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Hey PD, was rearranging my box of goodies and dipped into some delicious t4cos on a whim. In that just-about-tripping but not yet state. Thought I'd swing by and say hello, maybe continue this journey..

Wow, what great pics Dondante. You blow my photography skills out of the water. Would love to be able to go up to Yosemite for a summer and camp out with the falls in full swing =).

As it happens I don't live too far from the area and it's one of my favorite places to vacation. Camping is definitely on the list, and I could only imagine the veritable psychedelic wonderland it'd be. Should be going up there soon. Can't wait.
 
Damn dude, you're in prison? I wasn't aware of that. Are you okay telling me/us what the charges were? Or would you rather not talk about any of it?

Anyway that must all suck so much harder than what I would complain about but I'm facing benzo rehab and well, subsequent serious rehab program shit. Right now I'm at my parents / hometown, illegally "sick at home" from work which is just a bunch of bullshit. Had and still have difficulties coma-sleeping, getting 18 hours of sleep when I just got here and still getting messed up stupors when I try to wake up.
Today I was busy working outside in the nice hot sun building a backyard shed with my dad at his place, tomorrow I'm going to the zoo with my 7 year old nephew and 5 year old niece. They are so sweet, I'm melting a little right now...
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But its possible part of that is from the G that I have been taking =D
Yes bad plan. And I have other very bad bad plans before I'm phoned to be admitted to the rehab clinic, sort of last-minute stuff - part kneejerk stupidity before I have to face the music, but also including psychedelics which I don't consider a problem.
I've scraped together such an awesome funpack it's a shame tolerance will probably only let me trip once or twice before I am going to the clinic for like 2 months... part of the plans (not to take together in 1 sitting of course!) is: a little oxy- 2 x 20 mg IR! (I am a very infrequent opiate user), having a little morphine lying around as well, conversion of 5-MeO-DMT fb to citrate for R.A. with I.M. ket, 4-AcO-DPT, synth 4-HO-DMT, mesc, 3-MeO-PCP, trying flunitrazepam and more secondary are 4-AcO-DMT, 2C-I (RA), 2C-E (RA), 2C-T-21, aMT, M1... but I wonder if I feel up for (m)any of these at all.

Frankly I'm feeling very well taking it easy on the dope and spending a lot of time outside. I do feel confident that I can sweep a fresh breeze through my own home and stay positive instead of abusive, but I'll have to handle the aforementioned dr0gz well integrating them into a steady life-environment even if it's only a short while until I'm going "inside".

Well the ketamine and flunitrazepam (and alcohol actually) are most unforgiveable about these, the opiates and opioids and M1 and 3-MeO-PCP are not a smart plan either...
 
i vote that you take 2 or 3 doses of 4-ho-dmt in a day. or the mescaline.

i think it might be good to have a trip in which you meditate on your upcoming challenges and emerge focused and excited.

although it sounds like you might be looking for a much more recreational experience. :)
and that might be the better experience for before rehab. i really am not sure except that i am sure you will find out if/when you begin tripping.
 
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Damn dude, you're in prison? I wasn't aware of that. Are you okay telling me/us what the charges were? Or would you rather not talk about any of it?

Anyway that must all suck so much harder than what I would complain about but I'm facing benzo rehab and well, subsequent serious rehab program shit. Right now I'm at my parents / hometown, illegally "sick at home" from work which is just a bunch of bullshit. Had and still have difficulties coma-sleeping, getting 18 hours of sleep when I just got here and still getting messed up stupors when I try to wake up.
Today I was busy working outside in the nice hot sun building a backyard shed with my dad at his place, tomorrow I'm going to the zoo with my 7 year old nephew and 5 year old niece. They are so sweet, I'm melting a little right now...
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But its possible part of that is from the G that I have been taking =D
Yes bad plan. And I have other very bad bad plans before I'm phoned to be admitted to the rehab clinic, sort of last-minute stuff - part kneejerk stupidity before I have to face the music, but also including psychedelics which I don't consider a problem.
I've scraped together such an awesome funpack it's a shame tolerance will probably only let me trip once or twice before I am going to the clinic for like 2 months... part of the plans (not to take together in 1 sitting of course!) is: a little oxy- 2 x 20 mg IR! (I am a very infrequent opiate user), having a little morphine lying around as well, conversion of 5-MeO-DMT fb to citrate for R.A. with I.M. ket, 4-AcO-DPT, synth 4-HO-DMT, mesc, 3-MeO-PCP, trying flunitrazepam and more secondary are 4-AcO-DMT, 2C-I (RA), 2C-E (RA), 2C-T-21, aMT, M1... but I wonder if I feel up for (m)any of these at all.

