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NEW/FINAL at home (attempt) detox diary, general support, and advice thread.

I would agree fully with CJ that you are actually doing pretty damn good. Just for the record.

Progress, not perfection. No one is perfect. Do your best.

Peace.
 
So what should I do?
Should I just take the other roxy30mg tonight? OR do like I said previously and do half then another half.
I do not want to prolong any WD I just sort of tried to rationalize it in my head that "oh, this isn't heroin, you'll be okay".
Like I said - I fear that this will reset my WD completely. So I dont know how I should go about this. Just do the rest for today and then back to nothing tomorrow -
OR do half today and the other half tomorrow on attempt to help take away some WD. I know the longer I take an opiate/opiod the more likely my WD will be prolonged more.
So I am starting to think I should just take the rest and let that be that. I am not sure though. Any advice helps - Thank you everyone.
So today I have taken 1 mg of xanax and 30 mg of Roxycodone. I have ONE 30 MG Roxy left.
 
And I have roughly about 3 MG of xanax left, I am NOT looking forward to benzo WD - My goal was trying to get thru acute opiate withdrawal then proceed with benzo WD after that. I am still most likely going to go to the hospital and be honest and tell them I am detoxing off opiates and benzos and I would like to see if there is any way I can get some blood pressure medicine and/or anything help that would help with RLS,sleep,anxiety,ect.
Much love to you guys.
 
PS-PS: I have also been trying to get into a detox place but like I said it's first come first serve - So I have been calling every 8 hours to see if there is a bed.
I would really think it would help a lot. Only issue is that this detox place does NOT give you any comfort meds besides motrin and possibly immodium. YIKES!!!
I don't know if they would even accept me because of the benzo WD would cause me to possibly have a seizure if I do not get an anti-seizure medicine while there.
 
Oh, I also do have some phenibut - but I am honestly scared to take it because phenibut has pretty nasty WD alone and I know it shouldn't be used anymore than once every 3 days.
Anyone with experience with phenibut helping WDs would help alot - ie dose /per day.
Thanks again!
 
I am heading to the hospital right now to see if they will give me some comfort medicine.. I just hope I don't go there for nothing.
Wish me luck
 
I'm sorry, I see your posts now, I was busy for a bit.

I would personally try not to take anything else today. The more you take at one time or in a short period, the more you will be resetting your withdrawals.

I would personally either try not to do it at all, or take just a bit tomorrow, after letting myself withdraw a little again.

I have taken phenibut for wd's. I am not sure if it really helps that much. I would say for me it probably helps with the anxiety, but not much else. Though it will make me sleepy any other time. But in wd, nothing seems to help me sleep.

Do whatever you need to do to get through this, as safely as possible.

Peace.
 
I am running out real fast to take my dog potty, then to the corner store. I don't think I will be gone more than a half an hour if you are still around and want to talk before you go do anything. Talk soon hon.

Peace.
 
Hey man, how long have you been taking xanax? If it hasn't been THAT long, perhaps in the midst of withdrawal you're building it up to be worse than it will be. Apologies if I overlooked that in one of your previous posts. I can totally relate to being afraid of benzo withdrawal. The acuteness of benzo withdrawal wasn't as bad for me as opiate w/d but the sheer length of it was maddening to say the least for myself. That was me using it for about 7 years before I jumped off at 1mg/day.

With regards to your last oxy, hmmmm ... I know what I would do but I don't necessarily think it's the best course of action. If I have any opiates on me when I'm trying to detox, I just take em to get them out of my house and off my mind. That's how I operate personally, but ya know I'm still fighting the good fight as we speak now. I don't think it really matters what you do with that last one. To me, it feels like a drop in the bucket in the larger scale of what you're battling. The real key though is to NOT COP ANYMORE!!!! :D nah mean?? No more "friends" coming over that may potentially have any opiates whatsoever on them regardless of how ya feel. It's my sister's birthday today but I'm not going over to her place because I know she has norcos and the likelihood of me getting a couple is way to high to risk it.

You're so fuckin close brother, another 48 hours and hopefully the worst of it is over. The mental is gonna be tough regardless as you're well aware but you've got way too much to lose in your current situation. You've got a great amount of support on here. Hell, just look at my thread, you and Poke are the only people to comment on it in the last few days whereas you have a small army behind you in your thread. This is YOUR TIME man! Seize that shit!

Feel free to PM me with anything man. I'll be online more often than not and really want us to high five over getting past this together.
 
I was thinking the same thing that the above poster said about benzos while walking my dog. Depending on how much you have been taking and for how long, it might not be as bad as you are worried it will be.

Gotta run to the corner store fast, sorry it is taking longer than I had estimated. But I will not be long, and I will be back soon if you wanna talk.

Peace.
 
I am at the hospital right now. There's a load of people and I don't want to be stuck here for 8 hours just to try to get some blood pressure meds. I have been using xanax for a couple months around 6 to 8 mg a day.. I hate anxiety and I have had seizures in the past
 
I'm back.

