NASADD Social: Memphis was Fucked by a Tranny Midget

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Word...im doing alright. Got a freakin 5 day weekend because my professor had a conference thurs and friday and monday is martin luther king jr day. I love the weekend, but after while i miss being on a schedule. Doing alright for a junkie. Got my methadone in the am and dope in the pm and get a weeks worth of take homes so im satisfied. Happy im not on full throttle junkie status, maybe just like first gear.

Dude i hate paying bills. The courts are bending me over and stickin it in hard. Once i think i can finally see the end of my debt another case comes from out of the blue demanding money for fines/jail fees/ court costs, etc. I feel hopeless like ill never be debt free. And i havent even touched my student loans from '09. Anyone else feel they will never get their head above water debt wise?
 
I'm going to call the local methadone clinic because suboxone is not cutting it. I went pretty hard the last few months and finally ran out of money. The bad thing is I make decent cash but neglected everything but dope. I knew this would happen if found a connect. I saw it coming and just sat back and watched it happen. Other then that things are great I'm gonna get my drink on tonight. I can't get off with dope gotta do something.
 
^i read a post of yours earlier saying you felt something was "missing" with suboxone...thats why i love methadone because it gives you a nice warm buzz and zaps the cravings. Cheaper, easier and feels good. I like the buzz its kind of energetic and then when it wears off in the night you can crash. Keep us updated. Im a huge 'done advocate.
 
ohshea said:
Word...im doing alright. Got a freakin 5 day weekend because my professor had a conference thurs and friday and monday is martin luther king jr day. I love the weekend, but after while i miss being on a schedule. Doing alright for a junkie. Got my methadone in the am and dope in the pm and get a weeks worth of take homes so im satisfied. Happy im not on full throttle junkie status, maybe just like first gear.

Dude i hate paying bills. The courts are bending me over and stickin it in hard. Once i think i can finally see the end of my debt another case comes from out of the blue demanding money for fines/jail fees/ court costs, etc. I feel hopeless like ill never be debt free. And i havent even touched my student loans from '09. Anyone else feel they will never get their head above water debt wise?
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Trust me, you're not alone there. It blows but, you gatta just take it one bill at a time. Try not to think about all of it at once otherwise you'll freak out and get overwhelmed.
 
^yea man glad to know im not the only one dealing with this bs. Atleast i got my freedom though..would rather pay all these fines than get a warrant put out for not paying and get locked back up. God i love being free. La county womens jail is like two milea from my house and i drive by it frequently and when i do its a nice reminder to appreciate being on the outside!! And i always say a prayer for the girls wishing them speedy trials and releases.
 
^fuck yeah. whenever I think about hoops I had to jump through for probation or whatever I just remember it's better than the alternative.

I'm doing alright. Was pretty depressed earlier this week but I've been getting over it. I just get really fucking down sometimes, even though right now my life is objectively the best it's ever been.. I have love in my life, I moved to Cali with her, all my drugs are legal, it's fucking 85 in January, I'm not working (which is good and bad, haha), and I'm almost free from the criminal (in)justice system once and for all. But yet, goddam nagging existential angst.
 
ohshea said:
^yea man glad to know im not the only one dealing with this bs. Atleast i got my freedom though..would rather pay all these fines than get a warrant put out for not paying and get locked back up. God i love being free. La county womens jail is like two milea from my house and i drive by it frequently and when i do its a nice reminder to appreciate being on the outside!! And i always say a prayer for the girls wishing them speedy trials and releases.
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Yeah, once you've been locked up... anything else is better. So, I definitely think of it that way too. Yeah the fines suck, probation might suck, lawyer fees, all that nonsense. But, it's all better than being in a cell.

You can't put a price on freedom and that's something you only realize after it's been taken away.
 
Dont think I've ever posted on the social before but OK Memph - here you go.
Had a bad week, work-wise, lots of hate for my boss and the stupid shit he thinks he knows and what I gotta do. Honestly, ruined the whole week. Not even feeling any gratitude for the fact that I have a job and it pays the bills, supports my family, all that stuff.
Really thought it was gonna drive me to copping and getting high, although having to go work under those conditions would prob just make it worse.
So at the same time, I'm trying to stay clean and taper down on my daily sub and kpin dose (real scripts from real docs that i see for substance abuse). Thing is i wanna get clean and stay clean, but this was not the week to try and taper, and deal with the shit at work at the same time.
So, made it thru to Sat night, I'm at home, wife and kids are asleep, I'm clean exc for my scripts, and it looks like i'm gonna stay that way for the rest of the weekend.
We'll see what happens when i go back to work on Tuesday. I imagine boss will be just as much of a dick next week too.
I just gotta handle it better.

