational motivations. It seems to me that they are pretty much entirely useless. If, on the one hand, you REALLY just want to have fun, then creating an expectation of having a wonderfully magical time is just setting yourself up for failure and disappointment. If, on the other hand, you desire other things, like any kind of knowledge or skills, then recreational activity is obviously a distraction.

I am slowly building up disgust/motivation enough to give another round of trying to deal with'em.

Incorrect. Life is best lived when its joys are pursued, rather than its evils escaped. That's the only way I can deal with the necessary workload for maintaining good grades at uni. There's no pileup of disgust that finally nudges me to move forward. It's the anticipation of the gifts that I will give my fellow humankind with the education that I receive, which motivates me. And dwelling in any negativity is nothing but destructive.

TAC, here is your tripping homework. The goal of the excercise is to enjoy and vibe with some great music :

Thank you man. I will let you know what I think when I have a listen. Right now I'm listening to Aaron Parks.


Oh shoot, I almost forgot, the main reason I came to PD Social was to post something, more as a reminder to myself than anything: jazz music is essentially the development of a very complex and contrived language, within which the following is then encrypted: "BOO!".

 

[TheAppleCore]

Ahhhh yes, the Nujabes is absolutely wonderful at this time. Thank you brotha!!

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Ahhhh yes, the Nujabes is absolutely wonderful at this time. Thank you brotha!!

I figured it'd tickle your fancy.

Incorrect. Life is best lived when its joys are pursued, rather than its evils escaped. That's the only way I can deal with the necessary workload for maintaining good grades at uni

That is true when effort and progress are positively correlated. I try hard and nothing happens, and I do nothing and nothing happens, so I've been trending towards the latter. It's easier when I don't think about it, whereas thinking about the things I have to do to have a nonzero probability of success, a lot of negative feeling arises. Heck, I'd say the fact I only did about 3 or for job apps this year (well, I was trying to go to school, so that I felt justified in neglecting that) is one of the reasons I haven't had any severe/lengthy emotional down times, and been overall of passably neutral mood.

On a more productive note, felt the stuff a lot more when I tried to go to bed, couldn't sleep but got some good daydreaming/thinking done. It occurred to me that the periods in the past couple years I romanticize in spite of the fact I was particularly miserable during them was that I was emotionally/intellectually "open" during those times. Thinking on that idea sober I think it is correct, though I'm not sure how useful realizing it is, I'll have to think on it for a couple days. Also seems related to the idea of my last P.O dosed introspective trip, that I have become disengaged from the banalities of life and need to change that, lest I make progress based off utility rather than interest and end up having a mid-life crisis some years down the line.

Bleh, I've made myself tired of my NMDA antagonist induced melodrama ahead of schedule. Think I'll start reading the collection of Phillip K Dick short stories I got as an xmas gift today....

 

[2002Tii]

There's a couple Tao verses that I feel would fit in really well with this conversation, but I don't want to play the part of a priest so I'll leave it to you guys if you so desire to read it. Been stuck at home the past couple days from a fever, the ironic (yet not so surprisng) part is I caught the bug at the ER when I had to take in my friend the other day. So pretty much all I've been doing is drinking some wine, listening to choons, and reading (probably why the Tao is so prevalent in my mind.)

In the spirit of sharing music here's a 16 Bit Lolitas song that I personally love, goes really great with 19mg of 2C-E and complete darkness:





P.S.: Just borrowed this from a friend and thinking about picking this up when I have a lot of extra cash to blow

 

[TheAppleCore]

It's easier when I don't think about it, whereas thinking about the things I have to do to have a nonzero probability of success, a lot of negative feeling arises.

I can definitely relate. It's a tough problem, that one. It seems the way around it is to understand that, yes, success is painful, but if you let all your opportunities waste away because you're afraid of the pain, that's what they call jumping from the frying pan into the fire.

Anyway, yes, you're absolutely right in that it's "easier when you don't think about it". That's one of the reasons that negativity is useless. It causes one to dwell on life's problems too much. The way I see it, if I'm going to go down in history as nothing more than a haughty drugged-up fool who got it into his head that he was going to make something of himself, I can do it one of two ways -- bitterly and resentfully, putting up a hopeless fight against the merciless tide of death and destruction; or joyfully, accepting death with open arms, and grateful for what little life came before it.

 

[yucatanboy2]

Actually, its looking like NYE WONT be laid back for me! I am going to a house music show (not some 50+$ cover place, thankfully), and will prolly be taking MDMA and MDA . Not so laid back at all. I think once I move and start my new job I will be laying off the drugs, as I've got to be all professional, respectable and stuff. Well, being in a new city will be interesting, maybe I'll check BL for info about things to do .

 

[Solipsis]

Well I managed to toast the fuck out of my home today, twice. Both times by nuking Italian bake-off baguettes apparently on some mutant combi-oven program.
The second time I tried to make sure the grill was off (it was), and checked on it 3 times before leaving it alone for a few moment and BAM! again it came out a crispy charcoal crap. I didn't set the timer wrong, it was something other than the grill nuking it after all. Choking on smoke sucks, and the smoke alarm and CO alarm did not even go off. Suspicious. Curious.

So I eventually couldn't stand it anymore and went to the store to get supplies. Now complexing every cubic inch with febreze/oust, like there's no tomorrow.

HPBCD saves the day....

-_-

 

[Jesusgreen]

TAC, here is your tripping homework. The goal of the excercise is to enjoy and vibe with some great music :

You a fan of Samurai Champloo?

What does everyone in PD have planned for NYE? :D :D

I'm spending it being boring at home sadly as I'm rather under the weather, but nonetheless, 3mg Buprenorphine + 4 Beers + A little champagne + some MXE shall make it a fun night still

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

You a fan of Samurai Champloo?

Heck yeah.

What does everyone in PD have planned for NYE?

Got no plans, will be sittin' around at home I guess. Got some cigars today, meant so keep it under $20 but ended up blowing off $50 on four sticks. Haven't had any in like 8 months, it will be delicious.

Got a Nestor Miranda Special Collection Coffee Break Oscuro, a Humo Jaguar, La Aurora Preferido Ecuador, and a La Sirena. I'm drooling from the smell, think I'll start off with the La Aurora, throw on some Jazz and mix a martini to go with it.

I didn't set the timer wrong, it was something other than the grill nuking it after all. Choking on smoke sucks, and the smoke alarm and CO alarm did not even go off. Suspicious. Curious.

Hate it when that sorta thing happens, but you messed up two of them? That's pretty funny.

 

[Jesusgreen]

Happy new year from Poland (and almost over in England too)

I only started watching Champloo a few months back, I'm mid way through season 2 if I remember right, loving it though, probably my favourite out of the various anime I'm watching at the moment.

If your alarm didn't go off Soli I think it needs replacing, mine has the unfortunate problem of going off from the tiniest bits of smoke and as such is normally sitting with the battery out (I should probably change that, but it just gets annoying turning it off every single day)

Had a glass of champagne, 3mg Bupe under the tongue, cue drinking + Tarantino marathon. :D

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Tarantino.

I'll be seeing Django Unchained on Wednesday.

 

[Jesusgreen]

^ Sweet, I've heard great things about it but haven't got around to watching it yet. If there's any decent rips for it I'll get my hands on it tonight during my marathon though, since I'm too poor for cinemas atm. :'(

Bupe is kicking in, feeling niiiiice. :D