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Dondante said:
That's too bad about Ratatat. The videos are fun, but I the music is disposable...

Regarding the headspace, the night was a mixed bag actually. The 3-meo-PCP resulted in grandiosity along with the sense of predestination that I mentioned earlier, and this somehow resulted in me unexpectedly consuming the LSD. Then, I was down and tripping on LSD, and not sure what to do with myself. I made another poor decision, and chose to hammer my receptors in a bad way with 10 mg psilocin, 50 mg ketamine, and 1-2 mg 3-meo-pcp IM. What followed was a god-awful state of hallucinosis/delerium with sporadic periods of full-on, god-like delusions and periods of hellish mindfuckery that persisted for 3 hours, but after coming down, still tripping on the LSD, I started to feel surprisingly good, amazingly good, in fact. Thank God, I was worried I'd caused some irreparable psychological damage.

I still feel off slightly off baseline from LSD at T+15:00.

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Whoah.

One of those "now that you've done it & survived it, spend the rest of your life trying to figure it out" ones eh? Always fun, good luck integrating that one man, although it seems like you're already well on your way. Cosmic <3

There's alot of DXM talk in this thread lately, the one dissociative I'm not painfully well acquainted with. I'm curious but at the same time isn't having a seizure from masking codeine withdrawals with dex learning your lesson enough? Sometimes decisions made in the heat of the moment are rash and some others are sound... Would probably be a good idea to lay off the opiates and dissociatives for another few months. Still need to pay attention to my body and make sure it heals well, which is something not conducive to either... In the mean time I will live vicariously through the methoxetamine thread.

Godspeed everyone in their respective directions in life %) <3 =D
 
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Agreed on seasonal change, its finally merging into spring here, lovely breezy days, sunny and healthy.

I had a lovely walk along the beach with my sister yesterday, there's sorta fossilised remnants of thousand year old cooking fires- its really a mind boggling thing. :)

Delsyd, I was using opiates (heroin and morphine and codeine) several times a day, started getting really sick and so now just take subutex. Works wonders- I don't get much effect from it now, but I am not craving opiates which is good :)

Me and mum are planting a memorial garden for my dad, just like a lil patch where we wanna grow some poppies (he did like his poppies, my dad- its what killed him- but he was a staunchly nihilistic user....). He was a man that I didn't ever get to understand, but I think I loved him anyway....<3 I hope he's found the peace that life never gave him.

EDIT: Dondante, your right, let us not mention opiates anymore. :)
 
Dondante said:
That's too bad about Ratatat. The videos are fun, but I the music is disposable...
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disposable; a very fitting adjective indeed. their sound has grown a bit old at this point--on on to the next;)

i <3 the video for drugs.
Regarding the headspace, the night was a mixed bag actually. The 3-meo-PCP resulted in grandiosity along with the sense of predestination that I mentioned earlier, and this somehow resulted in me unexpectedly consuming the LSD. Then, I was down and tripping on LSD, and not sure what to do with myself. I made another poor decision, and chose to hammer my receptors in a bad way with 10 mg psilocin, 50 mg ketamine, and 1-2 mg 3-meo-pcp IM. What followed was a god-awful state of hallucinosis/delerium with sporadic periods of full-on, god-like delusions and periods of hellish mindfuckery that persisted for 3 hours, but after coming down, still tripping on the LSD, I started to feel surprisingly good, amazingly good, in fact. Thank God, I was worried I'd caused some irreparable psychological damage.

I still feel off slightly off baseline from LSD at T+15:00.

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you my friend, are a true psychedelic warrior. when you mentioned the combo the first thing i thought of was psychotic break but you've seemed to have held it together. my hats off to you sir.

any chance of a yummy tr?
 
derp
some dnb
plz.
wut should i download/where from?
i aint know nothing about dnb, i just like wut ive herd.
 
Never Knows Best said:
I'm with psood0nym on this one. I have experience with the whole dropping out thing, though my situation was different than your Psox.

Now if there isn't any major detriment to leaving sooner rather than later and you're sure you can get back into uni when you need without any major problems, then I'd say get the hell out asap. Living far far away from where you were raised for some period of time can really help a person. Of course if you come back home it will really suck for a while, and you might never shake the feeling you left some large part of your soul back on the other side of the country...
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Yeah, no academic penalty for leaving now, just a small financial one. I can go back to uni later without problem; uni somewhere else that is.

