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[Sega420]

stranger nothing.
i used to come in the PD and CD socials all the time.
just popped in to see how everyone is doing and nobody said hello :/

fair nuff.

a lot has happened since my rebirth in december.
i havent been on BL for a number of reasons. one of them being the Nexus is where i call home now.
its way more what ive always been looking for. BL is good and has helped me a lot over the years, but the DMT Nexus.. ahh. defies words.

if youve been on it more than once i think you'll know exactly what i mean

i meant it when i said, much much MUCH love and joy to you all :D
its a beautiful day today, the sun's out

 

[pharmakos]

stranger to me =p i didn't use to post in the social very often though.

i might have my first DMT trip soon.

 

[PepperSocks]

I love cider, I wish it were more prevalent and cheaper. The only stuff I can get is Strongbow at like $3 a can.

My BP is higher than normal lately (I think it's BP anyway), getting twitches in arm/leg muscles 'specially as evening approaches. Symptoms of a developing physical dependency to alcohol? I have been drinking a lil' in the day sometimes because I've been having cigars (with booze+soda, for taste and to increase the pleasantness of the high)....I've had much larger amounts every evening than I have been having per day with no ill effects in times past though. In any case guess a good break is in order...

I don't have BP monitor here, but a few months ago it was in the low-normal range; I'm actually prone to low BP and high resting pulse rate.

These days my resting pulse has been very high; amp consumption/stress is no doubt the cause. I find studying on amps to make tachycardia/insomnia much worse than using it socially or actively. The last few days I've been studying my ass off for the most obscenely memorization intensive subject I have ever seen (Intermediary Metabolism). I've got a heck of a sleep debt accumulated which I can now replenish. I just got out of the final and I'm glad to say that course is over and it wasn't a complete trainwreck. I'm hoping P-chem isn't any worse; I've heard stories and I take it next year.

It is definitely time for amp detox; I have a week to study my next round of exams and I'm going to do it the old fashioned way, with only liquid caffeine as an aid. At the moment though; to counter my sleep debt and burned out dopaminergic neurons I've taken a light beta-blocker, 1-1.5mg phenazepam, 10mg diazepam and it's starting to feel nice.

It's annoying how I always have trouble sleep the very night before an exam, the time I need it most; only got 3 hours last night. Leaving the amp out of it; it still feels like all the mental strain from studying all day makes you anxious and keeps you up. It seems the best strategy is to not study the day before an exam.

Back to your quote; it feels odd to me how phenibut actually causes leg pain in me, yet benzos relieve it. Alcohol hangover has leg pain for me too, last night I was finding it really weird how the phenibut I'd taken (GABAergic) was actually causing RLS and leg pain, aggravating my insomnia.

At the end of all this crap in the last few weeks since I've been joyriding with novel amp derivatives; my acne has reached critical mass, I've lost weight, anxiety at a high, etc. BUT, it really is just an amplification of things I've been carrying around for a long time. Someone in their early-mid 20s shouldn't have severe acne (was the case before amps) like this and I'm going to get some bloodwork done to see if I have some sort of endocrine/metabolism disorder. I really should have done this a year or two ago.

Anyways, god bless pharmacologists, chemists, and the capitalists who have made this relief available.

HA! Just remembered that in the case of phenzepam I have the communists to thank :D

eh.. nevermind then i guess :/

Sorry dude, busy times on all fronts, one gets selfish and scans the page, hope all is well

 

[Roger&Me]

I'm hoping P-chem isn't any worse; I've heard stories and I take it next year.

P-chem is way different from biology type courses like metabolism -- its basically the most theoretical & mathematical subject I've ever been exposed to. You'll be A-OK though if you go in prepared, but your life will suck if you try to jump flat-footed; its definitely a class to take seriously. Make sure you can solve most types of elementary differential equations, know your general forms for integrals, and know how to solve a few basic problems with hamiltonian mechanics (this will help a LOT if you have to take the 2nd semester quantum mechanics course -- if your university does it that way).

