cosmic charlie
Bluelight Crew
Things have been improving over the last couple days I'm going to be getting an apartment in Queens with a good friend of mine which is awesome. And my girl said she still wants me there a few days of work and I'm gonna clean the house and etc. Knew that I just had to keep holding on. It's a pretty damn long subway ride to see her but it's worth it. Going to stay off the jars drugs and pills I want to make her of me. I know that I let her family down but maybe someday they will be able to forgive me in time I love that woman very much. Travelling in the rain this week was crazy the first day when I just got back to the city it was pouring and I legit woke up a 4:00am so I can get up there in time for breakfast.
We are starting to get along together really well again but I still did damage and need to give her some space. I've had people OD in front of me and it was pretty really traumatic. But I'm on the path to do the right things. Was thinkinging about taking a little Phens/Tryps tommorow in the am I have to see how I'm feeling when I get up. Trying practice harm reduction and just mainly use Psychs and some weed here and there maybe have a beer or two when I go out to eat. But all and all I'm happy right now we had great sex the other night and feeling that connection to her again brought the life right back to my soul. She knows I'm gonna just use Psychs and etc sparingly and is cool with that but anymore of these high dose Opioids or Benzos and I'm gonna lose all the ground I just gained and I wont let that happen.
Forgot a charger for my tablet I brought to the room the channels here suck so I'm gonna start watching movies on that and whatnot and my podcasts I like to keep up on. Good to get some exercise as well and I'll probably get moving in hour or something just sitting back sipping Black Tea. She made me a Shepard's Pie which was amazing and I'm about to heat up some now and have an early lunch, woke up at like 5am and only had peanut butter and jelly crackers so far. I'm going to make Chili for dinner and pour it over this Brown/Red Rice Chia and Kale which should be banging and also cook up a couple hotdogs to put some of the Chili on I've been eating alot since this quarantine started. Feeling pretty damn healthy right now I'm happy things are beginning to turn around it was a very difficult month for me.
We are starting to get along together really well again but I still did damage and need to give her some space. I've had people OD in front of me and it was pretty really traumatic. But I'm on the path to do the right things. Was thinkinging about taking a little Phens/Tryps tommorow in the am I have to see how I'm feeling when I get up. Trying practice harm reduction and just mainly use Psychs and some weed here and there maybe have a beer or two when I go out to eat. But all and all I'm happy right now we had great sex the other night and feeling that connection to her again brought the life right back to my soul. She knows I'm gonna just use Psychs and etc sparingly and is cool with that but anymore of these high dose Opioids or Benzos and I'm gonna lose all the ground I just gained and I wont let that happen.
Forgot a charger for my tablet I brought to the room the channels here suck so I'm gonna start watching movies on that and whatnot and my podcasts I like to keep up on. Good to get some exercise as well and I'll probably get moving in hour or something just sitting back sipping Black Tea. She made me a Shepard's Pie which was amazing and I'm about to heat up some now and have an early lunch, woke up at like 5am and only had peanut butter and jelly crackers so far. I'm going to make Chili for dinner and pour it over this Brown/Red Rice Chia and Kale which should be banging and also cook up a couple hotdogs to put some of the Chili on I've been eating alot since this quarantine started. Feeling pretty damn healthy right now I'm happy things are beginning to turn around it was a very difficult month for me.