Good report, thanks for sharing. I hope you're in a better place now. I just wanted to say that getting hooked on opiates does not mean your life is over. I started opiates at age 20 and quickly became a daily user.... granted, I never got into the needle but I was terribly addicted for 10 years, I had given up on the hope that I would ever not be. Then finally at age 30 I really quit... it's been almost 2 years and I am no longer an opiate addict, no cravings, and I'm back to normal. of course I will never touch an opiate again, but that thought actually makes me happy now.
It's possible to beat it but you have to want it enough. And in my case, I was using them to mask the pain of something, so what really gave me the strength to finally quit was eliminating that thing (person) from my life, so I didn't have pain to mask anymore.