its hard to explain but its like as if my brain is telling me to go sniff some more but i flushed them down the toilet. is my mind trying to trick me into thinking this is the only way to feel happy?Yeah, increased BPM and paranoia are relatively common side effects of meth. Meth has quite a long duration and elimination period, so you might still feel the nasty effects from it for a day or two after dosing.
If you can get hold of them, i'd recommend trying to get hold of some benzos, they can help a lot both with the paranoia and physical symptoms. If you can't get them, alcohol can work in a similar way.
