Hi there,
I would like to ask you for some help and learn from your wealth of experience with various substances.
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A few words regarding my person: I suffer from adhd and get dexamphetamine (I guess it’s Dexedrine in US?) by prescription. My mood was pretty balanced and all in all everything was fine during my studies, when I was able to organize my day in line with my needs.It is absolutely necessary for me to be able to do some sports or at least go for a walk for 2 hours a day.
Some months ago I finished my studies and got a job. An office job, where I have to sit in front of the computer the whole day. That’s no problem for – let’s say 8 hours or 9 hours if it’s necessary. But there are “these days”, where we have to work for let’s say 12 or 14 hours.
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In order to get enough sleep, which is also essential for me to concentrate, I am then not able to get my daily exercise. In this evenings I feel really uncomfortable. Although I am tired, I feel restlessness, my legs tingle, and I get into a bad mood – depressed or dysphoric, I cry without any reason and feel miserable.What helps:
-Cannabis helps good, but I have a bad sleep and hangover the next day, so it’s no solution for me.
-MDMA does also a great job, my mood really improves when I take about 100mg and I enjoy the evening. But there is the tolerance and also the neurotoxicity issue, which makes this drug unsuitable to use let’s say two times a week although I never have any bad mood from it - the opposite is the case, the next day I feel relaxed and am more productive than any other day.
-I also tried 5-Meo-Dalt,which gives me nausea and does not feel really great ... on the other hand one could argue that this is perfect, given that I am looking for something that does isn't addictive. It is like choosing between devil and deep blue sea, at least my bad mood is going away.
So that's what I tried 'till today. I never snorted stuff, I don't use it to stay awake the whole night, I only take single doses and moderate amounts. All I want is to function the way I need to, to get my life managed.
Therefore I am more looking for a therapeutic, than for a recreational drug. My doctor can't help with this, I already told her my problems but I don't have to expect any help from her excepting anti depressants, which I won't use because my problems are present for about 6 or 8 hours a week.
What I am looking for:
- something to improve my mood (e.g. Selective serotonin releasers or - maybe more safe - (partial) agonists on Serotonin receptors) in the short term
- a substance with a duration of about 3, 4 hours without hangover the next day when used moderate. without any (or at least physical) addictive potential
- non (neuro-)toxic
- which I can purchase in deep or clear web easily (so please don't come up with e.g. mdai)
Mostly any phenylethylamines I read about seem not to fit this requirements, nor does alcohol, and benzos because of tolerance and toxicity issues, which lead into the advice to use them <once a month.
I would really appreciate any ideas or maybe experience with the same kind of mood problems and how you cope with them.
Sorry for any mistakes, english is not my mother tongue.Best wishes , Glueh.
I would like to ask you for some help and learn from your wealth of experience with various substances.
------------------ About me – you can skip ----------------
A few words regarding my person: I suffer from adhd and get dexamphetamine (I guess it’s Dexedrine in US?) by prescription. My mood was pretty balanced and all in all everything was fine during my studies, when I was able to organize my day in line with my needs.It is absolutely necessary for me to be able to do some sports or at least go for a walk for 2 hours a day.
Some months ago I finished my studies and got a job. An office job, where I have to sit in front of the computer the whole day. That’s no problem for – let’s say 8 hours or 9 hours if it’s necessary. But there are “these days”, where we have to work for let’s say 12 or 14 hours.
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In order to get enough sleep, which is also essential for me to concentrate, I am then not able to get my daily exercise. In this evenings I feel really uncomfortable. Although I am tired, I feel restlessness, my legs tingle, and I get into a bad mood – depressed or dysphoric, I cry without any reason and feel miserable.What helps:
-Cannabis helps good, but I have a bad sleep and hangover the next day, so it’s no solution for me.
-MDMA does also a great job, my mood really improves when I take about 100mg and I enjoy the evening. But there is the tolerance and also the neurotoxicity issue, which makes this drug unsuitable to use let’s say two times a week although I never have any bad mood from it - the opposite is the case, the next day I feel relaxed and am more productive than any other day.
-I also tried 5-Meo-Dalt,which gives me nausea and does not feel really great ... on the other hand one could argue that this is perfect, given that I am looking for something that does isn't addictive. It is like choosing between devil and deep blue sea, at least my bad mood is going away.
So that's what I tried 'till today. I never snorted stuff, I don't use it to stay awake the whole night, I only take single doses and moderate amounts. All I want is to function the way I need to, to get my life managed.
Therefore I am more looking for a therapeutic, than for a recreational drug. My doctor can't help with this, I already told her my problems but I don't have to expect any help from her excepting anti depressants, which I won't use because my problems are present for about 6 or 8 hours a week.
What I am looking for:
- something to improve my mood (e.g. Selective serotonin releasers or - maybe more safe - (partial) agonists on Serotonin receptors) in the short term
- a substance with a duration of about 3, 4 hours without hangover the next day when used moderate. without any (or at least physical) addictive potential
- non (neuro-)toxic
- which I can purchase in deep or clear web easily (so please don't come up with e.g. mdai)
Mostly any phenylethylamines I read about seem not to fit this requirements, nor does alcohol, and benzos because of tolerance and toxicity issues, which lead into the advice to use them <once a month.
I would really appreciate any ideas or maybe experience with the same kind of mood problems and how you cope with them.
Sorry for any mistakes, english is not my mother tongue.Best wishes , Glueh.
