Hey
@Jackstatsslut 
First of all, I love the name. I'm sure there is a great little anecdote behind it. You'll have to tell me sometime. Anyway, this is a difficult situation. I, myself can actually relate on a personal level with your situation. I am currently working two jobs due to the increases in the cost of living (Vegas is bullshit also). I have also made the decision to withdraw from Methadone maintenance. I became concerned about the longevity of the maintenance programs as I saw the world approaching insanity. I did not want to be tied to such a thing should I need to move and survive. How do you manage chronic withdrawal from Opioids when you're already feeling like you're ready to break? It's not a easy situation, but I've been managing it, so can you.
Your intake is moderate-heavy, but I don't need to tell you that. You have been through the withdrawal process in the past and you're familiar with what happens to your body and mind. You pay back all of that stimulation with an equal and opposite amount of eating and sleeping. You are going to owe a pretty significant sleep debt getting out of this. You also have to manage your work (family?) life while dealing with a genera reduction in your physical and mental capabilities.
First off, the easy route involves taking time off from work. You are better off to accept that you owe some sleep and find a strategic time to get that sleep back. If you are asking what I believe is your best chance of success, remember, I'm just a fucking dude on the internet, here it is:
You find a way to get 3-5 days off from work however you have to. Tell them you have COVID. Say someone died. I'm not about lying, but we are trying to do something positive for you without ruining your life, so the collateral damage is acceptable IMO.
You finish your last shift. You immediately start the sleep process. Zero Methamphetamine intake. You're going to sleep, eat nutritious food, pop some vitamins, hydrate with some electrolytes (fuck Gatorade, make your own. Ask if you need help with that) and pump as much recovery into that time as you possibly can.
The end of your little break is where we reach a fork in the road. I'd like to know what you have available to you. If you're able to get a hold of some Amphetamine pills of any kind, tell me so we can make a plan. We're going to wake up early on your first day back and figure out how much Amphetamine you need to be functional. You are going to commit to a week of being a pretty useless employee, doing only as much as you're able to. If people give you trouble, reference the dead person again; tell them they're violating HIPAA by even asking you, figure it out.
You're going to finish your shitty week of work. You're going to then find a way of extending your weekend by a day or two. Come up with something. Your life is in the balance. You need to find the time to get better but also not lose your job so use your head. You're going to repeat the same process as before, no Amphetamine for the several day period.
You're going to repeat the same process as before, though with a much smaller intake of Amphetamine. We are going to decide what is needed and what is reasonable together and you will have to be responsible and stick to it. Following another week of work, you can spend another weekend without Amphetamines. Ideally, you will be able to enter the following week of work with minimal to no Amphetamine intake. If you ask me to shoot from the hip, I'd love to see you taking 20mg Amphetamine per day by this point with an eye on zero.
This is a rough plan. It depends on a few variables. Tell me what you have available to you in terms of drugs. Do you have a person in your life you can trust to help you through this? I consider your success to be infinitely more likely if you have a trusted person who can hold your Amphetamine and dole it out. It is an extremely difficult situation for you to manage a taper yourself.
Let me know what you think. I'll do my best for you, I promise. You are capable of getting through this. You're gonna have to give up on this shit and start believing in something better. I'm one person, but I'll help you as best I can.