Learning the easier "plug and chug" type problems from particle physics is useful too eg. how to calculate a de broglie wavelength for a proton accelerated by a potential difference. Also, being rusty on stuff from general chemistry will crush you -- thermodynamics (know all the equations for eg. entropy, enthalpy, gibbs free energy, etc. know how to solve all the thermo problems in your gen chem textbook), acceptable values of quantum numbers, electron configurations, MO theory (should probably learn to calculate bond order etc in your head), those stupid reaction tables that you have to do in gen chem will be really helpful when you cover kinetics. Also, knowing about spectroscopy is very useful eg. group theory, and how to use character tables to draw MO diagrams.

If you only have to take the thermo/kinetics/1st semester type course you'll have a much easier time. Its the quantum mechanics shit that is really hard (but also much more interesting).

Also, cut out the drugs. You need your brain for that course.

 

[Cyanoide]

At the end of all this crap in the last few weeks since I've been joyriding with novel amp derivatives; my acne has reached critical mass, I've lost weight, anxiety at a high, etc. BUT, it really is just an amplification of things I've been carrying around for a long time. Someone in their early-mid 20s shouldn't have severe acne (was the case before amps) like this and I'm going to get some bloodwork done to see if I have some sort of endocrine/metabolism disorder. I really should have done this a year or two ag

The skin on my hands has started to turn white, exactly like cold weather dry skin when it's extremely cold here (-20°C to below -30°C). There's no other plausible explanation than EPH and it's vascoconstriction. I'm actually starting to loathe this stuff which is a very good thing.

I kind of miss studying. I studied sociology and political science and today read Emile Durkheim's The Elementary Forms of Religious Life for a couple of hours which is one of the best and most interesting books I ever had to read for an exam. Studying was interesting since I liked my subjects so much. Of course there were always some boring courses but most were interesting. Now I work with tech support which has nothing to do with what I studied at university. I had wished to become a researcher in sociology but you don't always get what you want in life. Fortunately the work environment is nice and the atmosphere good. But I really don't feel like I evolve as a person in any way at work.

Next week I'm finally moving to my flat in our mighty D) capital (the only place in this country I'd call a city). I lived there on rent for 5,5 years while studying, since then I've lived at my parent's place in a small town. Now I finally had enough money to buy a flat. At least something positive with having a job. It also means there's more to do, more friends to see, and I can trip on psychedelics whenever I want. I have high hopes that my use of stimulants will stop then as it's much due to boredom. There's nothing to do here.

It's raining heavily which means the little snow that still remain will melt away fast. Soon it's outdoor tripping time

 

[Seyer]

Taka talvi once again, I heard haha.

 

[Cyanoide]

Taka talvi once again, I heard haha.

Yes, it's like that every year (always just as frustrating), but now spring is definitely coming. Fortunately it was just a few days of snow. But you can't be sure of anything at this latitude before May. Sometimes not even before mid-May. On the other hand there was a week in the beginning of May last year with about 25°C every day.

 

[Seyer]

At this point its lookin like Ill be out there in mid-May, but that can change so easily. Delay delay and more delay Oh well, it gives me more time with 25i

 

[Cyanoide]

At this point its lookin like Ill be out there in mid-May, but that can change so easily. Delay delay and more delay Oh well, it gives me more time with 25i

There's no shortage of it here, so no worries Would be interesting to see what you think about 25C too.

 

[Seyer]

Cant wait. As difficult as it is to leave my whole life here behind, good things lie ahead. Ive needed a positive change in my life for some time now. Drugs have clouded my mind for the last 5-6 years. Time to move forward.

 

[Cyanoide]

Cant wait. As difficult as it is to leave my whole life here behind, good things lie ahead. Ive needed a positive change in my life for some time now. Drugs have clouded my mind for the last 5-6 years. Time to move forward.

I can imagine it being difficult. Life here's quite different from there as you know. Finding us psychonauts here is notoriously difficult for an outsider but you know what I've said in PM's. Besides you're coming just perfectly for summer when the magic light nights and forest parties begin

 

[Seyer]

Yeah, Im definitely excited about it, no matter how bittersweet the whole situation is. When I was there back in 2010, Id go out with my cousin, then I made a few friends and went out with them. Told them a lot of my stories and they were extremely fascinated by the fact that Ive done LSD and other psychedelics they hadnt even heard of such as Mescaline and 2C-B.

