God I feel fucking weird right now, finally tried some diphenidine, 100mg, insufflated - ROA was was maybe a mistake. Thus completes my journey through the diarylethylamines. Ephenidine, methoxphenidine, and now diphenidine.
I'm pretty sure I tried to lie in bed and watch something but I remember It was like suddenly I couldn't even see, just had no clue what was going on. Then suddenly it's 2 hours later. I have no idea what happened. Everything seemed normal but I had a lot of trouble figuring out what time of day it was, remembering how to do mental numbers to figure out when and what I dosed and just what in the hell I was supposed to be doing, for the next half hour or so (answer was nothing, as usual, in these situations) .
Made me really really crave getting some actual ketamine or a proper ACH dissociative in, one thing I do remember in the comeup before everything went black is a familiar buzzing or ringing sound that pretty much every dissociative I've ever tried will induce - like I can hear the vibration of the fabric of the universe... I remember a feeling of, aha... of course. That's it. I remember now. Then, brain off until 2 hours later. Whatever "it" was, it did not survive the blackout.
I did take 1mg etizolam about an hour prior.... so maybe that had some impact. Diphenidine has gotta be the weirdest of the 'phenidines I've tried so far. I'm somewhat intrigued by the no-nonsense, no warning complete time splice from my memory... I probably shouldn't have taken it on a whim, maybe I'll try again another time more well rested and prepared. Weird, weird, shit though. The phenidines are something else, I don't know what to make of them, I don't really even like them but they're just so weirdly intriguing in their absurdity.