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New decade resolutions

Oh Link thats amazing news. Keep up the good work pal. I'll be joining you soon for that particular journey.
 
only two days in to my non drinking and i have been trying to keep busy but on a saturday night in front of the fire all i can think about is having a ice cold bottle of beer

i am not going to drink this month and possibly if it goes well then maybe i could completely re-assess my alcohol situation but i am only realising how hard it is to stop when you actually try... i dont ever want to end up a piss head and lately (over xmas especially) i have been drinking far too much - and to be honest, the person who i am when drunk is not someone i want to become.. i find that i act like a shadow of myself when i am pissed and i hate it..

when i say pissed, i dont mean just having a few - i mean being on a total binge, like i have been the last few weeks.

i never really thought i had a drinking problem or accepted that i drank too much (hey, im irish after all was my excuse) but i am realising now that things need to change before they get out of control.


bleh, its kinda boring without beer though. happy new year anyway folks and maybe on monday once i start back in work etc ill be able to take my mind off it a bit
 
kate said:
A bit of pain makes the lesson learnt easier to remember...or is that my fucked up semi catholic / proddy upbringing slipping out ;)

Suffer - yes i will :|
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Well mines a fully blown cathoic upbringing, so yes the more pain, the better the lesson


well done on the K thing F & B - ahm proud of you
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I'm fairly proud of myself on that score
 
Keep exploring mushrooms, get my hands on my first lsd trip and visit 2 massive parties (one is Ozora in august the other is stil ???)
Other things (family,friends,school) did just fine in 2009.

EDIT: 2011 is to much away to think about it.
EDIT2: Maybe cut back on the nicotine addiction...
 
It seems that most people want to reasses their drug usage. I think it'll be interesting this thread to next years to see who really has made any progress.
 
I have no intention to change my drug usage.

Well thats not entirely true, I fully intend on trying the ones I've yet to enjoy.
 
Well I said about a fortnight ago to myself that I need to change my ways completely.

I've had generalised anxiety disorder for 7 years now, and all I want is to be free of it. However, I go through patches of getting into alcohol and drugs quite heavily, to block out the pain. Recently I have gotten into meph.

New years eve and the proceding night were a disaster. I basically binged on alcohol and meph non-stop, even though I swore I wouldn't touch meph. I am so weak after alcohol, and with anxiety I long for the oblivion of drugs.

I feel like I'm at a T-junction in my life, where I either turn one way and drop the booze and the drugs and hopefully get my life back. The other direction is going to lead to self destruction, I know it, because I have shown just how reckless I can be.

So for the next decade I am aiming to be sober. Christ, that's a tall order if you know what I'm like. I have a reputation as always being the most fucked at a party. People would fall about laughing at the idea of me giving up alcohol. But I really think I need to, because otherwise I will just go back to drinking lots and taking drugs.
 
Knocking booze and meph on the head sounds like a good idea if you have anxiety. They both cause/exacerbate anxiety and with meph it has good reason to besides the generic stim freakout.

Won't be easy, but much luck :)

I don't think aiming for ten years sober is so wise though - too much pressure. Small steps work best :)
 
Yeah 10 years could be thinking too far ahead. One month at a time maybe...

Have to see how many months I make it for though now, having just found out I've probably done my heart a fair amount of damage by mixing meph with Erythromycin...
 
Ok, I'll try and calm myself down. I just feel like I've pushed my luck a bit far, and also I'm a tad concerned I overheated in a club whilst on meph on nye. All factors considered I think my body is hating me right now.
 
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