I might try this one out.
My status:
Multiple years, more than a decade on strong MOR agonists. DHC/codeine for a few years, then on to oxy 80s a couple of times a day, before geting my doc to switch me to XR morphine (usually shot at 3-800mg a go) and lower dose oxycodone IR (nominally meant to be 40mg a day, taken in 10mg increments as and how I feel to be requisite.) for breakthrough.
Injury was originally falling on a big spike of broken glass, that went straight into my knee joint, had to break it off and face a several mile WALK to be able to seek medicial aid. And whilst recovering, had the shite luck to get jumped by a pack of 20-odd chavscum, stamped my kneecap in, used it like a fucking trampoline, before beating the absolute everfucking holy shit out of me and leaving me for dead in the street.
Surgery on the knee didn't help, made things worse even, a little, plus left me with some nerve damage that causes constant paraesthesia, spasticity and numbness, icy kind of pain down the side of my leg, gabapentin is far better than opiates to for neuropathic pain, but generally speaking, I still have quite a lot of pain left, and 'off' days when things just get to much to withstand, when my trochanteric bursitis flares up too and I can do nothing but crawl into bed and spend the day whacking morphine and oxy, go to the nearby toilet, and surf the net on my laptop etc.
Fed up with it, I really am. There are few things like intense and chronic pain to wear someone down, to turn someone from a hardened and healthy vital individual to an exhausted shade of their former self.
The docs of course are always very jealously guarding of their script pads where opiods are concerned, and I barely, barely get enough to remain physically functional with what I'm given, and even then I get left in a halfway state, just about maintained, some pain relief, but only enough to keep me more or less mobile if I haven't to travel any distance.
So I'd very much like the option at least, of actually selfcontrolled ability to judge intake, and have the capability available for a severe pain breakthrough med, for when a gram shot of morphine sulfate and a handful of oxy 10 IR caps emptied liberally into the prepping hit still leaves me wanting to curl up and howl, and esp for bursitis flares, those are the fucking very rectal sphincter of the abyss, let alone the crowbegotten PITS. Makes it impossible to lie in any position, back, frontal prone, sides, sat or anything else I can think of for that matter. And can't comfortably stand either for long.
BE EXTREMELY CAUTIOUS if IVing this substance!
The fentanyls, unlike other opioids, cause a specific effect on intravenous administration whereby respiration is temporarily paralyzed for a moment, its not long, but its there, and with additive effects from respiratory depressant effects, especially pronounced with the fentanyls.
This is NOT ordinary, dose-responsive respiratory depressant effect, its specific to the fentanyls as far as I am aware, although wouldn't be too shocked if the thebaine derivative types, etorphine and co, as well as such as the bentley, and knauss opioids do it too, and its specific to injection as the ROA. NOT respiratory depression, and dangerous, or it certainly can be. Don't even think about trying it alone. Make sure to have a sitter thats capable of providing assistance, or at the VERY least, if theres nothing else for it, contacting for emergency medevac.
Got a sod of a morph/oxy tolerance, have tried fent, alfentanil and I forget which but either remi- or su-fentanil. Not the ultrashort acting one, the longer acting of the two, although still really short acting. As well as one other, can't be certain as it was in a presurgical setting, but maybe lofent, name comes to mind for some reason, can't be sure which ones were used on me that time.
Definitely going to give this a go then after all is considered, not for in-out use but for intermittant rec use, and for breakthrough analgesia, when even the biggest syringe in the house cannot contain a sufficient dose of morphine sulfate to alleviate pain fully, well the second biggest, the biggest of all have a couple of feet long wide-bore ID size length of glass volumetric measurement tubing permanently attached to the end in place of a human needle, need a two-handed grip to operate those massive syringes. IMO maybe originally intended for farm animal use perhaps, or enteric tube feeds, etc. for those that cannot now eat by mouth.
Way too big for human use to be within the realms of the possible, and I use them for withdrawing liquids from containers that need to remain as closed off as posible, such as, for the last use I had involved some DIY-ing epoxy-like resin glue, so ended up using di-isocyanates as the crosslinker, and isocyanates.they suck big time, toxicity wise.
Worked well enough, to make some DIY quick and dirty two-part resin glue out from a polyol and a compound containing more than the single isocyanate group, to act by forming urea/amide bonds, resulting in a polyamide.
Worked well enough to have a satisfying conclusion, in which thy labours bear fruit
