If he's not jaded we should hear back from him sooner or later tho? And besides, we are not the lounge, we are the love puddle brotherhood of seeing and hearing things that aren't there aren't we?!
About getting off... curiously my opi use never fucked ( ! ) with my libido, so withdrawing I should get lust rage just about then? I have a little agreed on radio silence with my girl, she is very sensitive and thing's aren't so good with her and with her worrying instead of relying on me, but other than that we are absolutely cool. She understands folding under pressure and self-medication, and I am fighting the good fight for years now so no bad feelings. I hurt her a bit by calling her dependent in a mail, mmyea
sometimes I can't help putting the finger on something (aspie outspeak
), luckily I can also defuse and do magic with words and arguments.
I have just burned my only opi bridge, glad to say - never doubted about doing that, except for the fact that I reeeeeally deeply wanted to do chemistry on opium
After years of preparation I was just set for doing that before I drugpigged all of the pile of opium..
I feel more myself again, excited about stuff already half the time feeling okay, other half of the time is dreadful. But diaz, flubropam and etiz are helping, I got plenty more for laser precision symptom targeting, although I should really better quit within a week before I switch one dependency for another.
@ Marriage.. my cousin is having a smalltime wedding today extremely intimate, the real wedding is in Mexico... sorry I can't be there for him. I was also just talking with my dad about it, and whether moving in together and getting married are really the best thing for a relationship. I guess the relationship just changes to more deeply bonded but less exciting. My gf is up for a hippy wedding whenever we are ready, but only for what I think are good reasons and none of the traditional ones.
On a PD note: I really feel that when I am ready for it after kicking the shite and improving my physique, that I want to or almost need to trip. As if my - what you call - 'soul' would - what you call - 'appreciate' it - what you call - 'immensely'. (Rick n Morty ftw)
MESCALINE (alright if label says Synthemesc?)