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I wish I could have it under control like you have. I guess if you feel that the benefits outweigh the negatives then why not.
When Im out on the street alone, I always feel like people are staring at me, and it just makes me want to get the hell out of there. This is probably because the chinese like to stare at foreigners. Even tho I have lived here all my life, I still can't get use to it. Also when I'm with some of my mates I'm usually pretty quiet, cuz I'm afraid I might offend someone or sound dumb. Thats where the drugs come in to boost my ego or lower my anxiety.
 
I know what you mean about feeling like youre being stared at. I go through that too. Sometimes I go through other things that make me wonder if I might be a little mentally ill. Sometimes when im with or around people I feel like I can sense their intentions or what type of person they are. Whether the demeanor they portray is an act or not, whether theyre dangerous or not. Some times to the point where I get frightened, I just try to play it off the best I can. Its strange but its always happened to me.
 
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^haha, yeah, we'r getting there... You have any advice?

The old timers are probably all like "Oh, how sweet, the kids are getting along..."
 
kids today are damn lucky, in ancient times we didnt have social threads or noob welcoming forum at all;)
 
I think its common of people with social anxiety to actually have a strong desire to socialize but when were out in big crowds of people or esssspppecciially out and exposed to an overly interpersonal situation with someone or people that we have NOT established a solid comfort level with, it COMPLETELY overwhelms us or freaks us out. I know for me, my cousin and several of my friends who go through social anxiety, we actually really like interacting with other people alot and are bothered by the fact that we get freaked out.. which is why we often end up drug addicts LOL because were usually medicating ourselves with them, it's why opiates are a typical drug of choice.. with people who go through this.. Makes ya comfy no matter where you're at. <3 Other then that, interacting with strangers, especially overly " normal " seeming people, is REALLY undesirable and scary.. sometimes we just wanna stay inside and play video games and feel safe.. sometimes not.. ok im rambling.. im at work getting paid to post on forums about drug use and being mental.. i love my life.. =D
 
bulls eye! I couldnt have said it better. I dont freak out that much tho, I just keep quiet. I want to talk to people but I'm afraid of sayin dumbshit. At this point my mind is just jumbled up, even if someone talks to me I might answer him/her, talking about a totally different subject.

Tho I think I'm slowly getting there, I try my best to not piss anyone off. This place is also a good place to practice my social skills.
 
I used to worry more about what other people thought but my resentments towards people in my life that i love who have done their best to hold me back and promote failure caused me to have an anger disorder as well and so i enjoy telling someone to fuckin suck it from time to time.. I know thats not very ladylike.. I really try to hide my social anxiety because i genuinely like people and diversity.. It does overcome me sometimes though and i isolate til it passes which is the one last unhealthy habit i need to kick.. Sometimes i feel like im isolating out of contentedness though which can be positive to me as ive had needy little loneliness issues that would prompt a weeklong of goin out drinkin on work nights.. but the tramadol really seems to help this issue for me.. the social anxiety, constantly worrying, depression from overwhelming stuff that i dont know how to go about fixing.. alot of this is stuff im really not feeling except first thing in the morning before i take my pills lol.. it was suipposed to be for pain management.. They should give that stuff to people who are having depression and anxiety too. Anyway. I still worry about what people think somewhat, i just want to be looked at with respect and seen as just another person in society.. Not different or weird or any of the labels people in my life have tried to convince me I am, only to find out later in life it's what THEY are and are trying to convince me I am. Todays society is too diverse for that crap and people should be themselves.. Fuck em and feed em dog shit =)
 
gonna sit under the eave of my front stoop and drink a glass of wine and wait for the rain :)

hello NMI mods and lil g'lighters and you other BLers :)
 
*tickles slay*

i'll adopt them but they will be put through a grueling process of DMT smoking, grams a day for days on end!

Do you really think they are up for it?

Also, I prefer 18 year old girls located in my hometown.
 
s_s: no worries, if i ever see a 18 year old dmt smoker noob chick from your area ill definitely point her to you:D:D
 
Yay a make out party and no one invited me.....Like that sucks guise. :P ;) Is it too latr for me to right anf intro thred, I nevva did do that,,,,,....
 
It's never too late man.

In fact, did I ever write an intro thread??

Hmm...

Maybe there should be a time limit.

Nah, go for it swilow. We'll let you off.
 
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