(Opiates) - Retrospective - The long road of Addiction: 17 Y/O w/ many experiences

[Smokey_McPot]

how are you doing? still snorting vicodins or have you been behaving yourself?

 

[shimazu]

I have tried to obtain heroin but it is just so damn expensive around here. Maybe that's a good thing.

weird

 

[Chesh]

Well I think this thread has convinced me to stay away from opiates.

Really interesting report though mate.

 

[kushrolledup]

I've experienced the same opiate problem u were going thru, I began using at age 17 and it began with the good stuff 30 mg oxy. And now at 22 I've been on suboxone maintenance for the past month. And I must say it did alleviate just about all my wd symptoms and the cravings. Just know if u really plan on quitting, do so, and don't look back.

 

[DOB]

wow that is alot prescription,MGs and pills for one trip report

 

[donkeylove]

(30-35 norco 10mg a day with soma, zanny blah blah blah 5 years) $$$$$
(Suboxone 3 (three) 8mg tablets a day 2 years) $$$$$
(Suboxone WD's 8 months+) -$
( Maeng Da Powder Kratom from wholesale online distributor 2tsp every 8 hrs mixed with water) $

Money saved, Do way cooler stuff now and my Girlfriend is way too hot.

Although it was fun trying to figure out how to get money everyday, sit in a room and look like (well you know), try and make all my court dates (promise it will happen eventually) and make my friends amd family so sad and embarrased of me I think I'm gonna keep the road I'm on.

By no way am I saying to not continue professional medical advice/care.

This is just my story of once taking pills for a day of watching movies to %100 a fucked life and a huge struggle ahead. Listen to the other reply's and get out while you barely can.
Lastly, my opinion of Kratom use for the relief of Opiate withdrawls was done with Kratom only. We're addicts who try and find any reason to add a benzo there and I flippity flap there.

Look into and Good Luck?

 

[ScaredInfectionsH]

lol yes exactly what I was thinking...When u have crapped on e1 that cared about you and are sweating bullets in a holding cell on a B&E charge because u didn't want to get sick, not get high, not get sick. You will realize that being cool was just being a fuck up.

Sorry title got me too, I understand, I was there too. Would have don things differently if I could go back as 'm sure we all would. GL to you

 

[teological]

Wow. That was a great read. I was also very intense in my drug use, always opting for intensity over quality. Straight out binge drinking hard liquor in 20minutes, Quadtriple dropping of mdma pills, snorting entire bags of speed, smoking weed like you would not believe. Basically from 16 onwards, everyday type stuff. This got me to the point of pyschosis, had to quick drugs because I would get very pyschotic on them until ---->>>>I found opiates at 20, and like you man, found a drug that surpassed ALL. Haven't looked back since.

How are you doing these days? Still on the subs? Post back. That was one crazy report!

 

['medicine cabinet']

Man I hate to be the bearer of bad news but your life is basically over. I started at 18 with heroin and the needle and I can honestly say its been all down here from there. I'm not usually the alarmist type but you need to understand that suboxone is a long term commitment that will follow you for the rest of your life. Don't take this shit lightly its not a game your not gonna wake up and be normal one day. Goodluck kid your gonna need it.

this.


i was hooked at 18, banging at 21. im now 30 and have been on both subs and methadone at various times. im on methadone and xanax now (both rx'd) 110mgs and 4mgs respectively. ive altered my brains chemistry for the rest of my life by abusing drugs like oxycodone, morphine, heroin, weed, coke ect while my brain was still developing. im pretty sure my opiate receptors are shot, and sadly i cant really see a life of not using anything. my life was basically over when i first spiked morphine and thought oh my god this is good. ive injected other ppl for their first time too which guilts me, they were already addicts but still...just knowing i gave them their first shot shames me.

to this day i remember by friend being sick and wanting to be shot up, so i prepped a tiny little shot and as i injected him i could see it wash over him, his muscles relax, his pupils constrict, his breathing slow. and from there he learned how to shoot and tried to kill himself one night by oding. He, as far as i know, is still clean but he is a hardcore NA''er so he basically replaced doing dope with not doing dope. well thats the end of my tangent.

 

[Stargazer]

Great read....it made me nostalgic too. Trust me, it leads to hell and can't last forever. I remember those days....a nice, slooowww ride. With all is well in the world. Until you run out...get arrested, detox in jail, naked, hallucinating, having seizures in dirty dungeon like cell. Yeah...it was great at first.

Thankyou for the report. I really do wish you the best. You're very young. You will eventually get tired of it.

 

[Xorkoth]

Good report, thanks for sharing. I hope you're in a better place now. I just wanted to say that getting hooked on opiates does not mean your life is over. I started opiates at age 20 and quickly became a daily user.... granted, I never got into the needle but I was terribly addicted for 10 years, I had given up on the hope that I would ever not be. Then finally at age 30 I really quit... it's been almost 2 years and I am no longer an opiate addict, no cravings, and I'm back to normal. of course I will never touch an opiate again, but that thought actually makes me happy now.

It's possible to beat it but you have to want it enough. And in my case, I was using them to mask the pain of something, so what really gave me the strength to finally quit was eliminating that thing (person) from my life, so I didn't have pain to mask anymore.

 

[Stargazer]

^^True. It took a lot of pain, losing everything for me to get to where I am at this moment...Indeed you can get you back- I have, but it took a lot. Everyone's journey is different. Somehow once I IV'd, it was hard to go back to oral ingestion. I don't have to explain, as I know anyone who IV's understands.

Benzo Bars I too hope you're in a better place. You are very intelligent and a gifted writer. Your post had my full attention from beginning to end. That's a wonderful gift. Look how many people you'ved touched. All the best to you.