^We care about you. Do you have Seasonal Affective Disorder? I ask because you mentioned the time of year as if it were an expected point on some cycle of depression. Get yourself one of those S.A.D. lights to add some simulated sunshine to your day.
I'm not personally bothered by seasonal change, at least not in any consistent way. I actually find cold desolation beautiful, esp. on dissociatives! There was a point earlier where I was transfixed by the image of an arctic desert. If there's a class of drug for the winter, it's either dissociatives or opiates. Right now I'm on a mix of DXM, ketamine, morphine, and the tail end of a 25C-NBOMe trip, and I love that it's warm in here and very cold outside. The contrast enhances my appreciation of the heat. Plus, dissociatives tend to make me feel like I'm enclosed in a box and sunk into a bottomless sea of cold black oil, so the frigid blackness outside of my window enhances that impression and lets me delve deeper into the head space, which is of course joyful. Using dissociatives during winter helps me relish the darkness instead of dread it.