I was going cold turkey with the help of Immodium, Librax, too much etizolam for my own good and NSAIDS. Until today, I took some hydrocodone. I tapered from 6mg of bupe to .75mg and tried .5mg but I felt full WD symptoms, so I decided to jump ship and get clean. I was planning on stopping a week ago, but I literally kept on getting enough money randomly each day, for enough to get high off oxy.
I've been using opiates for ten years, which is nothing to be proud about, however, I have never gotten ripped off asides from the insane prices here. Well today I finally got ripped off. I gave a guy I've known for a good bit enough to get me a roxy and he told me he would have it waiting on me when I get out of work. I've been shaking all day and could barely function. We drove around the hood for over an hour looking for opiates and no one had anything, the guy was going to help me out bc I've spent a good bit with him. Looking back at it, the whole thing was a mess to start with. First of all we met at a crowded restraunt where I ran into 3 people I know that I'm sure see a huge black guy get in my Jeep. To make a long story short, I didn't get the roxy but I knocked on his door and he gave me some bullshit about some guy running off with the money. I told him I trusted him and all you have in this world is your word and your balls and that I believed him, even though I didn't. He said wait an hour and I will go get you one, I asked why can't we go now. The dealer then proceeded to pull out a massive quantity of hydrocodone and Xanax and said I gotta wait on this guy to come get some. I ended up walking away with 30mg of hydro and a Xanax bar. Which isn't getting burned that bad, here.
I didn't want to burn bridges with this guy, but i did contemplate grabbing those two bags and hauling ass since he knows little about me. The guy has a cane and can barely walk. The only thing that really stopped me from grabbing all that shit and running was the fact that I live in a small town and it was more than enough to get killed over. Not to mention the fact that I'm sure he was packing like everyone here does, both legal and illegal.
I doubt I will mess with him again for a while, even though he apologized and kept to his story the whole time.
Oh yea, George Jung, the inspiration behind Blow was released today (I think). At one point he was responsible for 89 percent of the cocaine in the U.S. according to TMZ. I've always wondered if it was true if he snorted 10g of blow in 10 minutes. I've done some blow that was literally straight off the kilo, it's a long story, but I know it's not the typical bullshit. It literally had no burn at all and didn't stop my nose up unlike any other drug you can think of.