NASADD Social: Memphis was Fucked by a Tranny Midget

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Mr.Scagnattie said:
They up your dose pretty fast. Maintenance doses are usually around 85mg. There is different types of liquid methadone too.. some more concentrated than others.

And yeah, if you're on benzos, a lot of clinics wont give you methadone.
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That sucks. The only thing my clinic will fail us for is opiates.
 
What's up social? Hopefully this one doesn't end up closed like all the others. :p

I'm back in NC and suddenly I remember how much it sucks! Already missing having the beach so close. Hope everyone is doing well.
 
Effect said:
Not sure how much were getting, but my friend who plows for the DPW told me he's getting ready for tomorrow and needs to grab a couple bags to get him through the long night. I can picture someone nodding out while trying to operate a plow haha. I know it's dangerous and stupid, but the thought of him knocking over mailboxes is a little funny. I know he just means enough to be able to get through the night without being sick. He makes some pretty damn good money plowing for the town. He's lucky his dad has connections. In life it really is all about who you know... most of the time anyway.
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I got a buddy who use to plow while he was high, too. He had a big oxy habit and he worked construction for an uncle who hooked him up with a massive truck (did salting and sanding also) and he plowed for the state. I haven't talked to him in a while but I get the feeling me might be getting high again, since he kind of fell off the face of the planet and I know he broke up with his gf a while ago. For his sake I hope not because he got clean almost 3 years ago with help of a methadone clinic, where he did a 1 mg week taper.


Honestly there are probably plow drivers drinking alcohol while doing it, so getting high isn't so bad if you are reasonable and don't get too high while doing it.
 
I don't know if I told the social but when I went to my GP the other week I weighed 170lbs. Pretty fucking weird for a guy who has been big all his life. I haven't been 170 since I was like 11. Over the summer I was 190. In 2006 I was 268
 
Mr.Scagnattie said:
Yeah so then 170 is a good weight
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i agree. i was just surprised when she told me that. i knew i had lost weight over the summer but figured i was 180 at the lightest. i honestly didnt believe my body could get down to 170, but it did. i like that i lost the weight but i didnt lose it in a healthy way. it was stress, not eating, working, walking, and dope
 
That's good right? And now that you've lost the weight you can put it back on healthily.
I wish I could gain some weight, I've lost 30+ lbs from being ill, been trying to gain weight for over a year, still stuck under what's even healthy...
 
Felonious Monk said:
That's good right? And now that you've lost the weight you can put it back on healthily.
I wish I could gain some weight, I've lost 30+ lbs from being ill, been trying to gain weight for over a year, still stuck under what's even healthy...
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i plan to start working out once i get into the methadone clinic. I hear methadone has a nasty habit of making you gain weight (im sure its partly due to you having money to eat properly) regardless i am not trying to put it back on, at least not in fat. once i get my shit in check i am going into the gym with a vengeance. if i get back up to 190 it will be 20 lbs of muscle.
 
Man i was at the methadone clinic today and as i was leaving this girl who i see there frequently was crying and asked if i had clean pee. She had her toddler w her in her car and was trying to get him to pee so she could use it. It was really desperate and sad. I said yea i am clean but what will you give me and she blew up on me and was like the clinics trying to fuck me over if this test is dirty my baby gets taken away how dare you charge me blah blah blah. I gave her some anyway even tho she was acting like a royal bitch. It will help her out now but if she cant get her shit together theres always gunna be another test down the road and she will get her kid taken away. I have a soft spot for kids and i see her a lot and you can tell she loves her kid and kids are almost always better off w their parents. Shes an addict but doesnt look like a hardcore junkie. What would you guys have done? Was it a mistake helping her?
 
I wouldn't make a habit of doing that for someone, but I would do it once. Its just urine, they aren't going to trace it back to you. You say she cares so much about the kid, well they are painting a pretty clear picture for her and its a choice of either the kid or drugs. So she needs to make the decision to help herself at one point or like you said, a test down the road will get her. She already has the benefit of the Methadone to help her so I wouldn't feel too much pity if she can't resist other temptations.
 
I probably would have ended up giving it to her too, but I would have been pissed at her for flipping at me if I simply asked if she could help me out with something in return. If she was just calmly like "look I'm in a real tough spot and I don't have much to offer" then I would tell her I totally understand.

I honestly can't blame her for being distraught over the wellbeing of her kids though. Was she thankful after you gave it to her at least?
 
Effect said:
^ Too high to post.. wish I could say the same. But yea at least your scratching that itch you've had the past couple days. Even if you 'broke down', at least you got a plan to get on MMT.