Frankly I'm feeling very well taking it easy on the dope and spending a lot of time outside. I do feel confident that I can sweep a fresh breeze through my own home and stay positive instead of abusive, but I'll have to handle the aforementioned dr0gz well integrating them into a steady life-environment even if it's only a short while until I'm going "inside".

Well the ketamine and flunitrazepam (and alcohol actually) are most unforgiveable about these, the opiates and opioids and M1 and 3-MeO-PCP are not a smart plan either...
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i didn't get caught by the cops, i've driven around with dope in my car mad times and never gotten caught, done dope in the bathroom of most of the gas stations here never got caught (one time there was a cop IN the store too, i thought that was funny. i lost 3 bags in that store that night though??????????????????)
what sucks about it mostly is not being able to do dope like i used to, i was buyin that shit every day/every other day.
i might be pickin up again tonight WOOOOOOOOOOT
i didn't get caught WITH heroin, i got caught with needles (not by the po po). they found a 10 pack that i had lost (but obviously it iddn't disappear-i lost it right around when i lost those 3 bags, and my dealer lost 2 buns of the SAME shit, so i figured those bags were like cursed or some shit for real, they were blue instead of the normal bags.)
 
@twelvesevndi

Thanks for the advice and insight! :)

You're right about looking for a recreational experience in the sense that I have not been blown off my socks for a long time now...
After having had outrageous periods of tripping, a year ago I went as good as 'celibate' for months and months (maybe around 9 months). Needless to say a lot happened during and before all of that time.
I can handle a lot regarding trippy effects now, paradoxically I'm 'a bit' scared of truly life changing trips. It's strange how this can develop.

Yes, before my much needed life and drug therapies/rehab begin I am searching for a last breather so to speak - but we could also say: school is already in session and I can really use the eye-opener.

Yeah, I think trips with the reputation of something like oral DMT (I have DMT and moclobemide standing ready) are waiting for me as part of the transformative process. Mescaline or psilocin can also prove to be great allies.


People will tell me that I need to get my mind off drugs in general, which will be confusing. ;)

Anyway, it's possible or even likely my PD alter ego will suffer a symbolic death and I will be stepping down at some point. We're not there yet but I like to think I've done my part in any case and it would not be a horrendous shame if this were to happen. What's more important here even if I don't entirely feel like that is that my own life and health are okay - sacrificing yourself on an intellectual quest, while deluding yourself would be foolish indeed. (Right?).

So I may be creating a clone user account when something like that happens ^ and I think the most beautiful thing would be if I could in some ++++ trip ritually kill Solipsis and rise from the ashes like a phoenix. :)
I'm vain as fuck.

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@lsdmdma&amp:

Man you are raging and I am not sure by a mile that's a compliment, but it's nice to have you with us as a resident fiend. I don't mean to belittle you bro, I'm going to rehab so what the fuck do I have a right to do that for..

So you are 'scoring' inside the pen now?
 
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LOL i'm not ACTUALLY in jail dog. thats just my location cause i do hoodrat stuff
like heroin.
so i'm the resident dopefiend now?
its funny, when i tried methamphetamine, i still thought heroin looked like a shitty drug.
then a few months after that, i bought some for the first time by chance off a homeless guy one night in baltimore.
and i realized heroin feels fucking great.
 
Ah okay, sorry lol... if it's like a joke I guess I just didnt quite get it. Different sense of humor. : P

Never tried heroin but I have tried oxy. And I've been told it's a bit on par (but of course none of this is IV which is probably where its at). I like oxy I guess, but it doesn't really make my list, truly. I did think hydrocodone was just a slice of heaven but even that was more of a novelty high than something I want to drown in, if one must at all drown. I'm just not much of an opiate guy. Ketamine though? In ketamine I could drown.
Meth I never tried either, but I have tried 4-FMA before and recently I tried 2-FMA and also I.M.-ed it. It was a pretty sweet high, but not like a big departure from pure dexamphetamine powder or pure racemic amph powder both of which I have abused in the past. Those nights of repetitive behavior, just doing bullshit on the comp or jerking off or whatever, the insane stamina and 'do-want' to go on and on... yes I think I got the jist of stim addiction enough to be warned.

Curiously, stim cravings as well as GHB cravings melt like snow in the sun in little time - when I just manage to stay away for a little while and not stock it. Ketamine however is a bitch, even after months of drought I still kept craving it.
Benzo's I don't take recreationally but to help with stuff like insomnia and anxiety and shit - so even though the half like and PAWS are probably gonna be hell, if I can just get help with my symptoms I have plenty of hope to kick it.
Never had rohypnol so I may get to try it in the nick of time before it's probably best if I ship all my benzo's to family for safekeep. Other than that I'm a regular on diazepam powder, but I substitute with about 12-14 types of generic pills when I seek more tailor-made effects.
 
