hi all. i tend to ramble on these so i'll try to keep this short and sweet. i've been an opiate junky for YEARS...never cared for benzos, however i have HORRIBLY anxiety issues which cause debilitating panic attacks. i used to be prescribed ativan and klonopin which worked wonders. i've only tried xanax a few times, and honestly they just put me to sleep before i noticed the effects. i've been on methadone maintenance at a steady dose of 70mg for about 3 months. i have NO medical insurance so i cant afford to get a script for anti anxiety meds which i desperately need! my friend however gave me a handful of xanax bars to help get me through til i find some ativan or klonopins, which i know i can safely take with my dones. i usually take 2mg-4mg of ativan while on my normal dose of 70mg dones and i feel fine...maybe a bit drowsy. honestly 2mg ativan is usually enough unless its a bad one. anywho, the past 4 days i've been experimenting with the xanax. the first two days i took 1mg, which helped tremendously wit the anxiety!!! however, it kinda made me EXTREMELY TIRED about 6 hours after i took em. and i was very afraid to fall asleep after reading all of the death stories of ppl mixing dones and xanax and not waking up! the second night my wife woke me up saying i was breathing strangely...like i was stopping breathing. later that night i woke up litterally holding my breath! i dunno what that was all about...kinda scary. yesterday i took 1.5mg cuz i had a pretty bad attack, and again it just made me horrendously tired about 6 hours after injestion, but i forced myself to stay up until 12 hours after injestion just to make sure that at least one half life cycle went by before i went to sleep. this morn i had a job interview and i was having a BAAAAD panic attack so foolishly i took an entire bar which is 2mg. im kinda scared...should i be worried about this? what signs should i watch out for? from what i've read most ppl die from passing out and not waking up...if i wait at least 12 hrs after injestion so that at least one half life cylce went by do u think i would be ok to fall asleep by then? any help would be greatly appreciated!!!!!! thx all!!! LONG LIVE BLUELIGHT!!! i would've been dead years and years ago if it werent for bluelight and all of the wonderful angels on this site! BLESS YOU ALL! This site has had to have saved millions of lives...sites like this gives me hope for humanity...just when i was lsoing faith, bluelight proves that there are still awesome caring wonderful ppl out there! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!