I can understand the guilty feeling associated with copping dope after you promised yourself or someone else that you wouldn't. Not saying that's the deal with your situation, but it sounds like your not too thrilled with the way shit is going for you right now. Not trying to play psychologist, just saying I can relate if that's how your feeling
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You summed it up pretty good. The stuff was pretty good for once above average for him but only average if I went to the hood myself and got it. Feel free to psychoanalyze all you want it doesn't offend me. Sometimes others here actually help me understand myself better. Most of us are junkies some are just more functional than others. I know what I need to do and I'm gonna do it soon.
 
ohshea said:
Man i was at the methadone clinic today and as i was leaving this girl who i see there frequently was crying and asked if i had clean pee. She had her toddler w her in her car and was trying to get him to pee so she could use it. It was really desperate and sad. I said yea i am clean but what will you give me and she blew up on me and was like the clinics trying to fuck me over if this test is dirty my baby gets taken away how dare you charge me blah blah blah. I gave her some anyway even tho she was acting like a royal bitch. It will help her out now but if she cant get her shit together theres always gunna be another test down the road and she will get her kid taken away. I have a soft spot for kids and i see her a lot and you can tell she loves her kid and kids are almost always better off w their parents. Shes an addict but doesnt look like a hardcore junkie. What would you guys have done? Was it a mistake helping her?
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Eh, tough one. Once she started bitching at me I probably would have told her to fuck off. Not my problem she's a screw up. But, yeah I get how the kids thing would make you feel bad.
 
^And honestly, if she wasn't a good friend of mine then I really wouldn't feel bad about asking for something. Based on what I read it just sounds like some rando she knew from the clinic who she sees while she's there from time to time. That mother is lucky that someone came through for her.
 
ohshea said:
Man i was at the methadone clinic today and as i was leaving this girl who i see there frequently was crying and asked if i had clean pee. She had her toddler w her in her car and was trying to get him to pee so she could use it. It was really desperate and sad. I said yea i am clean but what will you give me and she blew up on me and was like the clinics trying to fuck me over if this test is dirty my baby gets taken away how dare you charge me blah blah blah. I gave her some anyway even tho she was acting like a royal bitch. It will help her out now but if she cant get her shit together theres always gunna be another test down the road and she will get her kid taken away. I have a soft spot for kids and i see her a lot and you can tell she loves her kid and kids are almost always better off w their parents. Shes an addict but doesnt look like a hardcore junkie. What would you guys have done? Was it a mistake helping her?
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i would have done it that one time. i can understand why she might act like that. like you said she was desperate and im sure all of us here have been in a similar situation with being sick and needing dope. odds are she was sick and in desperation, the combination can and will turn you into a demon.

i would have pissed for her then sternly told her that only she can fix herself and ultimately her child is HER responsibility and just walked off. i hate talking about it because i dont have them but it seems to me that if you love your kid that much you would stop or do something before the option of having your kid taken away was even close...again i dont have children so i cant just speak with certainty. i cant say what i would do if i had a kid but i would like to think the pure joy and love for it would trump everything else.


i have gotten to the age where im thinking about witnessing my kids birth etc. i know me back when i was 19-22 that kid would have been fuck for a few years and most likely not in my care 23-24 i was doing pretty good (had surgery and what not, quit dope for 8 months afterwords and took to 1 dilaudid a day when i started working 2 jobs...the pain brought me back and i couldnt rationalize going to an oral opiate and it working which in hindsight is what i should have done) by 25 something in me just clicked and everything seemed to align itself in me...my priorities changed, my attitude changed, my perception of my problems and causes changed and it got to the point where i knew the party was over and there was no excuse for where i was in life it was time for me to do what i had to do. i set forth to change things and go the right route, cant say i have done it consistently or routinely but since then (3 years) i have been trying every which way to deal with having chronic pain and addiction without breaking the law or hurting anyone else. i fail at that a lot tbh but i cant say that im not trying and i still have options and im not giving up. looking forward to getting to the clinic in the morning. got everything lined up. ID, SS card, Money, ride (at 5am) i just dont know if i HAVE to have an appointment and i called them today and left them a message and an email at their website about if i can just show up at 5am but i havent gotten word back so i am just going to be up there at 4:55 with everything in hand....even if they wont accept me that day i can make sure i get an appoint ASAP, maybe even the next day.
 
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Usually if you don't have an appointment, you can still show up, and if somebody who was actually scheduled for their first time doesn't show, you'll get to take their spot.

It can take a long time to get an appt sometimes for certain clinics. My appt was scheduled 2 weeks after I called, and I lucked out with that. Usually they are backed up about a month from when you call and ask for an appointment at my clinic. High demand.
 
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