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[kingme]

ah, finally, vacation time!
and this time, it will be for more than a friday night! wohoo!

cheers everyone!

 

[Roger&Me]

This is for my strip club loving homies.

Sup Delsyd.

How's the weather this summer in the smokey mountains?

My rec. to all: take PCP or MXE, smoke some weed and bang screw :D Perfect combination.

SUp p-sox. Long post bro. the answer to your problems is stop doing drugs. cold turkey it and get it done, that's my advice anyway. take care of yourself playa.

 

[phenethylo J]

God I am so fucking pissed about my 2 grams of ketamine getting lost in the mail. It is 1 1/2 weeks late I think I am just gonna acept I wont be getting it. I wonder if it is possible it blew out of my mail box since around when it was saposed get here it was extreamly windy and my box was open. Although if it did then my other lighter mail that was still in there probly would of too. I was really looking foward too it.

Thankfully I have a 20mg cap of 4-ho-mipt that I got from a friend and fellow bluelighter for letting him use my scale to cap up his stash when he visited the other week. I'm gonna eat it tomoro afternoon. From what I researched it seems like a very enjoyable chemical.

 

[PepperSocks]

^As lovely as scantily clad ladies are, I always found strip clubs to be incredibly depressing places.

Ditto.

It's pretty incredible how entactogens can facilitate that type of intense self-analysis. The key, I think, is that sensitive subject matter is made digestible because the entactogen mitigates the reflexive sense of shame or guilt (or other negative emotions) that are associated with such memories, allowing one to analyse oneself in a therapeutically dispassionate manner. MDMA and the like really need to be studied more for this purpose (the recovery and reprocessing of repressed thoughts and feelings).

The shame and guilt response is definitely mitigated which makes one more willing to continue on the thought train, instead of having that panicked sense of not wanting to think about it and rapidly seek an escape. There's more to it than that though. Once you genuinely feel the hurt that someone else is feeling or has felt, you find yourself unable to ignore it or even desire such separation. I've heard that 'therapeutically dispassionate' concept before, but I don't see it like that. There's definitely that reduction in the knee-jerk reaction to flee an unpleasant feeling or thought, but I feel it as more of an extra-passionate desire to see and feel something that you were previously unaware of. Unfortunately the seed has to sprout first.

FWIW I've obtained far more meaningful insight from entactogens (and entacogenic psychedelics; 2C's, LSD, the like) than psychedelics like tryptamines or dissociatives which often only serve to confuse me and make things worse and more disconnected.

Entactogens haven't resulted in a profoundly insightful experience every single time, but I can't say they ever made things worse.

Glad you found it so useful. My only advice...remember that you'll probably need a week or two before you're back to baseline and ready to fully dive back into studies. There's no way I could hit the books in the few days following even moderate stimulant use. Best of luck with the translating the insight into practice.

Thanks man, unfortunately it's a compressed 6 week summer course that covers the content of a normal 4 month course, and has assignments due in a few days. It'll do a couple problems today, a few more on Sunday; I'll get it done on time. It's just that the worst days after a 5-HT dump are 3-5. The 5-HT dump didn't feel near as heavy as a true MDMA experience with nystagmus and stuff; I'd say like 1/10 of that, I think I'll be okay. Right now I'm just mainly feeling tired and hungry; stimulant withdrawal, which I usually charge up quickly afterwards. I got my schedule on track again; slept from noon friday to 3am today; which means I should be well and able to to go bed by 10-12 tonight. When I got up at 3 though I felt really bad and it took me a while to realize I hadn't had pregabalin in a long time because I'd slept that long. Took my dose, felt better in half an hour. I'm going to have to taper this one.

My rec. to all: take PCP or MXE, smoke some weed and bang screw :D Perfect combination.

SUp p-sox. Long post bro. the answer to your problems is stop doing drugs. cold turkey it and get it done, that's my advice anyway. take care of yourself playa.

LOL Roger you ass-hole, re-read that post. Maybe I have to stop reading PD Social.

