Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
johanneschimpo said:
That's untrue. Although many people are.
streetsurfer, I think that therapy would be the very best thing for you. But take this for what you will; it's been ym experience.
I was quite depressed although for different reasons than you. It had been building for years, and during the years of 20-21, it reached its peak. I was a real mess. I mean, I was entirely unmotivated, lost, hopeless, directionless. I felt anxiety gnawing away at me 24 hours a day. I normally don't need much sleep and get an average of 6 hours a night; however, during this time I was sleeping 9 to 10 hours a day. I just felt so hopeless and pointless. Everything in my life was suffering.
Then I underwent some personal psychedelic therapy, which is not what I'm suggesting but I guess I should include. This helped me to come to terms with what was going on and kick myself out of it. However, it didn't keep it away. Then I discovered nootropics, particularly hydergine and piracetam. This doesn't work for everyone, but for me, it was an absolute godsend. For the first 4 weeks of taking the combination of 4.5mg hydergine and 800-1000mg piracetam every morning, I was absolutely euphoric every day. I no longer felt anxiety or had mood swings, and I once again felt comfortable in my own skin. After that, it dropped off to just feeling normal. Ever since, I no longer have pointless mood swings. I get sad or upset when something directly causes it, like you should, but but I no longer just wake up feeling like I want to die for no reason at all. At this point I've been on them for quite a while and I continue taking them often because of their cognitive and neuroprotective benefits, but when I stop, I'm also fine. I was able to totally kick myself out of a depression. The other factor, I believe, was age - I'm no longer in that rough transition period of my life. I'm guessing you are, though.
Hydergine has been found to regulate levels of serotonin and dopamine in the brain, working to keep them at a happy medium. If it's too low, it works to raise them, and if it's too high, it works to lower them into balance. Both hydergine and piracetam have a wide variety of beneficial and protective effects on the brain. If you're interested, you should really look into it. Also, they're easy to obtain from overseas, although hydergine is not obtainable in the US. But it's also not controlled. Plus, piracetam is dirt cheap, and hydergine is cheaper than most meds.
As I said, the thing you really need is to work through these issues with a therapist or on your own, and get to the root of the problem. But there's nothing wrong with a little help, and in my experience, I've found hydergine and to a lesser extent piracetam (although the combination is quite synergistic and recommended) to be really great helpers, which have very, very few side effects. I don't experience any, but some experience a light headache and some morning nausea for a few weeks using hydergine, which usually goes away. Piracetam can cause a headache, also, but if you take a choline supplement like lecithin with it, it's not going to happen.
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