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Ooshie

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Hi :)
Just wanted to get acquainted with other members. I'm Charlotte, I'm from the UK, and I take a fair amount of prescription drugs, starting from when I was about 14 and I was prescribed tramadol for months and I've been in the vicious cycle ever since. Keep promising myself I'll quit but have very little follow through. I hadn't taken anything for a while purely because I had nothing and no way to get hold of anything but meant to take a Diclofenac for back pain earlier and it turns out I had a pack of Diazepam in the cupboard I didn't even know about, took one by accident without realising and have spent the rest of the evening thinking "one more won't hurt" and upping my dose. Frustrated with myself for falling off the wagon but I guess that's why I'm here, just looking for a place where I feel I can freely talk about it and get to know some people who understand the mindset and issues surrounding it. Long time Bluelight Lurker too, so I thought it was about time I made an account and chimed up haha
 
I've been in the vicious cycle ever since. Keep promising myself I'll quit but have very little follow through.
i can empathize with this cycle. its not the easiest thing to accomplish regarding drugs/substances.
take a hellofalot of self control and determination; distractions help as well as sometimes therapy helps us identify root issues so that maybe they can be "worked" on.
i been taking low dose (1mg twice a day) benzo for years now im tapering off and am at .75mg after 3 weeks or so. have a doc that is willing to help as long as i have health coverage but have done it on my own before with several substances and am confident i can do it again.
try to be kind to yourself and dont beat on yourself there are plenty others that are more than happy to beat on ya. 😏
welcome and hoping the best for you.
be easy
peace
 
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