Honestly, besides for the staples like AC&C, caffeine, diazepam, and tapering pregabalin I think I'm going to have to package it all up real good and bury it in the back 40 next time I go home; I can't rule out a situation where I'll allow myself to have a dose on a nice day. It's a shame you can't pay rent or tuition with a 7 year drug accumulation.

Also, the psychedelics and entactogens have a good chance of being used in the future for myself or others. I don't think I could ever bring myself to destroy them.

 

[Delsyd]

This is for my strip club loving homies.

Sup Delsyd.

How's the weather this summer in the smokey mountains?

My rec. to all: take PCP or MXE, smoke some weed and bang screw :D Perfect combination.

whats good Roger&You?
The weather here is awesome. We had a little heat streak last week that lasted a few days but since then its been hovering in the high 80's.
My garden is looking wonderful, ive got all sorts of heirloom tomatoes this years, and some cucumbers, zuchini, squash, a pumpkin, an herb garden, and lettuce and spinach. So far the maters are all i can eat though, the others arent ripe yet.

There is nothing i would love to do more than take some MXE an and have marathon sex all days, but unfortunately i dont have MXE and probably wont be getting anymore for at least another month or two. But im glad youre enjoying it.
At sub-dissociating doses (~30-70mg) it is the perfect drug for sex IME. Once the dopamine in my brain is tickled it might as well be tickling my penis (and by tickling i mean stroking, with a mouth).
I can go till one of us cums, then a few minutes break and right back at it. My longest, and probably some of the funnest sex ive had was while on MXE. I have a way of delaying my orgasm when on it. Also i get really into the sex, i feel very in tune with my partner and it brings out a little freak in me.
Then when im finally to tired or the gf is too sore, rack up a fat line (for me 150mg does me right), put on some tunes and enjoy the mind movies for a while.

that really makes me miss MXE right now.
oh wells, ive proven to my self im not very responsible with having any on hand so now i order it a lot more sparingly.

the next time will probably be at the tail end of my next APB roll in a couple months.

 

[2c-goinsane]

i love benzos when your feeling under the weather.

birthdays tomorrow aswel. feeling bummed i couldnt break into my mushrooms like i initially planned, oh well i will enjoy them more when im feeling more on my game later this week. very excited to eat some its been awhile since i consumed mushrooms im ready for them to blow my doors off in all ways they please to. 8(

 

[Roger&Me]

Great to hear from you Delsyd, my bro

Actually by "bang screw" I meant to play DJ Screw's music at high volume :D Sometimes I forget that its highly regional slang around here, and most people don't know who the hell DJ Screw is But its like really laid back driving music inspired by codeine, PCP, and weed-- and its kind of a staple of Texas' musical history.

I got my first screw tape from a trap house in the hood, for 12 bucks, when I was 14... it was all fucked up and scratchy, and would only play out of one side of the speakers, but it was awesome :D before the internet was a big, you would usually buy DJ Screw's music from the same people who sold you dro and PCP. Screw tapes were traded like a black market commodity, originating from someone who ventured down to the "Screwed Up Records & Tapes" shop in Houston and got them from the source.

Very chill IMHO. Some of that real old school stuff.

LOL Roger you ass-hole, re-read that post. Maybe I have to stop reading PD Social.

:D I'll read that behemoth when they give me credit at school for it.

I fucken love you mang

 

[Solipsis]

:D I'll read that behemoth when they give me credit at school for it.

I fucken love you mang

Hahaha classic!

 

[PepperSocks]

lol, I meant the post you just made saying "My rec. to all: take PCP or MXE, smoke some weed..." then saying "SUp p-sox. Long post bro. the answer to your problems is stop doing drugs. cold turkey"

A mite contradictory but I guess that's what the forum's about.

Either way your penance is to re-read the behemoth Kidding, even I'm not reading that again. The extreme use of semi-colons and brackets is mind boggling.

