Breathe
Bluelighter
Oh it is such a predictable thing for me to be on these boards, now..
It's funny - when things are consistent and good, I rarely feel the impulse to post
here.
but when the shit hits the fan, like it did 2 days ago, when the last of my 3 connects got busted, blaaah there must be some kind of hope in the back of my
head that I could possibly find help in finding what I want, on here..
Can't say that's ever happened, though.
Yeah, I had 3 connects who were all reliable, down to earth, and just good people. I'm talking Los Angeles.. though I don't stay so close to where they were, it was well worth it.
The first got picked up like 4 months ago, and he's back out but not messing
around anymore: even to the point that he won't give me the almighty number
to his supplier. The second got nabbed 2 weeks ago, and I knew that was a
terrible sign, because all of them knew each other, and hung out in the same
area. I was ok, though, since the last dude was on top of his shit, and claimed
to be bust-proof, as we cycled randomly thru meet-points.
Nope. They picked his wreckless ass up 2 days ago, and after 2 days of trying
to cop in that area, all full of anxiety and hopefullness,
I realize these were the only dudes doing this shit. In that area, that is.
I'm fucked, and I don't really want to stop, but I've had to make some calls
and pick up some pills to keep the sickness off.. Not working so well..
Vicodin, and even morphine pills (30mg) don't really last very long, though
they're quite expensive; more than the balloons I've been getting for the
past year or so.
This is a terrible position to be in. I so envy those of you who still have your
reliable connects.. I'm fucked, and will probably be running out of pills in the next week or so.. blaaaaaahh fuck shit damn fuck.
What do I do?
It's funny - when things are consistent and good, I rarely feel the impulse to post
here.
but when the shit hits the fan, like it did 2 days ago, when the last of my 3 connects got busted, blaaah there must be some kind of hope in the back of my
head that I could possibly find help in finding what I want, on here..
Can't say that's ever happened, though.
Yeah, I had 3 connects who were all reliable, down to earth, and just good people. I'm talking Los Angeles.. though I don't stay so close to where they were, it was well worth it.
The first got picked up like 4 months ago, and he's back out but not messing
around anymore: even to the point that he won't give me the almighty number
to his supplier. The second got nabbed 2 weeks ago, and I knew that was a
terrible sign, because all of them knew each other, and hung out in the same
area. I was ok, though, since the last dude was on top of his shit, and claimed
to be bust-proof, as we cycled randomly thru meet-points.
Nope. They picked his wreckless ass up 2 days ago, and after 2 days of trying
to cop in that area, all full of anxiety and hopefullness,
I realize these were the only dudes doing this shit. In that area, that is.
I'm fucked, and I don't really want to stop, but I've had to make some calls
and pick up some pills to keep the sickness off.. Not working so well..
Vicodin, and even morphine pills (30mg) don't really last very long, though
they're quite expensive; more than the balloons I've been getting for the
past year or so.
This is a terrible position to be in. I so envy those of you who still have your
reliable connects.. I'm fucked, and will probably be running out of pills in the next week or so.. blaaaaaahh fuck shit damn fuck.
What do I do?