Roger&Me
Bluelighter
I really feel like I have to do this. If I don't I'm just going to be killing myself feeling like a depressed and angry caged animal.
Godspeed, friend.

Not all who wander are lost...

I really feel like I have to do this. If I don't I'm just going to be killing myself feeling like a depressed and angry caged animal.
Sure, I'm curious to know what role they played.Also psood0nym can I have permission to quote what you replied to me in the amt thread and the dxm posts? They really did play a part in the experience.
That's one of my favorite tripping videos from back in high school. I saw it on a SciFi channel program that showed short films all the time. I believe it won an Oscar during the 90s.This was really intense for me, wow.
my heart seriously fuckin hurts.
Awesome :D I'm curious what your mental image of me is.I had a dream last night where I was chillen with nearjat at his crib lol :D
Good times!
Don't sweat it dude, today is no different than Wednesday, I met this exact situation recently. Sucks ass I know.Fuck having your plans spoiled for the most simple stupid shit. I had everything planned out. I had a basic outline of what I was gonna say, and I was gonna wait after class to meet up and talk to this chick. Some how in the final moments I ended up missing her. I turned my work in, and I swear she was still sitting down getting shit organized. I went out side and waited by the door and I never saw her leave. She obviously did though. ugh, I'm fucking pissed. The one time I have to guts to make some sort of move, shit just goes wrong. I guess I'll try again on Wednesday, but I feel like today was the ideal time to make the move. I clearly saw that she was there and the fact that I didn't say a word to her seems kinda weak.
Nothing warrior-like about that...just bad decisions compounded by more bad decisions.
I don't think I will post a TR, but I have been trying to recall a few details. It's amazing how lucid my memory is of much of the event, and yet it hasn't shown any hints of PTSD-like after effects.
Quite the opposite, I feel like I have been instilled with a renewed vitality.
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My experience was that of splattered viscera – of death, decay, and desiccation – of a messy, horrifying hallucinosis. Some rogue asteroid had careened through though my delicate orbit, crushing and warping my experiential manifold into grotesque, unutterable distortions. The actuality of this delirium state defies any meaningful description.
At some point, when the splatter fest was in retreat – at which time all I could do was desperately continue the vital inhalations and exhalations that had brought me this far – I started repeating my wife’s name, “Miriam,” with absolutely no understanding of the meaning held by those syllables. This mantra continued, almost involuntarily, a solid chain that on some level I hoped would tow me back onto solid ground. Instead, I became enveloped by an impossibly complex delusion that I, God, was responsible for creating meaning for the sounds, “mir′ē əm.” The sounds, the text, and the physicality of the universe did not actually exist until I brought it into being. I continued to repeat my mantra, still hoping that it would lead me out of the horrific chaos. In desperation, I hammered out the keys, M-I-R-I-A-M, into my Google search engine, and was faced with alien hieroglyphs. The text was absolutely meaningless. I lost my footing and plummeted back into chaos.
It was a slow, deliberate trudge back across hallucinatory remnants strewn throughout my psyche, but gradually, the fog cleared and I have never been so thankful in my entire life.
thanks for sharinghe sounds, the text, and the physicality of the universe did not actually exist until I brought it into being.
Volundr said:
I really enjoyed that. Very emotionally moving. Thanks.
i has to do a thing for english taht is gonna take forever.
honestly, i am gonna have to be up all night for this (i has to read animal farm and write about it in a certain way).
amp will be dosed
my heart seriously fuckin hurts.
edit : and fuck, my friend was a dumbass, drove while on mephedrone without a license, crashed head on into a peugeot, the 4 people in the van are in ITU (Intensive Therapy Unit), the woman in the peugeot is okay. shit happens for a reason though, right?