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My life has become hell after one time with mephedrone

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JesusCop69

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So, sorry if this is the wrong place to post this I'm new here and I really need some answers.

So, it's been four months now since I took mephedrone and I have been in a haze ever since. I don't sleep well, I am in a haze it feels like my head is numb or really heavy and I can't think straight, my eyes get really bloodshot and the area under my eyes (like my lower eyelid) are really white and yellow and one of them has what looks like a cut under it (also right under my eyeball to the left of my left eye and the right of my right eye right above the lower part of the eyelid is really yellow), food makes me feel worse and I have terrible digestion problems (if feels as if my stomach is sweating on the inside of my body), and i have eye twitches.

I have been to the doctor plenty of times and have had an MRI, an EEG, bloodwork and have had a urine sample taken. All have come up with nothing out of the ordinary.

I can't live like this anymore. I'm not the same me and I desperately want to go back to how I was. Taking mephedrone was the first synthetic drug I have ever taken. I used to smoke pot alot but not like a normal pot head would (not judging or anything) like right before I took mephedrone I was smoking three times a day for two months and once every week for like three months before that and then once every three to four month before that. I also started to drink more before like a normal teenager would with his friends on the weekend but nothing out of hand.

I'm lost and I don't know what to do. I did have a lot of stress in my life before that but nothing that I have gone through has stressed me out quite like this.

If anyone could help I would really appreciate it.
 
I had a similar but shorter experience w/methylone - these RC drugs are really unstable at best. We do not know the long term affects and the neurotox level of it on the brain is unknown either.

For me it took a week of real clean living , I ate organic , used an entire body cleansing method, and upped the dose of omegas for my brain. Omega 3 is one thing I would certainly recommend, also maybe look into some 5-HTP and L-dopa. Honestly though after MONTHS I have to ask have you told your doctor why you feel the way you do ? Because your body and mind are incredibly capable of healing, this doesn't mean we should put them through hell. Be safe man, hang in there seriously.
 
I did take 5-HTP everything for a good week or so and I have been taking Omega 3's for the whole four months. I did tell my doctor that I took the drug and he thought it was my brain but he made me get an MRI, which showed up fine, and a EEG which showed no irregular electric activity in my brain. I had been talking to someone and they said it might be adrenal fatigue.

As for eating organic, I have no idea where I could buy any of that stuff'

Btw, I should have added in the first post that since I took the drug I have drank maybe a little more than 10 times and I also have not taken anymore of mephedrone.
 
Hmm , eating organic honestly was just something i instinctively did and whle I'd love to afford to be able to do so I am not still. I don't attribute coming around to it either, was more of a reflection. The 5-htp certainly helped me, I wish I could give you advice but if everything is checking out and your doctor is on board I hate to say it but time and patience sounds like the only remedy. Hopefully someone more knowledgeable with mephedrone can help here , hang in man , time does cure.
 
doesnt sound like mephedrone to me. never known meph to do that. perhaps meph cut with some really dodgy shit, or perhaps not meph at all
 
hey listen i know how scary it is to feel like you are fucked up permanently from a drug, especially when nothing is really known about it and you have no idea what to expect long term. the good news is that these sorts of things tend to get better. i have been in touch with multiple people who have felt they were permanently fucked up from a drug and every single one improved with time, although not everyone got 100% back to normal. i myself wont ever get back 100% to normal from my drug abuse.

but you can get back far enough that you can love your life again. the best thing you can do is take good care of yourself, eat a healthy diet. it doesnt have to be all organic but make sure its as natural as possible.
 
I'm not in shape to give a full response. Sorry.
But I have gotten long-term effects from drugs several times, and even though not all of it goes away, you will learn to live with it. I obsessed like crazy the first time it happened to me... but it really gets a lot easier to handle after a while (I'd say 6-12 months).

And being healthy will help you recover more quickly. Sleep well, eat well, exercise, socialize. The more you do the quicker you will be able to recover and the easier being healthy (and maintaining it) will be. Taking one aspect of health and doing it to the extreme is pretty pointless. Variety is the key, and a bit of everything is better than a lot of one thing, so don't just eat well and expect to become healthy. Remember that it takes months, usually years of healthy living to reverse years or a lifetime of bad health.
 
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Well it has gotten better somewhat but I just don't want to be messed up forever. From what the person I did it with told me I did a pretty small dose, nothing like a gram or so that some people take so I don't know why it would mess me up for the rest of my life.
 
How much a drug will damage you is largely a game of luck. There's no reason to be all that surprised. Like I said, it will be easier to handle eventually. You'll stop looking at your eyes all the time, etc. One day you'll remember the time you took mephedrone and realize you've learned new ways to live and new ways to think about all this anxiety-provoking BS. One day you'll just be like, 'eh, that's life, unfair as usual.' I, for one, am thankful that I didn't fuck myself up even more and that I'm still alive.
 
so when you guys say i wont be 100% you are saying my eyes will still twitch, itchy eyes, and problems thinking straight for the rest of my life? My doctor gave me the impression that even though he didn't know what was going on with me that I was eventually going to go back to the way I was. I mean I'm just really scared because I have a future all planned out and I thought that I would try it once since someone really made it sound good.

Btw, I never plan on taking it again or anything, but I just don't know how I could have done irreversible damage since all my tests have come out clean. I think something would seem wrong since I have quite a long list of symptoms.

Sorry if that sounds mean or anything, but I just am having a hard time with this.
 
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There's no reason why you won't be able to make a full recovery, although it may take some time. Situations like yours are mostly perpetuated by anxiety and stress. If you can take care of that it'll speed up your recovery a lot. Eat healthy, exercise, learn to meditate, stop all recreational drug use and go on with your life as if this never happened.
 
Hang in there my friend. I've been through bad months after stopping regular mdma/pill sessions & the side effects, e.g fluttering blood vessels, weird shit in my vision, confusion lasted weeks & even months.

Listen to your body! Do whatever it takes to get back to your old self. Good luck & i really mean that.
 
I know this is trite & you may think 'yeah i might just do that...' but a good routine of gentle, progressing to intense exercise will make you feel, look, think in a better way.
 
ok, sounds good. So if I keep up eating healthy, exercising, and keep up with my supplementation I will go back to how I was? I mean I can accept the fact that it might take some more time but I just don't want to be messed up forever.
 
JesusCop69 said:
ok, sounds good. So if I keep up eating healthy, exercising, and keep up with my supplementation I will go back to how I was? I mean I can accept the fact that it might take some more time but I just don't want to be messed up forever.
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You should be fine. It usually takes some time to get back to normal after abusing drugs that act on the seratonin system. In the mean time, try to avoid thinking too much about this issue and try to focus on other things in life.
 
That is odd, i haven't tried mephedrone yet but. I know a few people on this site who have done massive doses 'daily' for over months. They say that it doesn't have side effects like mdma does. But now i seem to wonder, i hope that makes you feel better. But recovery will happen, you can be sure on that part.
 
ok cool. thanks to everyone who posted. even though im not better yet i guess ill just have to wait it out. im glad i will be able to go back to normal.
 
since you mentioned "yellow" a few times and since your liver basically cleans your blood and yellow in eyes and skin -might- indicate some jaundice, you should treat your liver very gently for awhile. there are some herbal supplements you can get, like milk thistle, but eat really clean, drink lots of water, don't drink any alcohol and get some sun everyday cuz sunlight will help the yellow go away. even if your symptoms have nothing to do w/ your liver, treating your whole body gently for awhile is always a good thing to do anyway.
best of luck to you.
-izzy
 
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