I've finally over the past two year gotten a better self perception and just overall self-esteem. I recognize my fallacies and appreciate them for what they are, as they make up who I am, but man, even after recognizing what I have to do to become successful in these realms I still can not manage to figure out how to do it. I have gotten better at talking to random people, but there are still times that I just can't even think of anything to say, or whatever the hell they are talking about just doesn't catch my interest enough to be able to produce sentences to carry on the conversation. I just don't understand how to meet people. I mean, sure I can say, hey, my name is Kyle, this is where I'm from, this is a few things I enjoy doing, but that doesn't ever seem to be enough. Also how do you know when it is appropriate to approach people. That is just way to hard for me to comprehend. The only times I do that is if it is clear that we have a similar interest, ie someone wearing a band shirt I like. But even still, I've approached someone and said, "hey I really like your shirt, I went to that show also. Fucking badass show huh?", sure this might carry on for a minute, but after that what do you say? I just used up my only basis for a conversation. Also the majority of the time I've approached someone for a various reason, they don't ever reciprocate.
I'm hoping my daily smiling will draw some attention, but I know I need to do something extra as that just wont cut it.