tweakerguy
Bluelighter
Hey buddy, I'm not sure what country you reside in as far as "pandemic" mandates and/or drug laws go, but lemme just say, it'll be ok, friend. You're not alone in any of this weirdness, and definitely not when it comes to a drug addiction. This'll pass, all of it sooner than u think. Just try to keep one eye on the prize and don't entertain those intrusive thoughts.I have 2 workplaces, both workplaces sell alcohol and we have to work long hours for this. Due to the pandemic, there is a time limit and unfortunately the number of people who come is low. It is a miracle that we even stay like this while the psychology of even normal people has been turned upside down due to the lack of communication. We used to close my workplaces on Sundays and go to the picnic area with my wife and children. But now we don't even have time to spare for ourselves. Damn, I wish I hadn't opened a second branch. Working alone is very tiring and customers never stop. I really don't know anything about penalties. I am taking it through a friend of mine. I have no choice but to treat myself. My wife knows that she treats me very well. I have hurt them a lot lately, so I retired to my workplace to question myself a little. I am currently staying at the workplace. I am very and very well from the first day. I use the phone off. According to the person who called me, I am calling again. If the phone is on, I can't look at it because I've been like this for as long as I can remember. I can't hurt anyone, I don't know how to say there is no one, and I try to make everyone happy as if I'm going to save the world. Actually, as you said, all I need is a 1-week vacation, but everything is closed due to the pandemic. I realized that I felt better. Actually, when I used meth, I felt more comfortable. After a while, excitement increased due to excessive use and distress began. Then when I smoked thc-containing cigarettes to calm down, everything went away, but when the effect wore off, I saw that I became more aggressive, more fragile, more angry. I usually have a food problem. When I'm hungry, I can't eat right away. Hours pass while I'm thinking about what to eat. If I'm hungry and someone says a bad word, wow, the curtain falls on my eyes and I start shouting and attacking things. I never hurt people. I don't lose hope. Thanks to you, I find the medicine mix I will direct my life.
Keep looking for the positive in EVERYTHING. Count those blessings. Sounds like you have quite a few just reading your posts. Take nothing for granted. You're a business owner and your family's intact (im assuming). Sounds like you're kicking a lot of ass haha.
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