IV methamphetamine is the best feeling i've ever felt in my entire life (least the last 2 times i shot it it was), IV heroin hasn't got shit on IV MA imo.
IV MA isn't as crazy as smoking the shit makes you though, for real, IMO.
I literally hated opiates until i tried heroin.
oxycodone and hydrocodone, fuck that shit, dope is cheaper and idk if i can even get pills atm, i can get dope but i dont know anyone who does pills much.
 
Alrighty then :)

good to know about personal preferences and the potential of hardcore dope, but I'm not really looking to get converted, yknow ;)
 
I just lost a bag consisting of at least four packs of reservation bought cigarettes.

I hope they are in the tattoo shop. I have one clip left and I'm so addicted and in love with that very addiction towards them. Rather ironic considering my usual disdain for wretched business practice. That's why I buy from the natives, fifteen United States pesos for a bag consisting two hundred cigarettes.

It's a blessing, when these opulent rich cocksuckers that live around me spend thirty dollars a day on marlboro reds bought at high prices through convenient stores offering no room for bargaining or avoiding widespread price fixing.

Light trip before and quite a bit of cannabis and hydrocodone syrup, now feeling drunk and contemplative.

Oh, hello. :)
 
Hey, thou!

Feel not so bad, for I have lost a pack/bag containing 1,5 grams of synth mescaline and 3 grams of 82% pure (yes of a 84 maximum) MDMA crystal not too long ago and ay, then did weep for 2 days and 2 nights until all woe cried out of me.

seriously though, niice about the hydro and... well.. the hydro ;)

Man, I'm glad I quit smoking a third time more than 2 months ago - I quit on my birthday.
First time I quit it lasted 6 months and I was a rookie with the whole tobacco addiction and quitting thing, second time I quit for about 5 years. I'm 27 y.o. :)
 
I just started smoking again.

My birthday started twenty eight minutes ago, although I'm not one for celebrating. Getting drunk though is necessary, even though I've been relatively sober for the past few months and maintaining and curing my ills with wise little cannabis plants, and their emotional offerings.

Was a bad alcoholic, bought a quart of wild turkey a day. Now I can't stomach one night of that craziness. I drank four beers and smoked a bowl, ahving a glass of wine and trying to figure out bitcoin as a currency system.

Also trying to virtualize this pc to run ubuntu as well. And writing a novel, which you should check out once its published in the 'words' "writing workshop" thread.

As usual and left under extreme duress,

Thou.
 
apparently my dealer has to drive a ways to go pickup but i'll have bags after they get back.
waiting.
 
Oh then I won't say congratulations if that's not your thing. Shit! Sorry the word just kind of slipped out, went and said it anyway it seems. :D

Cool on the Ubuntu, but I personally preferred setting it up as dual boot on my laptop instead of virtualizing. I think it's called GRUB that can interact with the boot loader/replace it.
Sweet that you're writing instead of drinking so much. :) I can't promise anything since I rarely venture outside of PD but pop in and announce it when it's all done! I started a book as well but not a novel, more like a handbook for exotic drugs instead :) Kind of like what you have for mushroom hunting or other wildlife but instead for the newbie drug explorer. It has a fair pagecount already but a while ago I just abandoned the project because of personal issues and a nag for changing my mind. Changed it from design (if you want I can show you my lamp and other work on my website, but I don't think I should post it publicly) to drawing to cartooning, absurdism being my favorite type, to making experimental electronic music, to... well you get the idea. :)
 
No dope :(
have this instead
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only ever been drunk once in 8th grade.
the last time i drank, i drank a 40 of colt 45 and puked it back up 5 miins after finishing (cause i drank the whole fuckin thing in 5 mins, and i was on dope)
 
i cant hold my alcohol.
but idgaf.
i can hold my heroin better than most of the people who think of drinking as a skill
so me>them
yeah never, they found a 10pack that i SWORE had just vanished (turns otu it wasn't where i normally stash shit out. go figure, shoot dope, then give no fucks about hiding rigs where you normally hide them).
that was right around the time that the cursed bags were going around.
or at least i swear those shits were cursed.
they were deez blue bags, and the shit was real good, i lost 3 of them one night (LITERALLY right after picking up. i get home, reach in my pocket, and RAGE. i had blown one on the way home in a gas station bafroom but i know i didn't leave 3 bags of heroin in the stall....dealer lost 2 bundles of teh same shit.)
here's to hopin i get high tonight
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MOmZimH00oo
get it?
its a toast.
and rog you like the hippity hops right?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jIJCIzCsTio
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kqO37qwrEr8
 
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