so i have been clean from all opiates for 6 months now. longest time period that i have been clean in the past 5-6 years! but as someone mentioned above, i'm feeling the urge to do it all the sudden! perhaps it's me quitting the ganja that has provoked these thoughts, but i knew i didn't want to stay clean indefinately. shitty thing is i'm in an addiction studies program at school aiming to be a substance abuse counselor, go figure. i live on the west coast though, so tar don't appeal to me much. addiction is complex shit! maybe i'll hold out until christmas time, but damn i want that rush right about now!