And we got the polar vortex returning mon/tues. Fuck that shit.

Hope you all are well.
 
Ugh maybe I'm high but I just connected to BL via .org mobile style. Correct me if I'm wrong but .org=us stationed servers. Any PC users experiencing this?
 
If its US stationed servers we lose a lot of privacy for sure. Tell me I'm going crazy and didn't switch to a US .org
 
Yep. BL switched over to .org.
Where have you been, bro?
.org stands for orgy. lmao.

& Yeah, you're right. However, the mods say "Our privacy policies & yada yada haven't been breached. It's the same as .ru... blah blah fuckin' blah"
Bunch of outright liars. Now that we're US based, I wouldn't go posting anything incriminating. At all. Ever.
 
Yes it is a .org, but that has nothing to do with where the actual servers are. They are still abroad.

A site can be registered and hosted in totally different places. It's just a domain name. No worries.
 
MemphisX3 said:
What's up with everyone?


this is a social role call



all involved state current status in life good or bad. Both old and new members and you old heads who lurk and don't post stop being a pussy.
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guess it was rude of me to say this and not throw in what's going on for me. working 2 jobs atm, my sleep cycle is fucked, i get 3-4 hours MAX, pain is at an all time high mainly because im waiting tables and on my feet a lot now. thought i found me a dr. to prescribe me methadone for pain but that fell thru. HOPEFULLY starting methadone clinic tomorrow. its like, my only option, as far as getting my life in order and not continuing this rat race of trying to get well just so i can go to work. i have no car atm but i dont much care about that right now. both jobs are in walking distance. the only thing i really care about now is finding a way to live my life like a normal human being. once i figure that out i will focus on other things and begin building up again. and once i get with the methadone clinic and begin getting to the point that i can go there and then not worry about anything until the next morning (copping, cops, needles, dealers, rides, etc) i will start to then worry about my pain. i dont know what to expect from the clinic, what kind of dose i can get etc. they just told me the weekly price and what days they take first time people and what time. i dont even know if i can get in that quick because im not sure where my social security card is and they said i have to have that.
 
I'm doing pretty good overall. I am on bupe maintenance currently, finishing up one degree and about to start on another. I have a great job and it's actually helping me connect with a bunch of people that can put me places.
 
JunkieDays said:
Yep. BL switched over to .org.
Where have you been, bro?
.org stands for orgy. lmao.

& Yeah, you're right. However, the mods say "Our privacy policies & yada yada haven't been breached. It's the same as .ru... blah blah fuckin' blah"
Bunch of outright liars. Now that we're US based, I wouldn't go posting anything incriminating. At all. Ever.
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Like Mr. Scag said, nobody has anything to worry about. Besides, you shouldn't ever post anything incriminating.
 
anybody wanna clue me in on what to expect from a methadone clinic? i am not doing anything today....well i have no plans too (no methadone, no dilaudid, no dope) and as long as i have my social security card i expect to go tomorrow.
 
I am moving in the right direction to be doing better than I have in a while. On Subs for past 2 weeks. I want to stay on them for a while, but I have no insurance atm and so I gotta pound the streets for them or cut down my dose real quick. Right now I can't do any drugs because I am going through a hiring process for a job with my hometown. They will be hair drug testing me, but shouldn't be until at least March. I just shaved my head and everything that grows out should be clean, so just hoping I have enough time to grow it long enough that they will accept that. The new job would be a huge step up for me, in multiple categories like salary, career advancement, benefits, and enjoyment. It'd be nice to know what they test for so I could maybe do something if they are not checking for it. If I don't get it I plan to leave my current job (which I already dropped to part time, but still work 40+ hours, hence no health insurance) go back into some business/office type job, because I got a bus. mgt degree collecting dust right now.

Of course like many here I have a lot of debt. Told myself many times over the past year that I would take a long break and clear it up, but always went back right after I had a saved some money, but barely paid any debt. So it kept building. This time I am kind of being forced to stay clean. I probably would've cracked otherwise. Still kind of scared I might crack or do something stupid and screw everything up. If I have to pay out of pocket for a maintenance drug I think methadone might be better, but I might be tested for that. I probably wouldn't get the job in that case even if I had a 'script.

As for my social life is honestly quite miserable these days. Actually its practically inexistent... though I sure could find things to do, I just don't really care to. My f'd up schedule for work doesn't help it at all. I guess that isn't a huge concern for me right now, there are other more pressing matters.
 
Having a new roommate means I'm basically making twice what I was & I got a raise last week. Now I have so many more monies to spend on durgs & clothes & getting out of debt as well.


Woooo~
 
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