 

[Jesusgreen]

Finally done catching up with posts. Now I'm to look for ways to reduce or eliminate the pre-flight anxiety I get with DMT for my next smoke, I think meditation and half a beer beforehand might be my chosen method

Also planning to indulge in 2C-B again either this week or some time soonish. It'll be nice to assess it on its own without being under the influence of Methylone too, maybe it'll prove more intriguing than I previously thought. Either way, good times ahead :D

Any other late-nighters/insomniacs here who find that you get to a certain point in the morning where your circadian rhythm kicks in and wakes you up too much for you to want to go to bed, but you know if you don't go already you'll sleep through the entire day and miss out on everything? It's rather frustrating because I don't feel comfortable enough to stay awake *or* to sleep, so I can't decide which to go with. 8(

 

[whataboutheforests]

Finally done catching up with posts. Now I'm to look for ways to reduce or eliminate the pre-flight anxiety I get with DMT for my next smoke, I think meditation and half a beer beforehand might be my chosen method

Also planning to indulge in 2C-B again either this week or some time soonish. It'll be nice to assess it on its own without being under the influence of Methylone too, maybe it'll prove more intriguing than I previously thought. Either way, good times ahead :D

Any other late-nighters/insomniacs here who find that you get to a certain point in the morning where your circadian rhythm kicks in and wakes you up too much for you to want to go to bed, but you know if you don't go already you'll sleep through the entire day and miss out on everything? It's rather frustrating because I don't feel comfortable enough to stay awake *or* to sleep, so I can't decide which to go with. 8(

I think I just found some 2C-B!!! Sooo stoked, he said it might just be 2C-I but either way i've tried that and love it so win win situation. I just want a lighter psych/empathogen to trip on but I would love to find some 2C-E as well.

As for insomnia, usually when I notice it's no longer dark out is the point of no return, atleast for a couple hours

I need to stop sleeping all day though. Fixing sleep patterns is harder than it seems.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

Decided to let myself get drunk on weekend, continuing today. So cheap gallon bottles of wine are not the way to go for GABAergic responsibility...I don't like the caloric content of beer, nor the price per unit of stuff that tastes decent, but I did damn well with that. Think rather than having a mind for staying power, gonna use my remaining allotted booze money to get a drink at this bar I've wanted to go to for years when I visit Laguna Beach, by the gelato place I frequent. Gonna go to the Sawdust Festival too. (Wednesday, to be specific)

P.S. No more insurance for car, goodbye, sweet mobility. And my antibiotic eyedrops don't seem to have cleared out my infection, so I'm gonna have to go back to the doc and postpone my much desired tripping even more. Ah well.

 

[Solipsis]

@Whatabouttheforests: don't forget to assume the most potent one... 2C-I has a somewhat smaller dose margin so start low anyway, best is even to take 2 mg or so if you have a free day to be sure it's nothing else than a 2C-X, then look between 10-15-18 if you see typical signs point towards B or I. Have fun, but be careful as well

I hear ya about the GABAergic responsibility NKB... I'm cooling my alcohol and GHB jets for a bit, but allow myself some dabbling in other things meanwhile... a couple hours of oxy right now which is something I rarely take. Getting stoned on it as we speak, I really have to remind myself to go wash the black haircolor out! just a sec

Also received temazepam today which is very cuddly indeed, and tonight getting flunitrazepam which I hear is one of the best!

And coincidentally getting R and S ket within the same week as well, from different friends.

Meanwhile I'm not doing too bad, just need to keep myself a little busy with interesting projects and limit getting debilitated during the daytime.
Especially debilitated enough not to want to even go do groceries anymore and stuff.

 

[Splitz]

Speaking of finding 2c-b, my dealer dropped a capsule in my mate's room and said if it was found he could have it. But for some reason 2c-b gives my mate a horrible bodyload so it has my name on it. His room could do with a clear out anyway.

May be getting on some mescaline this weekend. Yay.

