Really Shambles? No way, for me the first few times was amazing, I mean it was like a trip, I was feeling of universal love towards the world, I once hugged a bouncer at Fabric and told him he was doing such an amazing job keeping everybody safe. Used to make plans of moving in together while coming back from clubs in a cab with people I'd met two hours before. Talk about my life in depth while standing in somebody's kitchen with total strangers. The energy, the emotion, all of it is gone. For the past few years MDMA has felt like an average euphoric stimulant, that's it, nothing else.
The last time I truly had an outstanding experience on it was like six years ago, maybe more. Now I'd rather do 4-FA, mephedrone, AMT
Don't get me wrong I still kept on taking for years after it had lost it's emotional depth and loving feelings, but that's because it was everywhere, widely available and common in my social circle, otherwise I would have probably switched to something else.