Heroin Overdosing suicide -- amount, pain, details..?

[Kcider]

Hi

This is dark so dont bother reading if youre not down for that.

Anyway I intend to end my life asap and bought about 2 grams of brown. Normally I've been shooting.. let's say 2 £10 bags a day. Perhaps a little more since I recently bought 2 grams but chickened out and just ended up taking it all over 4 days or so.. oops. That won't happen this time because I have no money left... the age old problem. Good enough reason to bite the bulet now.

Can anyone tell me if they think this will be enough to let me go peacefully? Have to guess a bit but I'm not a small guy so I probably weigh ~ 205 pounds / 93kg, last time I checked. I'll have a liter of 9% cider then shoot. I only have 1mg insulin syringes as I'm used to those -- I've never tried to put so much brown into one syringe, I assume it's going to be coffee black and thick, is it going to even be possible like this?

I've gotten quite high before and sort of felt like I'd nod and then gasp for air and that's a bit terrifying -- I don't really want it to be like that! Anybody with experience know what it feels like? I've seen various responses when I've searched the forums.

I just want to go to sleep, happy, and not wake up.

Any advice is appreciated

Thanks very much

 

[Felonious Monk]

I'm not sure you really want to die or you wouldn't have started this thread. You know how much will kill you, you didn't need to ask. What's made you so depressed that you don't want to continue? Relationship issues? Job?

How old are you? If you're 65 I take some of it back, but if you're anywhere under 40 and have been doing heroin less than 20 years, then reconsider. Life isn't always great, but it's not all bad either. I've been through multiple periods of wanting to die, even half-assed trying to kill myself. But I'm glad I didn't succeed, a lot of good things have happened since then, and not for any special reason either--they just happened, just like the bad things happened. A lot of the bad things were in my head though--yes, they were real, I was alienated and alone, but mostly because I'd created that situation. And again, when I decided I wanted things to be different, it happened.

Try moving to a new city, a new country. Go on vacation. Get into debt to make it happen if you have to. You can always kill yourself in 6 months or 12 months when you've tried something radical, but why just slide into it?

Check out The Dark Side forum if you're interested, you'll find a lot of support here.

 

[etnies]

If a mod will PM me his IP address, I'll gladly send a bunch of pigs to your location to save your life.

 

[Drumminstoned20]

Ok dude . I stopped reading at end my life . There's someone who values you more than you do . Everyone that comments obviously wants you to live . If you want to kill yourself dude make sure it's the last option . Do therapy, treatment facilities , support groups, everything . Myself and most anyone if not everyone would rather see you use dope to kill pain not yourself . Atleast then there's recovery . I can only say don't kill yourself and don't do drugs and check into a mental health center , but if not , just saying if I was thinking of killing myself ide just smoke a lot of weed and find a meaning to live . A friend , a dog , weed , hell I've even known a guy that started boxing and the stress release and support of his trainers changed his outlook . If you want things to be better and you make effort towards better it's just fact that it happens in some way . Besides . That's kinda a bad way to go dude . Get every help option before deciding .. Weed , a pitbull and a random homeless guy in a walmart parking lot changed my mind . That's not a lot of hard work to find so I'm sure there's something to inspire you .

 

[sekio]

BL is not here to assist in your suicide.