When you say you have had seizures were they from benzo wd, or are you prone to seizures from a condition, or both? If it was benzo wd, how much had you been taking/how long, at that time?

Sorry the hospital wait was so crazy long :(

But hey - you have enough energy right now to get prepped for round 2, yes? Take a nice shower, clean up the room, etc.

We are here for you! You are doing great.

What are your plans for the remaining roxy?

Peace.
 
You are doing so good w0w, I'm really really happy to see you are sticking with it. Stay strong!!!! The worst of the wds are over... just gotta stay mentally strong and keep on trucking at this point.
 
Thanks everyone.
I literally told them I am detoxing off benzos and opiates and to see if there are any comfort medicines I could have to get thru the worse of the withdrawals.
I have been also trying to call the local inpatient detox here in town but I have had no luck getting a bed.
As for the benzo use, I was taking around 6 to 8 mg a day for the last couple of months and when I try to not take any I start getting really bad crawling under the skin and these
strange "brain skips/zaps" which scares me a lot. I get bad tremors too. The only time I have EVER had a seizure was from coming off benzos when I was 19. It was NOT fun.

I am going to go to the ER again early in the morning like around 5 am. I am so scared that the pain pill I took is going to reset my WD to square zero. I am half tempted to just take the last one
I have just to get it all done and over with. The roxy took like 90% of my WD symptoms which scares me...
I WILL NOT DO ANOTHER OPIATE. I caved in because it was free and handed right there, and I was very vulnerable.. It was stupid but I told my friend he is not welcomed over to my home again.
I do not blame him, and he was just trying to help, but that could have been avoided if he just came over with blood pressure meds not 2 roxy 30mgs.

much love to you all.
You guys are amazing, and I wish we could all meet up one weekend and just enjoy each others company.
Like I have said previously I have horrible social anxiety but I feel like I already know all of you, and known of you judge me.
You all show such great support, and I can not thank any of you enough.
 
w0w0mg said:
Thanks everyone.
I literally told them I am detoxing off benzos and opiates and to see if there are any comfort medicines I could have to get thru the worse of the withdrawals.
I have been also trying to call the local inpatient detox here in town but I have had no luck getting a bed.
As for the benzo use, I was taking around 6 to 8 mg a day for the last couple of months and when I try to not take any I start getting really bad crawling under the skin and these
strange "brain skips/zaps" which scares me a lot. I get bad tremors too. The only time I have EVER had a seizure was from coming off benzos when I was 19. It was NOT fun.

I am going to go to the ER again early in the morning like around 5 am. I am so scared that the pain pill I took is going to reset my WD to square zero. I am half tempted to just take the last one
I have just to get it all done and over with. The roxy took like 90% of my WD symptoms which scares me...
I WILL NOT DO ANOTHER OPIATE. I caved in because it was free and handed right there, and I was very vulnerable.. It was stupid but I told my friend he is not welcomed over to my home again.
I do not blame him, and he was just trying to help, but that could have been avoided if he just came over with blood pressure meds not 2 roxy 30mgs.

much love to you all.
You guys are amazing, and I wish we could all meet up one weekend and just enjoy each others company.
Like I have said previously I have horrible social anxiety but I feel like I already know all of you, and known of you judge me.
You all show such great support, and I can not thank any of you enough.
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I had brain zaps when I quit taking sertraline (zoloft) many years ago. They were so unpleasant, it was causing me to consider suicide. Weeks later it stopped, thank god.

Progress, not perfection, is the goal, and you've made so much progress man, you're doing great. Keep it up man, you can do this. :)
 
I am happy to know that our support is helpful to you :)

That is what is important in life, in my opinion. To reach out to others and try to help. Especially when you feel like shit yourself. It really does make your heart feel lighter to know you have a positive impact on someone else.

As for the brain zaps, I know what you mean. I have had those before when I take xanax for a short while. To me, since I have so many other fucking health problems lol, they aren't too bad or scary....guess that just goes to show you how fucked up my health is lol. But yeah, if you have had a seizure before, definitely be careful. I dunno how much or how long you were taking benzos at 19.

Good on you for telling your friend "no more". That takes strength. I am proud of you :)

As far as the temptation to take the other right now, ask yourself, how awful do you really feel right now? Probably not as bad as you have been feeling, yes? Are you lying to yourself, telling yourself to take it to "get it over with"? Do you really need it right now? we all know you must pay the piper when coming off of opiates, unfortunately. Personally I would not take it. I would wait as long as possible and then not take the whole thing, to maybe make the wd a bit less harsh, but not too comfortable. Remember, the more you do in a shorter period of time, the more you are resetting yourself back to square one. The less you do over a longer period of time, the less you are resetting yourself back to square one and the more likely it is you will just get a mild and short relief and reprieve.

You are doing fucking AWESOME and we are all proud of you and pulling for you.

Keep posting!

Peace.
 
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