Lol, i was just about to start a thread at the dark side, to get some advice on how to controll(yep, not giving it up) my trem habbit.
I loved the stuff, a really good drug in my opinion, and it's helps with the anxiety. But it got out of controll a while ago. Started taking more than 10 50mgs a day. Soon it was 15 and even hit 20(1 gram a day) a couple of times, just trying to max out the effects.
I guess one day I woke up and thought, Shit Im fucked... But not hopeless, cuz I have been through withdrawals once, and know that it's not that bad. Still, after a failed attemp at trying to detox using dxm(great for opiate wds). I'm just hanging in there right now, only have enough for a bout 6-7days. After that I have to wait a month until the next shipment comes.
I now take 5-10 a day just to avoid wds. I get no high anymore, just take them so I can sleep well at night.
My social anxiety is usually masked by a substance. When I go out, I get high b4 going out. Alcohol, ritalin, trams and the dxm once in a while. If I dont have something in me I rarely go out.
I think what I need is a big change in my life(like going to uni in canada), that might sway me off of this dark road.
Thanks for the advice, I hope you stay clear of addiction and wish you the best

. btw try making your sentances shorter. easier to read.