this place promotes and reinforces drug use.
Hmmm, this is difficult to read. I really dislike the idea that this place is a
promoter of drug use, specifically, I guess, harmful drug use, although I understand how it could be triggering, for sure.
When I made huge changes and completely turned my life around a few years back I quit Bluelight for the first year. Now I only come back a few times per year to remind myself how pathetic life used to be and just how far I've come. I don't think I have really ever seen someone make serious, lasting changes while continuing to come to this site daily.
Equally difficult to read, not sure there'd be any real accurate measure of the latter point - and there is a fairly unsubtle hidden implication here which I very much dislike, although I will choose to believe this was not intentional - and I get the overall sentiment.
I guess on the face of it it's not too surprising that a community of people largely bound by their interest in mind-altering substances would make using those substances seem like a pretty attractive idea. I'm not sure what the solution is right now but I'd like to believe Bluelight is, or can be, a promoter of other, non-drug-related positive lifestyle choices before it's a "promoter" of drug use, while still serving it's primary purpose as an effective and useful resource for informative, harm reduction oriented discussion
about drugs. That said... let's be honest, most of us do think using drugs is an attractive idea. But, perhaps it needs to be more stressed that it's not usually a solution in and of itself.
I think part of the problem is difficulties in the medium, that is, the internet, in that people are more or less inclined to post during emotional "peaks" and troughs, and those peaks, largely, given the subject matter under discussion, are going to often be oriented around the good stuff related to using drugs, whereas, comparatively, people are going to be more likely just not to post at all in times of struggle. Additionally, we obviously don't get everything in between, seeing only that merest glimpse of people's lives that they choose to share, and not all the in-between, not great, not too bad, general tedium and day to day ups and downs that make up most people's lives... this isn't a problem unique to Bluelight obviously, but the social media phenomenon in general, that of an unintended bias towards the positive stuff in other people's lives... although it isn't massively amplified by algorithms aimed to optimise targeted advertising and monetisation on Bluelight, there probably is still an unintended bias factor from many of the members (myself included) who, perhaps justifiably so, feel a disinclination to focus on the "bad stuff" surrounding drug use to offset the undeniable "bad stuff bias" that has existed for so long in mainstream media. Again, I'm not sure what the solution is, but I'd like to think there is one.
It's a balancing act, for sure, because it's natural that people who believe drugs to be a net positive, either long term or just in this transient but eternal moment, it's only natural to be enthusiastic about this fact, and this isn't something that should be artificially suppressed or kept out of view. Additionally, I think even for those struggling and indulging in less-than-sustainable drug use, so to speak, it's important for their to be a place to talk openly about this usage without fear of judgement or being made to feel that this drug use is yet another thing to feel bad about. As ever, what came first, the chicken or the egg? But speaking for myself, in times where I've struggled with life, and have also used drugs, an unwelcome intrusive thought that I could have surely done without was that ever present externally imposed self-judgement about using drugs... how "pathetic" I was being, to allude to your post again, Beavesmx44.
I don't think it's a problem in and of itself that Bluelight is
pro-drug - most of us believing (presumably) that substances have a lot of inherent value, both past, present, and future, to human culture and human civilisation - but if there is a perception or even a reality that Bluelight is a promoter or reinforcer of harmful drug use in some way - then that is something I think we have some responsibility to address. Not sure what, or where I'm going with this post now, so I guess I'll leave it there.
Cut yourself some slack and go easy on yourself. Everyone here had excellent advice for you. And hey we ALL struggle!
Turns out it's quite good at that, and does so in the absence of fireworks just as well. Cosmic sadness is a bit overly heavy perhaps when it's really about allowing some mental recallibration to the slower, but steadier rhythms of sobriety. 
