I've been visiting my family for Christmas since Saturday. My baby nephew is about 7 months old, I last saw him when he was 1 week old. He's fucking amazing! Cutest thing I've ever seen. He's so chill, such a happy baby, he just hangs out, smiles and laughs a lot, is really interested in everything, hardly ever cries. Every time he looks at me he gets this huge smile and he just stares and reaches out for me to hold him.

He looks exactly like my little brother (whose son he is) when he was a baby, it takes me right back to being 7/8 years old when he was born, it's so trippy.
My dad can barely speak... it's nearly impossible to understand what he's trying to say. It's pretty fucked up.

My mom is dealing with so much right now... she handles all of her mom's affairs (my grandma is 92 years old and has just about lost her mind now, the dementia is getting very bad, she became psychotic and paranoid recently and went to a psych ward and got on some antipsychotics and mood stabilizers and now the old folks' home is trying to kick her out because they say she's being "too difficult" even though my mom pays for her to be in the memory care ward

). She now has several full-time caregiver helpers. She's deeply involved in her church's inner workings and some other groups, which honestly is I think her coping mechanism. She's very overexerted though. Now this morning her cat is puking up blood, and one of the caregivers who is on vacation is begging her to let her take the cat in to the vet but my mom inexplicably says she has to do it, but she's too busy right now with my dad (which is true).

I'm going to see if she'll let me and my girl do it instead. Kitty needs help, now, no time for whatever is going on in my mom's head right now that's causing her to refuse help.
Shit is pretty intense here. Good and bad stuff. This is the first chance I've had to log in here since I got here.
Bought 80 cans of snus as christmas present for me :D havent used in 6 months. Should last for quite a while.
Do they sell the swedish kind in your countries?
I've never had snus... what makes it different from other tobacco products?
Huh my liver tests revealed that the levels were pretty high. Time to cut back drinking, at least doing a dry january.
Bought benzos for the first time in years, chilling on 2mg clonazepam atm
I haven't been to the doctor in a few years, kinda nervous what my tests will show. I was drinking pretty heavily for a while. I've cut way back though. I'm visiting my family and have only had 2 beers since I got here. I've been enjoying sobriety, haven't even had weed except once (I'm gonna have it again tomorrow when I visit my friend, too).