Bad news. after the 3rd day binging Dissos and Tryptamines and went catatonic and my ex had to call the ambulance. Had this vision that the lives we live are in actuality part of a massive simulation created by higher beings. The all are immortal and the architects I the multi-verse which there are many with other lifeforms.
They explained that they do this all for there amusement and to witness emotions like love and sadness. I was shocked when they killed me with some. Then to only realize after spending time in the aether my soul was outside my body. I was the reborn into another animals like humans, Tigers or whatever they choice i had become a tree and felt my leaves blowing in the wind and the tactile sensation was incredible.
Could not speak but I had telepathic abilitys. Some of the other trees were concious. I was removed from my body and gazed across the open fields and then they snapped me out of it and I was once more in the house barely able to talk and form words. My ex had called the ambulance and police and I was brought to the Psychward and went beyond wacky like 3 or 4 times they IM lorazepam into my are to calm me down.
I was extremely Dossociatedd for a few days and they kept me unded observation to make sure I wouldn't harm myself i had a hard time working. After that they let me leave and I came down soith to meet my mom and she gave me 350 bucks for a hotel in North Jersey so I can have super cheap rent. Needless to say my ex really doesnt want anything to do with me at the moment so I'm going to give her space.
Will just have to pick up jeans and some t-shirts to bring for work this week I start Thursday. Been making 450 dollars a week after taxes which isn't bad. So im gonna look to rent a room that 500-800 per month. But hopefully mt friend let's me get his second bedroom if his roommate moves out. I lost literally all of my drugs.
It was a really bad situation and could be compared when I swallowed a bag of phenazepam when i wad forces by probation to do a program for 30 days. It was about 100-150mgs and I was blacked out for an entire week or two. The told me I had a drug induced psychosis and i surprised that I was able to snap out of it, my mind is strong and can take on any drug experience usual but this Russo shit was bad and they rushed me to the hospital.
So yeah guys no more Dissos for me because I get to compulsive id eaten 30mgs with breakfast and 50mgs in the afternoon which pushed me over the edge. I'm sorry that I messed up but can you please send me love I'm homeless and and this dude on the train sold me 13 amphetamine pills for 80 bucks and I took four. I've turned into which a bad addict. I know that im getting worse and I really need you love PD fam cuz I'm struggling hope that you all are late.
Wanna get one of those fancy water proof sleeping bags cuz I'm gonna gide im the bushes there in the cut wherw i used to smoke probably do this few times a week to save money then bird bath and put on lots of deodorant and have pairs of clean pants specifically for work. Domt worry about my guys in a street wise dude and used to associate with the Bloods im the past hustling "Molly" which was actually Methylone. 4-FMA or 3-MMC. Was deff not the right thing to people but the fact i got it so cheap I could have amazing profit margins but I'm quitting doing that forever.
Just gonna make honest money and settle down with a beautiful woman. Please show me some love and PM me, I'm on my way to Newark to by Heroin right now. I'm going down a downword spiral and playing Russian roulette without fear of death because i loved her so much and her cutting me out of her life is devastating. Ive Been thinking about suicide everyday but I javr to carry on. You all mean the world to me and if something happens can you please make me a Shrine thream gonna give Dorky my mothers number for if i disappear for an extended period be safe everybody.
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