My ex girlfriend who overdosed on heroin some days back was appearently OK. Saw her on television on some days ago, she is participating in a TV show that is about building homes for the homeless and getting them jobs/helping them clean up their act. Appearently though she couldn't stand it and now lives under a bridge, guess the allure of the drugs is too strong.
I feel bad, I scored and shot up her first hit of H. We were both naive teenagers at the time, although she wasn't using drugs alot before we met. Well, it quickly escalated since I was a dealer back then and we had alot of supply. After 2 years of my girlfriend being arrested / put in the psychward for almost a year I was about to give up. Though when she came home I was overwhelmed with joy of course. We started doing drugs again and it of course got out of control for the 100:th time.
Now I was done, the anxiety of being a dealer (my friend got 4 years in prison another waiting sentance for smuggling) and having my close friends arrested and on top of that my relationship sucked. It was time to get off the drugs.
I told her I didn't want to do drugs all the time anymore.
After that I think it took ~3 weeks or so before she stole my ipod, about 300 euro in cash and some subutex. Then I never heard from her again.
Still, it makes me sad when I see her on television talking about how she is whoring for cash. Somehow, it all feels like it's my fault still.