Hey bro, I been there too, usually I would last about the same amount of time as you and then relapse because I couldn't take it anymore. I would maybe talk to a doctor and see if you could get prescribed a GABAergic drug like Gabapentin to help with withdrawal syndromes, as CT'ing benzodiazepines can be very dangerous and damaging. Gabapenting would help a lot with your symptoms, imo it's not the most pleasant drug in terms of side effects, but then again, a lot seem to like it. One of the good things about it is that it takes a long time to become dependent on it (as opposed to benzodiazepines or Z-drugs). I took it at high dosages daily for six plus months and then discontinued it with no problem at all. Kava root might also be helpful, though I'm not sure if this would just set things back for you as I don't have much personal experience with it. Stick in there brother I'm rooting for you, that's a hell of a monkey to kick.