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Bluelighter
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My post deleted itself when i tried to edit/add to it wtf.
I really need to find work as well. My license will be unsuspended in 3 weeks and i am hoping that once i have work, a car and a license, ill have enough money to go to dnb shows and hopefully get back into playing paintball. I hope that getting a license will enable me to make a social life for myself. The suspension of my license for one year for a first dui really crippled me and put me into a deep depression. I am hoping that being mobile will enable me to be able to make friends and do things that i enjoy and bring myself out of the depressed state ive been in for the last year.
I really need somebody to love/some lovin though. Im 22, im young, im supposed to be chasing skirts and that, and instead ive got one girl "under my belt" and thats it, and the lack of affection/attention really gets me down. I just wanna cuddle with a girl i like (none in particular, i mean like find a girl i like), kiss her, be close to her you know?
It really hurts my heart to be truly alone for so long. I am tired of missing out on the opposite sex. Ive never had a regular sex life....
It really brings my self esteem down to be living without any love, affection, attention from anyone of the opposite sex. I feel emasculated by it and it feeds into my self image/self worth/self esteem problem so much. At times i wonder if things will always be like this and it really seems sometimes to me like this IS how things will always be for me. My ex girlfriend left me 2 years ago and its been like this ever since. She was my first kiss, my first everything, and she didnt enter my life till a few months after graduating high school at age 18, and shes been my only anything. I havent so much as kissed another girl.
I really need to find work as well. My license will be unsuspended in 3 weeks and i am hoping that once i have work, a car and a license, ill have enough money to go to dnb shows and hopefully get back into playing paintball. I hope that getting a license will enable me to make a social life for myself. The suspension of my license for one year for a first dui really crippled me and put me into a deep depression. I am hoping that being mobile will enable me to be able to make friends and do things that i enjoy and bring myself out of the depressed state ive been in for the last year.
I really need somebody to love/some lovin though. Im 22, im young, im supposed to be chasing skirts and that, and instead ive got one girl "under my belt" and thats it, and the lack of affection/attention really gets me down. I just wanna cuddle with a girl i like (none in particular, i mean like find a girl i like), kiss her, be close to her you know?
It really hurts my heart to be truly alone for so long. I am tired of missing out on the opposite sex. Ive never had a regular sex life....
It really brings my self esteem down to be living without any love, affection, attention from anyone of the opposite sex. I feel emasculated by it and it feeds into my self image/self worth/self esteem problem so much. At times i wonder if things will always be like this and it really seems sometimes to me like this IS how things will always be for me. My ex girlfriend left me 2 years ago and its been like this ever since. She was my first kiss, my first everything, and she didnt enter my life till a few months after graduating high school at age 18, and shes been my only anything. I havent so much as kissed another girl.