 

[PepperSocks]

I was wrong about the 4-FA serotonin release being small and I'd be fine. Having not touched any monoamine releasers since that night I have crashed like no other time before. The anxiety and depression often has me on my bed in fetal position with suicidal pangs. I sent my mom a rather desperate e-mail and I'm going home this weekend.

When I get there I'll tell the full story about the stimulants and withdrawal; I already told her about the pregabalin mess. I'm at 150mg per day and I'm taking a little fluvoxamine which seems to help with the serotonin crash for the time being, as well as 5-htp and SJW.

The only time I seem to actually get half-assed relief is times like this where I'm on a bit of kratom and 5mg diazepam. I'll drop it all in due time. Just a mess at the moment. Drugs are bad mmmkay, I guess you just have to find out for yourself.

I've never felt such resolve to never go through anything like this again, which means, I'm never taking anything that causes anything like this again.

All this during a compressed physics course that I'm basically already 'half-getting' and not feeling to confident about.

 

[Dondante]

Sorry to hear that, psox. Just give yourself time...rest, exercise, eat healthy, and before you know it, you'll be right as rain.

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

I hear ya about the GABAergic responsibility NKB... I'm cooling my alcohol and GHB jets for a bit, but allow myself some dabbling in other things meanwhile... a couple hours of oxy right now which is something I rarely take. Getting stoned on it as we speak, I really have to remind myself to go wash the black haircolor out! just a sec

Also received temazepam today which is very cuddly indeed, and tonight getting flunitrazepam which I hear is one of the best!

Now that I have some direction (and am trying to get set up enough to keep it self-sustaining), getting over my issues with'em seems especially important. I'm not craving horribly like when I'm anxious and in a rotten mood, but not having alcohol (or another GABAergic, booze wins for convenience, price, and difficulty in developing phsyical dependence. And because G isn't an option at present time.) on hand causes me some amount of distress and negative feelings in the evening. And I'm clear headed enough these days to see how stupid that is. Not really doing anything else (besides tobacco), since I'm trying to keep legal for now, mostly because I'm trying to heed good advice:

He who walks with the wise grows wise, but a companion of fools suffers harm.

The Philosopher Yu said, "When agreements are made according to what is right, what is spoken can be made good. When respect is shown according to what is proper, one keeps far from shame and disgrace. When the parties upon whom a man learns are proper persons to be intimate with, he can make them his guides and masters.

I'm jealous about the temazepam and flunitrazepam though! Only ones I have experience with are oxazepam (which is laaaaame), and phenazepam. Well, if we're counting similar things we can throw in zaleplon, but the true joy of that was in the hallucinations it caused me. Well, the I've always been interested in pursuing other things more than BZDs though (and I'm scared of going overboard with'em), perhaps someday I'll feel like it and it will be financially convenient.

 

[SpecialK_]

Speaking of finding 2c-b, my dealer dropped a capsule in my mate's room and said if it was found he could have it. But for some reason 2c-b gives my mate a horrible bodyload so it has my name on it. His room could do with a clear out anyway.

May be getting on some mescaline this weekend. Yay.

Find it so odd that in other parts of the UK there is dealers selling 2C-B. Chemicals like that, especially the more psychedelic RCs are unheard of on the streets and if they ever appear it's either a small amount or they are dosed/priced terribly.

 

[Delsyd]

PSox, sorry to hear you're going through all that bro. These certainly aren't toys we're playing with here, but im sure you're well aware of that.
Like Dondante said, eat well and exercise, start to feel good the good old fashion way, and in a short time you'll be feeling better than ever and wont feel the need for these drugs.
I hope you start feeling better soon.
Much love

 

[Splitz]

Find it so odd that in other parts of the UK there is dealers selling 2C-B. Chemicals like that, especially the more psychedelic RCs are unheard of on the streets and if they ever appear it's either a small amount or they are dosed/priced terribly.

Luckily the dealer is also a friend, so we never have to worry about quality. Anyway 2c-b is illegal here.