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Need support trying to kick dope....I need help

Thanks man.... I know after the acute shit it gets hard as well. It's crazy that I couldn't not use every morning and now I'm kicking cold turky. Either god is or god isn't.....if I didn't get high today I guess god fuckin is. Here's to taking pain for promise of peace.
 
Man again ineeded that. Feeling like I just want it to end. Bathing my girl right now and it's so hard to move. Man I love this kid... She's my best little bud and this shit breaks my heart. It's amazing that with all this love I'll still choose dope or pills. No more. Today is almost over. Hopefully get some sleep and tackle a new day tomarrow. I hope I feel alittle better. Isn't second day the worst ?
 
Keep it up man. I am mostly through kicking myself as the last time I used was the last day of November. It has been one fucking hell of a week I will tell you that much right now... shooting 10 bags a day to 0 overnight is heinous. Had to kick, I was just fucking up too much. I haven't slept in 4 days but I don't have any Clonidine or Neurontin.

Be strong man!
 
^ this is another option to use in place of the lyrica or neurontin Phenibut

Sounds like you are getting hit with allot of strong emotion TM. Try and keep your thoughts in today.. if we slip into yesterday then we can get run over by emotions like guilt, shame, anger.. If slip into tomorrow we can run head long into fear, anxiety, self doubt, hopelessness.. I think its best to just try and keep it simple and firmly planted in the here and now. Here and now TM and since thats all we ever are its a fine place to set down roots as staying in the moment is pretty powerful in addiction and life. :)

Your doing great have you given yourself the credit for the amazing job your doing!!!<3
 
Yeah that shit works decent. However no sleep last night but oh well. Great job chronic... Shits no joke. As terrible as it is it's amazing that to avoid this small uncomfortable part of our life we would shoot dooe forever and have nothing. Hurt everyone we love. No more man. Never sick.... Thank u for all your support... That last one brought a tear to my eye in a good way. Just a guy.... You too man
 
Troublemaker, you're doing great. You've got a lot of positive energy. If you ever find yourself drained, don't worry. That's NORMAL. Just mentioning it because you remind me of myself, and you MIGHT find yourself in a space that's heavier, suckier. That's the clench and burst period.
 
Not 100% percent but that'd expected. I really can't complain. The colonadine and neurontin helped a ton. Worked everyday, took care if my kid Able to get some sleep. Still pretty heavy though but doable. Glad I stayed off meth,subs. There's no easy way around the fire. Gotta go straight through. The exhaustion is pretty heavy and alittle shaky. Also started worrying about money I spent, bills ,firewood.. Lol
I think this is part of addiction fucking with me. All will be good if I stay sober....it has too. Today is a special day for my little girl and I was worries IDE be to sick. I'm not!!
You guys are awesome. Here's to day 5 and brunch with Santa!!
 
Thats awsome TM.. its a real good idea to keep your thoughts in today.. keep it simple. Very Nice Job TM


Yes I would begin to taper off the clonidine. I would also consider the neurontin usage and proceed off of that as soon as you are able cause it can have some dependency issues that you most likely dont want any part of.

Now it should get a better and better... and In a few months those opiat receptors will shut down and you will be amazed at what a haze you have been living in.

Why We Don’t Get Better Immediately: Post-acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS)
Post Acute Withdrawal (PAW) Excerpted From “Staying Sober” By: Terence T. Gorski
Post-acute-withdrawal syndrome Wiki
Hey I thought the grey matter of ADD could chew on this....
EXERCISE AND MOOD


Very nice work at pushing through the fire sir.. and I hope the santa brunch we really well=D
 
Day six. Feeling ok However sleep bad and depressed. But I know it's normal so I'm trying to keep the faith. I'm lucky to get through the first few days sleeping so ill suck it up. I want this to be the last time. Gonna hit a meeting tonight.
 
congratulations! you're really inspiring.

As terrible as it is it's amazing that to avoid this small uncomfortable part of our life we would shoot dooe forever and have nothing. Hurt everyone we love.
^ this. you reminded me of why im staying sober.

when im feeling depressed, a meeting helps me a lot.. I think that's a great idea for tonight.
 
Day six. Feeling ok However sleep bad and depressed. But I know it's normal so I'm trying to keep the faith. I'm lucky to get through the first few days sleeping so ill suck it up. I want this to be the last time. Gonna hit a meeting tonight.

Clench and burst, buddy. It's 4th and 1, and all you need is that one yard to get another first down. "One day at a time" and "Just for today" works really well in these instances. Sending good vibes, man.
 
Clench and burst, buddy. It's 4th and 1, and all you need is that one yard to get another first down. "One day at a time" and "Just for today" works really well in these instances. Sending good vibes, man.
tough day.... Dying to get high earlier. Acky....depressed...freezing out. But I pushed through. It's crazy how my mind said one time won't kill you. Yea one time... That will happen. But I got allot accomplished and need to keep pushing now more than ever. This mental shit is harder I think. But didn't have to get high today. Good stuff
 
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