TheRapperGoneBad
Bluelighter
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I agree 100%, MOST W/d's from any drug is MOSTLY physcoligical.
But that's my problem, I can get past the physical part, im not a little bitch, and I can take all the pain I deserve from my addiction.
But the mental part ALWAYS beats me, depression is my main concern. I cry out of no where all the time during any w/d,.Sad thoughts never go away during w/d.
and music and songs, radio etc. I cry to almost EVERY song, even though its not a sad song....its very hard to explain. But my depression is horrible. Along with the depression I get, my anxiety gets to the point where im shaking and feeling a seizure coming up....im fucking SO scared of w/d.
That's why im sad about the pills being gone, itll take me back to relapse on Heroin, even though I fucking hate heroin, the smell, taste, even the high. But once you start methadone, there's no other opiate to compare, it's too strong. The only opiates that have a chance against methadones potency is Opana and Fentanyl. Methadone is in the middle of that pack.
1. Fent
2. 'done
3. opana
But im going to stick to 'done, because I got it covered by insurance now and I get free doses everyday.
My next doctor appointment, the one whos weaning me off of benzos, im going to ask for help with the opiates also. I want to get on SUBUTEX. But my dose is TOO high to go on that drug (80mg), the dose I need to be on to switch to Subs is 30mg, which will take a LONG time if I don't want to get sick. So what ill ask my doctor is, I want to stop taking methadone, theres 2 options how you can get on subutex from methadone,
#1 30mg or lower, and 3 days with no opiate use.
#2 Get RX'd another opiate for a month, example, Oxycontin, Morphine ER, Opana ER, w.e it is, take that for a month, and then switch to subs.
On my dose at 80mg, I have to wait 30 days to go on subs. Theres NO way in hell I can do that, I don't think ANYONE in the world would go cold turkey off of 80mg of methadone. So I need a replacement opiate for a month, then switch to subs.
Hopefully my doc would be cool and do that for me.
I'll show her my containers of Klonopin she RX'd me, and prove to her I take them as RX'd. I also stopped smoking weed, its been 20 days now with no ganja. Benzos helped me tremendously to stop smoking.
Weed w/d is minor, but it's still w/d....the most common and most uncomfortable symptons of weed w/d are LOSS OF APETITE, insomnia, and cravings. Benzos, brought my apetite back, I can sleep while on benzos, and theres no desire for me to smoke anymore, after 20 days in already. The 1st 3 days I was craving weed REALLY bad, but I fought my addict and beat his ass.
Tapering on mdone wasnt all bad doesn't really hit you till your almost off/off of it.
good luck to you with whatever you decide.
If you don't mind me asking, why switch to sub?