I really feel like I have to do this. If I don't I'm just going to be killing myself feeling like a depressed and angry caged animal.
 
hey guys,

back on the east coast, did about 6 hours of firewood splitting today (hey MM :)) and it felt great. fall is by far my favorite season, i love the cool and the changing leaves in Maine.

hows everyone doing today anyway?

so i have a quick question about green dragon (should probably be asking in CD, but i never post there, and you guys are much cooler if you ask me ;)). i have about a half ounce of fresh weed that i picked off the moldy bits out of my grow this year that i wanna make into GD (its totally clean from mold so no worries aobut that). how much high proof alcohol should i use do you think? i was thinking half a fifth but not sure if thats too little or too much.

thanks guys, hope everyone is having a great night, im working (slowly) on my college homework that was due yesterday. oh and drinking shitty beer and smoking good homegrown
 
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naginnudej said:
you my friend, are a true psychedelic warrior. when you mentioned the combo the first thing i thought of was psychotic break but you've seemed to have held it together. my hats off to you sir.

any chance of a yummy tr?
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Nothing warrior-like about that...just bad decisions compounded by more bad decisions.

I don't think I will post a TR, but I have been trying to recall a few details. It's amazing how lucid my memory is of much of the event, and yet it hasn't shown any hints of PTSD-like after effects.

Quite the opposite, I feel like I have been instilled with a renewed vitality.

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My experience was that of splattered viscera – of death, decay, and desiccation – of a messy, horrifying hallucinosis. Some rogue asteroid had careened through though my delicate orbit, crushing and warping my experiential manifold into grotesque, unutterable distortions. The actuality of this delirium state defies any meaningful description.

At some point, when the splatter fest was in retreat – at which time all I could do was desperately continue the vital inhalations and exhalations that had brought me this far – I started repeating my wife’s name, “Miriam,” with absolutely no understanding of the meaning held by those syllables. This mantra continued, almost involuntarily, a solid chain that on some level I hoped would tow me back onto solid ground. Instead, I became enveloped by an impossibly complex delusion that I, God, was responsible for creating meaning for the sounds, “mir′ē əm.” The sounds, the text, and the physicality of the universe did not actually exist until I brought it into being. I continued to repeat my mantra, still hoping that it would lead me out of the horrific chaos. In desperation, I hammered out the keys, M-I-R-I-A-M, into my Google search engine, and was faced with alien hieroglyphs. The text was absolutely meaningless. I lost my footing and plummeted back into chaos.

It was a slow, deliberate trudge back across hallucinatory remnants strewn throughout my psyche, but gradually, the fog cleared and I have never been so thankful in my entire life.
 
So I decided to go for it and give this chick my phone number tomorrow. Might as well make a genuine effort to show interest in getting to know her while I have some sort of window (one that is visible to me) of opportunity. I feel like if I don't get her name and give her my number I will have no hope in the future in terms of her. Just thinking about doing this tomorrow makes me anxious as fuck. Weed and k isn't helping...
 
Cloudy said:
So I decided to go for it and give this chick my phone number tomorrow. Might as well make a genuine effort to show interest in getting to know her while I have some sort of window (one that is visible to me) of opportunity. I feel like if I don't get her name and give her my number I will have no hope in the future in terms of her. Just thinking about doing this tomorrow makes me anxious as fuck. Weed and k isn't helping...
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Dude don't worry about it. I've seen your chin in a video of you hitting a bong, you're obviously an attractive man.
 
I really really really wish I could find a source for ketamine right now. It is top on my list of new drugs to try at the moment.
 
LSDMDMA&8846871 said:
high contrast-kiss kiss bang bang
wut is GHB like, for those of you that have tried it
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It's kind of like alcohol, only better (less negative side effects and more euphoric) and with a ~2 hour total duration. I don't know how good of a description is, but that's how I tend to think of it. Gotta watch how much you take though, it's really easy to overdo it and fall asleep/pass out. ARGH, now you've given me the desire to dose some GBL, but I shall resist the urge.

In other news: car should be repaired and reinsured within the week. Then I can try to end my woefully long period of unemployment in earnest. Wish me luck with that.
 
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