blurrrxx
Bluelighter
okay so the other night i, like a dumb ass, had re-used a needle and let someone that had just done their shot of shards try and hit me. from so so many bad misses and a lot of anxiety i start freaking out if it doesn't seem like they're doing it properly and he definitely wasn't...i kept saying just take it out and he got angry and was saying no, no, just wait a sec i'll f'n get it! and when he pulled it out I swear on everything I saw a bigger hole than usual and part of the needle starting to suck in to my bicep as I could feel it literally moving up and through 5 maybe 10 minutes later, if that.. he missed just a tiny bit as well so I had a raised bump but but oddly it went 3/4 away after about 10 minutes and it was rather hard and it just changed really drastically. everybody I talk to about this just responds with how ate up this all sounds but seeing my friends scars on their arms from where they had to cut their shit out, and still having little tiny pieces of past points stuck right under-neath my skin (those will eventually reject though not worried about em), tells me that this is very very very possible...I don't know what to do. I also feel really sick, like my body is just shutting the fuck down. my mom's been sick so I could have gotten it from her but this incident was just the day before yesterday and last night is when my lymph glands started swelling, pretty sure I have a fever too and my face is BRIGHT red. i'm getting random ass sharp pains all over my body too...I promise I'm no hypochondriac I'm just trying to be the least ignorant in my situation even though it was ignorant of me to be using a dirty one and go down like that...ahh fuck. my friend i just found out died too and i'm barred an i found out about 20 minutse before writing this so i apologize if this is a bit confusing to read but seriously any feedback would be wonderful i'm pretty sure i'll end up goin to the hospital here in a little bit or if i end up being ok within that time frame i might wait till 2-3am when nobody's usually there. I know reactions are probably gonna be GO TO THE HOSPITAL RIGHT NOW!! but any other information as to what might be going on to soothe me till I do arrive there would be great, I hate to be one of those that thinks it's gonna move its way through my muscles and/or pierce an artery or major vein and travel around and fuck shit up...but i'm a twacker and its almost inevetible that i'd think that...
thank you guys so much, sorry that was so long.
thank you guys so much, sorry that was so long.

