Kcider
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Oct 11, 2014
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Hi
This is dark so dont bother reading if youre not down for that.
Anyway I intend to end my life asap and bought about 2 grams of brown. Normally I've been shooting.. let's say 2 £10 bags a day. Perhaps a little more since I recently bought 2 grams but chickened out and just ended up taking it all over 4 days or so.. oops. That won't happen this time because I have no money left... the age old problem. Good enough reason to bite the bulet now.
Can anyone tell me if they think this will be enough to let me go peacefully? Have to guess a bit but I'm not a small guy so I probably weigh ~ 205 pounds / 93kg, last time I checked. I'll have a liter of 9% cider then shoot. I only have 1mg insulin syringes as I'm used to those -- I've never tried to put so much brown into one syringe, I assume it's going to be coffee black and thick, is it going to even be possible like this?
I've gotten quite high before and sort of felt like I'd nod and then gasp for air and that's a bit terrifying -- I don't really want it to be like that! Anybody with experience know what it feels like? I've seen various responses when I've searched the forums.
I just want to go to sleep, happy, and not wake up.
Any advice is appreciated
Thanks very much
This is dark so dont bother reading if youre not down for that.

Anyway I intend to end my life asap and bought about 2 grams of brown. Normally I've been shooting.. let's say 2 £10 bags a day. Perhaps a little more since I recently bought 2 grams but chickened out and just ended up taking it all over 4 days or so.. oops. That won't happen this time because I have no money left... the age old problem. Good enough reason to bite the bulet now.
Can anyone tell me if they think this will be enough to let me go peacefully? Have to guess a bit but I'm not a small guy so I probably weigh ~ 205 pounds / 93kg, last time I checked. I'll have a liter of 9% cider then shoot. I only have 1mg insulin syringes as I'm used to those -- I've never tried to put so much brown into one syringe, I assume it's going to be coffee black and thick, is it going to even be possible like this?
I've gotten quite high before and sort of felt like I'd nod and then gasp for air and that's a bit terrifying -- I don't really want it to be like that! Anybody with experience know what it feels like? I've seen various responses when I've searched the forums.
I just want to go to sleep, happy, and not wake up.
Any advice is appreciated
Thanks very much