notsmokeymcpot42088
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Gotya! -- thanks for clarification!
I have unending intrusive thoughts and music playing in my head all the time and benzos can turn it off. I have a script for kpins but I limit myself for about 5 a month so I don't get addicted, the rest go in a stash in the cabinet in case I ever get cut off or there are shortages. It's so nice when I can filter all that shit out.Interesting post and the term "pro-drug" which I haven't heard- is appears to seem quite similar to a "precursor" - that when it metabolizes in the body it changes the compound structure. Which may be similar to steroid precursor stuff (muscle building types) Thus, allows us "commoners" to acquire them without the worries of "torture nd prosecution" from our ruling class bastards and bitches.. But back to the OP's post, I'd have to guess things may very in obtaining them in different countries though. And the actual potency in comparison to the ones we already know about - that exist in the Big Pharma Mafia..I mean Industry.
In regards to the benzo family and it's effects, I have tried almost all of the popular ones here in the United States of Slaves...i mean AmeriKa'..and never experienced any real euphoria. My "buzz" from them is really no buzz at all. I'm a hyped up guy, lots of energy, a racy mind. You've probably seen those types of people as they appear to be on speed or some upper. (excuse the term "upper" I'm an old guy, "a stupid boomer" as someone here recently posted that, and btw, thanks man ,<note eye roll>) That's a completely separate discussion though, as I really dislike being put into the "boomer box" and its snarky, disrespectful insinuation.
Anyway fkn way, benzos are my magic bullets, esp, clonazapam (sorry, I call them k-pins (short for klonopin, boomer talk ) and 2nd magic bullets are Valiums (us idiot boomers call them V's) They slow my racing mind down and I feel as though I can fiannly take a big sigh and as if a 100 pound weight comes off my shoulders. Bu what I try to tell other people what benzos do for me is that they make me feel "normal." Since they basically just slow me down (and my world) I can think clearer and better and not feel so overwhelmed, over-stimulated with life in general.
Yes, how I am (from a medical diagnosis) falls into a lot of categories as I've been through the ringer of docs, specialist, shrinks, etc. I've had these docs put me all over the place with dx's like, ADD/ADHD, OCD, somewhere on the Autistic/Aspergers spectrum, and more. I'm 66, hitting 67 in June...so I've been this way since my early teenage days, maybe sooner. The other benzos are not helpful for me at all, esp. Xanxax and Ambien which many people seem to love. I hate them, lol. I'll skip the details why i dont like them as this post has dragged on further than I wanted it to. Plus every doc I saw had me try just about any drug known to man in attempts to help me. Final Summary: Clonazapam and Diazapam. That's it. For those who me here (and my story) my doc cut me off my k-pin script as she (out of the blue) decided she no longer wanted to script it as I also take oxycodone (5mg 3x a day) The risk of ODing being the reason why the cut-off. Although the concerns from her and the contraindications involving oxy and benzo is a reality, I get it. BUT! for 6+ years I have been on the same dosages without any problems. I still have y oxy script but I am forced to search elsewhere to get either clonazapam or valium. I'm trying to do it through another doc and just be totally honest and upfront with them. I'm also searching other ways to get them.
Bottom line: I have two drugs that work for me. I've been through a shitload of docs. I tried everything possible, pharma, cannabis, ketamine, microdosing mushrooms, herbs, etc etc. I DON"T WANY ANYTHING ELSE. (maybe that's a part of being a "Boomer"...stubborness) LOL. So my search will continue until I find what I want (K-pins or V's). And I have to careful that I don't get red flagged for doctor hopping or appearing like a junkie. And also have to be careful if I go to the streets or online.
So yes, this "pro-drug" thing- possibly same meaning as "pre-cursor" option may be a good avenue to explore. Thanks to OP for the post, I hope it stays up and we can continue the discussion on it.