Nah I don't mind talking about it at all. Well I was very good at sticking to my schedule at first, I only used codeine like once a month, always spaced it out, etc. etc., and then I figured I'd be fine if that once a month turned into two week-ends a month and I started using more often like that.
Then I had an opportunity to try hydros & oxys (I'd been prescribed them a few years ago after an accident but didn't abuse them back then) because well um, I was staying at my grandparents' place for a couple months and my grandfather had recently died of cancer and there were tons of oxys left over so I basically spent the summer on them. Obviously realised they were much better than codeine. And they just made me happy so how could anything bad come out of that?
Then I moved to London and literally just happened to meet someone who had access to heroin. I was curious, thought I was stronger than everyone else, decided I would try it 'just once' to see what the hype was about, and used every single day that week. Downhill from there.
I honestly didn't go out of my way to get any of those drugs. They literally just fell into my lap. Felt lucky at the time but I'm not so sure anymore.
Obviously this doesn't happent o everyone, I'm sure lots of people manage to just stick to codeine and be fine but I've heard of so many people who went down the same road as me, I feel like I need to warn others of the possibility.