^Hey nearjat, i've a workmate that would love a dubstep shirt...are you making them or just thinking about making them?
Willow: Yeah good luck! Btw. Whatever happened too that mescaline?
Thanks man...

The mescaline was, for the most part, eaten...For some reason, I vaguely remember IVing it, but I'm not sure if I did or not...probably didn't then...
I tend to do this with great frequency, but I don't really view it as a good thing. Of course the underlying motivations that cause us to do this, and thus the ramifications of the action itself on our persons, may be quite different.
I see it as a more neutral thing. Its not a good idea to intentionally confuse yourself, but the fact that it is YOU doing it means that you have some control over the confusion. Of course though, as with all magick/ritual, the aim is suspension of disbelief. I imagine that same suspension of disbleief plays a role in nearly all human religious systems. You do need to know when to pull back. I personally have set "morals" which don't change...its just for the sake of knowledge that I try to shift my own mental paradigm, and that can be done by, say, chanting the Rosary whilst using the circle/triangle of goetic/daemon magick...two very different rituals, with the same basic role; inner focus or meditative calm.
The thing is, chaos (as a word at least) really means 'emptiness' or 'abyss'. We often think of it as disorder or anarchy, but the idea of shifting your mental standpoint at will can demonstrate a certain vacant/vacuum like nature of the mind. Theres even a word for running two opposite thoughts simultaneously (the word refers to a mental phenomen, maybe a sound, that occurrs when doing this...)
Anyhow, yeah. :D I've seriously got an absolutely killer flu atm, spend all night shivering and sweating and having nightmares....Sleep walking too...I gotta say, intense flu is probably a worse feeling then dope sickness...
Meh.
Peace
edit: really loving minimal tech/trance atm. Got Autonomech's latest album playing, next up is Trentemoller...