 

[PepperSocks]

thermodynamics (know all the equations for eg. entropy, enthalpy, gibbs free energy, etc. know how to solve all the thermo problems in your gen chem textbook), acceptable values of quantum numbers, electron configurations, MO theory (should probably learn to calculate bond order etc in your head), those stupid reaction tables that you have to do in gen chem will be really helpful when you cover kinetics. Also, knowing about spectroscopy is very useful eg. group theory, and how to use character tables to draw MO diagrams.

Luckily the Structure and Bonding course I'm a taking gives a pretty good foundation in that stuff so that's good to know. Physics II which I'll be taking in the summer brings in quantum mechanics.

Also, cut out the drugs. You need your brain for that course.

Good call, I've been noticing a trend where the people with the high grades are usually chilled, non-drug users.

This whole idea that stimulants give you higher grades and an academic advantage is such shit.

 

[Roger&Me]

World's greatest stimulant:

:D

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

^Starbucks espresso, in a can at that Rog. Come on, make some at home or get some primo shit, then it'd be better (caffeine is my favorite stimulant though).


Sorry for the rudeness Sega, things are as always here in our little corner of the internet, only different as folks come and go and our moods oscillate with the seasons. How much of that massively positive attitude that DMT experience gave you when you decided to break from here has remained? I trust some of it has, as ++++'s really seem to become a part of ya.

At the end of all this crap in the last few weeks since I've been joyriding with novel amp derivatives; my acne has reached critical mass, I've lost weight, anxiety at a high, etc. BUT, it really is just an amplification of things I've been carrying around for a long time. Someone in their early-mid 20s shouldn't have severe acne (was the case before amps) like this and I'm going to get some bloodwork done to see if I have some sort of endocrine/metabolism disorder. I really should have done this a year or two ago.

I always just assumed my much worse than average acne was from rolling snake eyes in the genetic skin quality lottery. I blame a lot of stuff on DNA, one of the many reasons I am utterly opposed to procreation.


My brain has interpreted my telling it "Don't buy more booze, be sober." as "Go buy more expensive booze, if you're gonna poison yourself, then you might as well be classy about it." So I sip on my Gordon's Gin and Campari (1:1 ratio). Though I'm now nearly broke, so I have hastened my the arrival of my next couple weeks to a month long sobriety break. I also think so long as I don't have any during the day, I should be fine.

 

[delta_9]

(caffeine is my favorite stimulant though)

Mine as well.
It's one of the few drugs that I use on a daily basis, and believe it or not it actually treats my quite well. I never get wired or jittery or feel strung out or anything like that. Of course it wasn't always like this, as it takes the body some time to get used to. Not long though(for me at least).
I'm actually finishing a cup of coffee right now. :D

I would never drink coffee from a can or bottle however, and I find iced coffee especially disgusting.

Cool little piece of trivia - Roughly 14.3 million cups of coffee are consumed every single day around the world. That's about 166 cups per second
I definitely contribute my fair share of that.

 

[Roger&Me]

I could really care less about coffee snobbery, canned espresso is the greatest and most convenient invention of all time. I've drank espresso on 3 continents, including at some famous cafes such as Les Deaux Magots in Paris -- and I'm still not too snobbed-out to pick up my morning espresso can at the gas station. :D

(Plus I'd have to save up for like two years to afford an espresso maker, lol)

 

[pharmakos]

my preferred pre-packaged coffee beverages:

i prefer cold coffee drinks haha.

 

[twelvesevndi]

^a good espresso machine anyway!
you can get a shit one from mr. coffee for ~$100.

I just thought i would pop into mention that i just got a kilo of caffeine.
really don't see any need to go back on tea or coffee as those both produce stomach cramps and muscle tremors for me.

 

[delta_9]

I could really care less about coffee snobbery, canned espresso is the greatest and most convenient invention of all time. I've drank espresso on 3 continents, including at some famous cafes such as Les Deaux Magots in Paris -- and I'm still not too snobbed-out to pick up my morning espresso can at the gas station. :D

(Plus I'd have to save up for like two years to afford an espresso maker, lol)

I'm just not a fan of canned and bottled drinks of any kind, it's not necessarily a coffee specific thing. I like to grind my own beans, and I just have a regular drip machine, nothing fancy. I've spent time in some really nice European cafes as well, but I very much enjoy the ritual of grinding and brewing coffee(much like I enjoy the ritual of brewing a nice cup of tea), so I always find myself back at my own machine at the end of the day

I guess I just like what I like. :D